2008 here I come

OMG am I back in to blogging or what.

So far this morning slept in till 9am woohoooo that doesn't happen often but I woke up with another headache... Jeremy seems to think I have a nasel infection or something like that... I think I agree with him.

Corbin and Quinn wanted friends over today so I said we would phone some and so Corbin phoned Cathan to come over and then Jeremy talked to Ange (Cathan's mum) and she said she was going over to their new house (they are building) and would drop him off but he could only stay till lunch as he has a friend coming over... and we said we were going berry picking so he could come with us... well 10 minutes later Cathan phoned and said that he couldn't come over today but Corbin can come over tomorrow... Jeremy thought that was strange so he said can I speak to your mum he said she was in the shower and would get her to phone back...

Well when I got out of the shower she hadn't phoned... hmmm strange.. so I phoned her and she said that Cathan said that it was arranged to do it tomorrow and Jeremy said "no cathan phoned to say it.. he he he" so we realised that Cathan didn't want to go berry picking as he didn't like it but was too scared to say so... so he thought he would say he couldn't make it instead... anyway so we said we wouldn't go berry picking and he should come over and visit..

I went to pick them up from the building site and said to his mum that we could take Kiely as well (his sister) as she gets on with Quinn so well.

We also had Tahlia Rose (Quinn's girlfriend) who came over for the afternoon and Quinn was soooo excited. We went Blueberry picking and then they went swimming in the pool (paddling pool), and then we made blueberry muffins yummmy (but we also made mini ones for me to have he he).

We are going over to Cathan's place for lunch tomorrow and then on Friday we are going to our friends batch (hmmm not much of a batch it is better than a mansion he he he) at Mt Maunganui right on the beach for the day... and one of their son's is Corbin's friend at school... it is going to be fun.

Tania came over for dinner tonight we thought we would have ANOTHER BBQ he he he quite like the steaks on the BBQ.

I am back tracking and walking and feeling better today. Yesterday I wasn't feeling good in my tummy but we wen for a walk... I am enjoying the walking with Jeremy as we talk about things and work things out etc.

This year has to be a good one. I have managed to change habits and even with Xmas I haven't gained like I would have before and I have to be happy with that... I know that I can maintain and that is the hardest thing I reckon and if I can maintain then when I get to goal (YES I AM GOING TO GET TO GOAL) then I am not going to gain it back again and I do reckon that is the hardest thing.

My New Year's resolutions are going to happen this year.. I am going to achieve them and they aren't unrealistic I reckon.

Well better get going as we have Tahlia coming over and then we are going to go Berry picking as I have been wanting to do that like forever.

Saturday we are thinking about going to TeAwamutu to the Lavendar farm and Corbin wants to ask Ashley (Kris's daughter) he he he sooo funny he is smitten by her like you wouldn't believe and asked me to phone and ask.. I said why don't you and he said no... can you and had a red face.

Cathan and Corbin playing soccer swing ball (above)

Quinn and Tahlia picking blueberrys yummmy

Me... telling Jeremy TAKE the DAMN photo please... hate photos he he he

Yummy blueberry's... we got two and a half containers full of blueberrys yummmmmy

And a picture of Quinn and Tahlia... hugging... hmmmm not sure about this one... was being quite protective when they hugged and said now now... you guys are rather young... at least it was only a hug GEESH... OMG I am going to be in trouble with this boy when he gets to be a teenager that is for sure.

This is them making blueberry muffins and Corbin and Jeremy below making them too... sooo cool.

We went for a walk tonight and went the big block too... it was great and then tomorrow morning we are off to the gym woohoooo back on track back on track.

Good night all.

Chubbymum

Labour Weekend Camping

Friday

Had to get up early because we had to take the kids to school.

I took them to school while Jeremy got the caravan stuff ready for our trip.

Mum was in such a funny mood and snappy with us until we left to go to Grandparents day at Brianna’s school. We got to Brianna and Adam school and there were a lot of grandparents there… felt quite young really. Brianna was soooo excited we were there and then took us down to Adam class where he showed us his writing and pictures and we asked him questions and then it was outside to a show that the school was putting on with folk dancing and the older kids hip hop dancing… and we were back to Brianna’s class and she got me to do some art work with her… well for her he he he and I said to her teacher that she was getting me to do all the work and he laughed tooo funny. It was fun art stuff because we were doing like Hindu squiggle things all over the border of her painting… in the end it looked fabulous (if I must say so myself).

Got back home and found out why mum was soooo mad with me… she was mad because she thought that we had taken the kids to a friends place to look after them while we went to Brianna and Adam’s school… and when we got back in she said “don’t you trust me to look after my grand children? I was going to phone your friends to find out who was looking after them?” and I said to her “they are at school mum it is a Friday and I wouldn’t take to other peoples houses unless they had to go somewhere where you couldn’t drive and you know that and if you had bothered to tell me why you were pissed off then this could have been solved 3 hours ago and you wouldn’t have spent the whole morning seething.” She didn’t say a word OMG how stubborn is that.

Anyway we picked up the boys from school and came home to finish all the little bits and bods before heading off to Waihi… and before we started off we got a phone call from Tania saying “have you put your awning up yet?” I said “no we haven’t left home yet” she seemed mad because I think she wanted us to put up her tent… nope nope nope wasn’t going to happen”.

It was a nice drive to Waihi and the weather was absolutely gorgeous and the boys were really good on the way down and didn’t fight or anything… we put on a dvd of Tom and Jerry cartoon and so that kept them occupied. On the way over we got a cell phone call from Tania telling us she was behind us.

We got to the camping ground around 5 o’clock and the camp owner showed us to the site and OMG I don’t know how Jeremy was going to get in to the spot and then another camp person came and helped us guide him because I wouldn’t have a clue the spring on the caravan at the front little wheel on the tow bar part broke grrrr so we have to be really careful taking the caravan back and Jeremy’s dad is going to get it replaced. The tent next to us were about 6 big blokes watching a rugby came on tv and they came over to help us push the caravan back a little more as the car couldn’t get there as there was another car in the way…. It was really nice of them to do that as I don’t know how we would have done it. I didn’t realise how big the caravan was until we tried to back it up.

Got the awning up and put everything in the caravan in it’s right place and got the boys bed’s set up and then we went in to Waihi Beach shops to get fish and chips for dinner and as we were there we heard the lady behind the counter say “order for Lyn” and Jeremy said I won’t if it is the blogger Lyn and then this girl (about 12) cam across the road and OMG does she look like her mum so I was cheeky and texted Lyn saying “so you are having fish and chips for dinner then huh he he he and in the next breath she was outside and we went over there with our fish and chips and spent the night talking and drinking it was a great relaxed night chatting away until Quinny was starting to get a little tired so we thought it has been a long day we should take him back to the tent… OH I forgot to mention that Tania phoned us when we had were just going to start our dinner saying that she was having problems with putting the kids stretchers up and I said “well we are having dinner at the moment but after dinner Jeremy will come out and help but we are at a friends place so can’t stay” so Jeremy took the boys out there and sorted it out and I stayed chatting to Lyn and Bill… what a nice guy he is and soooo easy to get on with… well done Lyn ya trained him well he he he us women have to train them aye he he he.

Got home about 10.00 and put the boys to bed and then Jeremy and I watched a DVD in bed but didn’t get to see the whole thing as it was too late for us and our little eyes were closing…

THEN>>>> OMG at 3am in the morning sirens started going off… but the kids didn’t wake up but my heart was beating so fast as I was scared it was like being in the 1940’s with air raids going off. Jeremy seemed to think it was the fire sirens but OMG do they not know that there are such things as pagers in this day and age… It took me about 45 minutes to get back to sleep because I was shaken up by it all..

Saturday

Boys got up about 7.30 and we just didn’t want to get out of bed so we stayed in bed and then they tried to get in with us… now if you can imagine… a husband that is only 14 kilos lighter than me and me and it is a BARELY double bed and two kid as well arghhhhh but it was also kinda cool as we opened the curtain at the head of the bed and watched up at the trees and the berries on the trees and how beautiful the weather was with the sun coming through… it was a nice time.

Got up to get breakfast ready and realised that we didn’t even have a spatula to turn the eggs or anything to light the gas hobs so we had to go to Waihi to the supermarket to get stuff and brought some extra things like a cheese slicer and tongs and a gas lighter stuff for dinner tonight as we are going to Lyn and Bills again woohoooo for dinner and came back and had our breakfast it was yummy… and I worked out how to get online at the caravan BLOODY exciting.. now I can understand how excited ChrisH was when she was doing it in the café etc in Palmy… I was like a child in the candy store because my beloved laptop was working on the internet.

Did the dishes and read a book for a while and relaxed then when our tummies were less full we went to the hot pools here at the camping ground and the boys enjoyed themselves so much and to be honest I felt more relaxed in togs than I did last time we were here and I had new togs (smaller size he he he) and I didn’t like my thighs in them but what fat woman does aye he he he.

We came back and got dressed and then went to the beach where I got some really cool photos and hubby and I snuggled on the beach while the boys had so much fun digging and getting wet and just having fun. It is better now that they can look after themselves and entertain themselves. (oh and we had lunch before we did that... it felt great making the buns and talking and sitting watching all the families walking past.

We are now just relaxing and it is 4.20pm in the caravan. Corbin is playing on Jeremy’s laptop The Incredibles game and Quinn is watching a dvd and as you can tell I am on my laptop and Jeremy is reading his book… it is nice and relaxing and we have been on the go all day so going on computers etc doesn’t bother me because we should be doing things that make us happy on holiday aye.

I was saying to Jeremy that I want to be here the whole week… don’t wanna go home. It is like you just get used to being here in the 3 days and things are in a routine and then you have to pack up and go to normal life SHIT!!!!

Well we have a caravan trip planned for end of January/February for up in Whangarei area and then in Easter we are back in Bowentown… but not in a caravan but in a cabin so that should be fun. Even though Tania and her family will be there I am sure that this time we are going to do our own dinners etc because I am not giving my kids sausages every night for 5 nights like we had to last time because Tania was having everything her own way.

So we are off to Lyn’s place at 6pm and until then I am going to do some digital scrapbooking and relax relax relax.

Had a GREAT time at Lyn's place and the time went soooo fast. The boys were on their best behaviour and had fun in Lyn's room on their gym equipment but I must admit I was sitting there thinking... boys don't touch don't touch he he he like any mother would do aye.

It feels like we have known Lyn and Bill for like 10 years and the conversation was always going on . We had fun on Lyn's computer later on and did morphing on it too and laughed out heads off.

Got back to the caravan with the kids at 11pm OUCH... was sooo hoping that the boys weren't going to be snots the next day that is for sure.

Goodnight
Chubbymum

OM *F* G

Warning... saying what I am thinking

OMG some people just don't get it!!!

I don't know if I mentioned that we are going to Athenree to test out my father in laws caravan before we buy it and we are also catching up with Lyn woohoooo... can't wait but I got a phone call tonight telling me TELLING ME that Tania and her family are going to be there OMFUCKEN GOD.... the last holiday we had at Bowentown with her I wanted to throttle her by the end of it... her constant shouting at the kids and her husband and me and telling everyone how and what we should do...

So she phoned up tonight and said that her husband will be there late can we help with putting up her tent FUCKEN hell... we are trying to put up the awning on our fucken caravan and set things up and see how it works for us and she is just barging in on our holiday... sorry I should be grateful that she wants to holiday with us but she didn't bother asking (not that I would have had the guts to tell her anyway) but the gall

I am still not feeling 100% but this just makes me angry...

At least we are out on Saturday night with Lyn and another friend has asked us out for the Sunday so we are going to do that so we won't see them that much but I was looking forward to a holiday without being told like a 2 year old what to do.

In April we went to Bowntown for Easter and she took her mother and father along as well and all they did all weekend was bitch at each other and her and her husband moaning about everything and even the dinner was what she wanted and the kids were only allowed sausages and no other meat so in the end I went and got some other stuff for my kids it was a bloody nightmare... She has also booked Easter where we are going too next year.

I like Tanya don't get me wrong but going on holiday with her I end up with a headache as she has the most appalling manner with her kids and they can't do anything. We took them down to the beach and she moaned when we got back that they got wet and had sand on them and that they will get a cold bla bla bla but the kids actually had a great time without her... but then I was babysitting her kids and mine GREAT.

So at least we have Lyn place on Saturday night to get away from them and we can have some fun... I can't wait to see Lyn and meet her family and have been looking forward to it that is for sure.

Contracts woohooo

We didn't go for a walk tonight as it was raining....yes I know that isn't an excuse but I have so much to do for the expo that I am not going to go out... plus.... TANIA (lovely lovely Tania) phoned me this afternoon and maybe has a potential customer for me for my bottle labels OMG OMG am I excited... it is with Lodge realestate. They want an official quote for labels and what I can do for them etc by tomorrow morning as they are contracting her to do gift baskets as well and she mentioned that she has a friend that has a business etc etc... woohoooooo for me.

So on top of doing the invites and finishing alllllllll the stuff I have to do tonight I have to do the quote... and to be quite honest I should be doing it instead of doing this blog he he he but I am being a procrastinator until the kids go to bed or I will be doing it out of frustration because I can't concentrate I know I know excuses aye.

So if I get this then I will have two contracts for businesses for their gifts wohoooo... and if you know of any other business that might want to hire me please please tell them he he he

I felt sooo hungry today and wanted to nibble nibble nibble.

To tell you the truth I am worried about my weigh in tomorrow.... only because 2 weeks ago I was a nightmare with my food and in my experience in the last two years I take 2 weeks for a weigh to show properly and even though I have been good for the last two weeks it won't show up just yet. I have 400 grams to get to my teens OMG I wish I would get it but I am not going to put my hopes on it AT ALL.

Work was full on today as I was trying to catch up on things.

Anyway goodnight everyone
Love Chubbymum

So...

So yesterday was my lazy lazy day and decided I would have a day that if I don't do exercise then that is fine.

I didn't want to do anything actually... he he he

I didn't want to spend time doing the kids spelling in Quinn's class and I didn't want to take my mum anywhere and I didn't want to do anything to do with weight loss.

So I didn't actively do exercise or steps and my steps for the whole day were 2587 but I wasn't unhappy about that.

I got up took the boys to school, told the teacher I couldn't do the spelling today and she was ok with that. I didn't give her an excuse because I got roped in to do the spelling anyway so one week off isn't going to hurt.

I then took my lazy arse he he he and went to starbucks and sat there for an hour reading my Her Business Magazine and pad and pen and had a croissant (naughty I know) and a coffee. It was a nice relaxing time.

Later that morning I went to my friends shop and talked about the table setting with invites and wine bottle etc that I am doing for her window dress up wohooo...

Then came back and had a cup of tea with a friend and my mum at the coffee shop and picked up the boys from school.

That night was Quinn's production at school with the 5 new entrant classes. We went really early so we could get a good seat and we got the front middle and it was soooo cool to have that seat so we could see Quinn and all the others. I was sooo proud of him and he had this higher than though look on his face. So that was a late night for the boys but I got lots of photos.

Today (Friday)

Corbin woke up and was coughing and coughing and coughing so I said he could stay home as long as he wasn't watching tv all day and had to spend some time in his bed to get rid of this cold (the only reason I said that was because I was afraid he would take advantage of not being at school) this is his first day ever in the 3 years that he has been at school that he has taken a sick day so I am quite proud of him for that.

I did a couple of invitations and I left Corbin with mum and went for a walk around the lake. It used to take 55 minutes to walk around it but today I took 35 minutes and I jogged about 7 time around it (4 km) and it was 5787 steps so that was a fantastic effort on my part. I was really happy about that.

After that I came home and managed to do some more on my invites and then took off for my friends shop again to show her the wine bottle and name plates I did but the colour of them wasn't quite right so I am going to do it a lighter colour and try again. Went there to support her as there was a nasty person put in a complaint to the authorities about her advertisement on the radio about child abuse and she didn't even do the ad the radio station did and they are going to sort it out... something about it sounding like a kid was being hit OMG some people aye. They could have gone to the radio station first but no had to get lawyers in on it. My friend was beside herself and I kept telling her that she knows that she isn't that sort of person and that it will get sorted and the radio station is going to sort it out.. apparently they have to prove that it isn't a child being hit on the advertisement OMG sometimes it can go overboard as if a child would have been hurt in an ad for flowers GEESH.

I went to Davidz Emporium to get my backdrop material for my site at the wedding expo today as they had a huge sale on so I got black calico for $6 for 5 metres and I would have paid more than that at other places I was sooo happy about that and I brought some ribbon for some invitations as well... it was a good price.

Went to Rock'n Roll tonight with the boys and Corbin is getting quite good at it and with a little more practice he can go to the next step of learning the turns etc and Quinn was doing ok... he was a little silly at the start and wasn't listening. When they had a free for all this little girl (maybe a year older than Quinn) came and asked him to dance and so he did and it was sooooo cute I wanted to go over and take a photo but didn't take my camera so I didn't embarrass them he he he mean mummy I am.

So anyway that is it for me.

My steps for today are 8776 so I am happy with those steps.
Have a great weekend everyone
I am not sure if I can update as it is a full on weekend this weekend.

Love ya all
Chubbymum

Busy busy day.

My day went tooooo fast!!!!

OMG I can't believe how fast my day went.... and I don't even think I did that much.

As usual on a Thursday morning I help out in Quinn's class and do their spelling for them all and that takes from 9am till 10.30am... and that is fun. I find it quite cute that 5 year olds say "Oh that is easy" when I give them a word and they get it completely wrong he he he too funny.

Quinn thinks he is sooo important when his mum is doing this for the class and the other kids talk about it... OMG small things amuse small minds he he he he.

I have been slack in the last week getting around to everyones blogs AND I AM TOTALLY SORRY FOR THAT so if I haven't commented it isn't because I don't love ya all just that I have not had a lot of time to read them but don't fear I will be catching up tonight.

So after that I got a phone call when I got home from Tania asking where the hell I was because I was supposed to be coming over to her florist shop to go over some magazines she had of invitations etc and having a coffee with her... OMG I forgot... but then again sometimes Tania thinks she asks me something and in the end she hasn't but it was in her mind he he he...

So I took my mum to the shopping mall and dropped her off there for a couple of hours while I ran around like a blue arsed fly he he he.

Went to Tania's shop and got there and she was sooo busy I ended up answering the phone and helping customers which was funny when I don't have a clue about floristry he he he but that is life... and then fixed a computer problem she had and had about 10 minutes looking at magazines with her before I had to go. Well that seemed like a waste of time he he.

Went to pay for my banner for the expo (Tania got us a really good deal... it usually costs $250 because I phoned and asked how much a couple of weeks ago) and since Tania has made an impression on the guy he is charging us $50 so I can't say no to that. So anyway I got there and he looked quite grumpy and I thought OMG what have I got myself in to.

He took my disk that the designer did for me and then this guys said "OMG this guy is a fucken idiot" I just took a breath thinking OMG guy you have a customer here but in the end I could understand what he meant when he explained to me... the designer charged me $565 dollars and it took him 2 weeks to get it to me and the guy said I was jipped and he proceeded to show me that he did it in 10 minutes and then showed me other problems with what he did OMG I felt like an idiot but how am I supposed to know ya know. So he said to me "since you are Tania's friend I am going to redo all of these for no charge and give you a disk copy of it all" OMG I said Thank you Thank you and I will make sure I tell everyone I know that has a business how wonderful you are... and then after that we joked and teased and his wife is lovely too so it was quite a wonderful time to find a true wonderful businessman that isn't just after money ya know.

Then went to get my money off the lady I am doing the wedding invites on and hopefully I will finish that this weekend yayyyyyy...

Went and picked up mum from shopping and then we went out for coffee and finally lunch with the school ladies.

Picked up the boys and got their hair cuts and now back home... so my day has been really busy.

Lyn mentioned that she hasn't seen any before and now photos so I will endeavour to get hubby to do some photos over the weekend to show you guys the difference but...... if you guys go to my links on the side and go to chubbymum pictures you will find comparisions I have had in the past there. I must admit that last one taken there was September 2005 naughty naughty me he he he.

I am going to be getting on with the wedding invites tonight so I don't have the whole weekend doing this wedding but going to totally enjoy doing it. Plus I need to get that sample down to you Lee-Anne (smack hand).

I checked my weight this morning he he he and I know I shouldn't but it was 120.8 wohoooo bloody woohoooo... now I have to keep going this week and get more weight off. I am feeling less scared about the week knowing I don't go for weigh in on Tuesdays at WW... but if I start to feel lazy I am going to get my backside back to WW whether it be online or to a meeting because I am not giving up on the weight loss either ya know.

Anyway if I think of anything else later

Last day of School holidays

Woooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhoooooooooooooo

Last day of school holidays today. I do LOVE my children so much but I also like having my days off so that I can achieve things I need to achieve and I also hate with a passion stopping them fight grrrr.

Got up this morning and didn't want to get out of bed but I knew I had to go to my PT with Joy this morning at her place (as she no longer works at the gym anymore).

So I got up and had an English Muffin and then decided I had time to spare so I would walk to her house for my PT session. It took me 15 minutes to walk there and it was SUCH a beautiful morning it was nice to get out and just think about things without being interrupted.

I got there and she said OH I am glad you are ready because we are going for a walk ARGGHHHHHH I like walking but her speed is like running he he he. I said to her I would be walking but I also want to be careful of my back if I am too tense when walking then there go my muscles and I pull my back out again so she sort of slowed it down.

So we went for a half an hour walk (so that adds to 45 minutes with the walk there) and then went back to her gym at her place and we did punch bag punching with gloves and then we concentrated on my upper body with pressups and then on the bench with weights doing chest pull things in three different ways... OMG sore chest sore upper arms and when she tried to up my weights it hurt my back so she put them down.

It was GREAT!!!! I enjoyed it more than going to the gym and doing it with her!! It was one on one and there were no interruptions (which was usually Kris) and there weren't any people there asking her questions while it was on my time.

She doesn't have any cardio machines but I didn't care!! I said to her I felt happier because it seemed like we got more done and I felt more relaxed because I wasn't worried if my shirt was right or if I was looking like a dork.

Now I didn't think I ever thought I did but after going to her place for the PT now I realise that I am self conscious about whether my top is down hiding my tummy or not... Wow... isn't it funny how your self conscious works.

I walked home and when I got home I got a phone call from Tania saying that we have to come up with a blurb for our two business for the pamplets about the Wedding Expo... so I am going to talk to hubby tonight to see what we can come up with for my part.

Tania also said "what are you doing in June" OMG I said "as long as it doesn't cost me money!!" he he he and she said "well sort of" grrrrr she wants me to train with her to do the TeAwamutu 8km walk. I said I would do it but with my back I am not over doing it because my physio said 3 to six months and I have only been ok in the last week and that is just ok... so I have another target to head for.

So I said to her are you working this afternoon and she said no and I said lets go to the lake and walk around it (it is 4km) and she said "but I have the kids" and I said "I have the kids too" she said they wouldn't walk around it (now her kids are older than mine by about a year). I said the reason your kids wouldn't do it is because you keep saying that they wouldn't... if you didn't be so negative they would.

Quinn and Corbin have been going around the lake walking for 2 years now and they started when they were almost 4 and almost 6 so she cannot tell me a 7 and two 9 year olds cannot walk around it... that was just an excuse.. and I told her that. So she said yes...

YES YOU GUESSED IT she called back in an hour and said she couldn't make it as she couldn't squeeze in the time OMG first practice run and chickens out GEE WHIZ. I just left it at that because if she doesn't want to try I cannot push her.

She lost 35 kilos before going down to Hokitika and she has gained it all back since coming back.. she said she has only gained a little but OMG even hubby said she is fooling herself because she is looking bigger than when we met her. This is the lady we went to the Easter camping with... I DO LOVE her dearly but I just want her to stop using excuses but I cannot do anything about that and I have to support her.

I am glad in a way that we are doing this walk because at least she is thinking about it and she wants to do it... so we are getting somewhere I suppose.

Wow... I think I was getting a bit angry this year because I hadn't done that many challenges and now I have a mixture of business and exercise challenges.

I now have the Wedding Expo and the Te Awamutu 8km walk. That is a great start don't ya reckon.

Tonight is my business meeting with Hubby he he he we need to set some goals and tasks so I don't feel overwelmed because at the moment I don't know where to start.

I have been a little bit laxed on my food this week and I am quite angry with myself. I have three days of being good so that I can get some more weight off this week and I HAVE TO STAY FOCUSSED, I HAVE TO!!

The boys start their soccer practice next week and then the soccer games next Saturday OMG it has started again boohooooo.... I am not managing the teams this year because it is too much with two teams and trying to go to their games are going to be interesting enough he he.

Food Today:

Breakfast: 1 English Muffin, Chicken Bacon
Lunch: Corned beef sandwich, V
Dinner: Chicken, Macaroni, Beans, Tomato
Water: 2 litres
Exercise: 1 hour PT with Joy and 30 minute walking

Papaya ARGGHHHHHHHHHH

First day of 10 week challenge....
I haven't done too bad and I am feeling good about it and I am soooo greatfull that Celtic girl and I are doing it together and do you want to know the MOST WEIRDEST THING EVER... we both weighed in for the challenge and we both have a start weight of 121.6 he he he DO YOU NOT FIND THAT THE WEIRDEST THING EVERRRRRR??? Woohooo Celtic girl we are going to do it!!!

I must say that I had a tear in my eye reading Celtic Girls blog here today re the awards and what she wrote about me... I never knew I was one of the first blogs she ever read and OMG how she described me Nahhhh he he he I can't be that person.. I don't see myself as that person he he he... WOW (tear coming down my cheek)

Welcome Abba and I am sooo glad you are doing the 10 week challenge with Celtic girl and I... maybe us three should get our heads together on how we can keep each other motivated aye!!
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Yesterday...

Work was ok yesterday... it seemed more relaxed or something and I had plenty of time left to do little bits and pieces.

Went to the garden centre in the afternoon after work to see if they had any swamp plants because my mother in law gave us 2 caterpillars and a little branch of swamp plant but they had eaten it all and she didn't have more.... but they didn't have any and the boys had pocket money of $2 and they wanted to spend spend spend so I suppose it was better than spending it on lollies and they both brought a punnet of flowers each he he he cute aye.

After we saw Tania driving down the road so I texted her to see if she had an swamp plant and OMG she did so she gave me the whole tree as her caterpillars were getting eaten by praying mantis grrr so I took the plant and put our two caterpillars on it and now they are living happily ever after he he he can't wait till they go into a chrysllis.

Tania phoned me at work and said "are you doing anything on the 22nd July?" I said "ummmm No I don't think so" and she said "good I hope you have $250 as well" OMG I took a breath and said "What the hell for?".

She said "I have booked you and me in for the Wedding expo and we are going to share a stall" OMG OMG OMG that is when I freaked and said "I don't know if I can do that" she said "well too bad!!!"

I think I am too scared to do it!
I know I can do the invites just that it is like being judged and what if no one books me or wants to visit me?
Also how do I do a stall with my invites (or half a stall?)
How do I present my stuff and how do I present the stall???
OMG only 13 weeks until I have to have prices and sets of Wedding stuff.

So I called my friend that has just finished her studies in accounting and she came over last night and we went through all the stuff about GST and if it was worth registering for GST etc but really in the long run until I earn $40,000 or over it isn't worth it just yet. But she has shown me ways to claim for things and to do my tax returns.

So I went this morning and got a business bank account and a business manager that will help me with anything I need.

I got a record book for my mileage and a Calendar for my wall.

I felt empowered and sooooo happy that finally I think this is going to BE THE RIGHT thing for me and this is the business I am going to succeed in and if it takes years I don't care because it is something creative and I am happy doing it.

So I have worked out a 13 week plan to get things done for the Wedding Expo woohooooo, and I have to keep to it so I can get this right. I am a Virgo can anyone tell he he he?

I weighed myself again this morning (ok I am not addicted just wanting to keep myself on track) and I weighed at home at 121.1 kilos (equivelant to WW 120.3 kilos) woohooooo. Now I have to just keep going down in the right direction because I don't want to go back to feeling bad about myself.

Took the boys to a 2 hour holiday program at the gym this morning so that I could go and get all my stuff done like business bank account and stuff and they just enjoy it and it doesn't cost me anything because hubby and I are members so 2 hours a week in the holiday's is fanbloodytastic.

Last night when my friend Denise came over to talk about GST we asked her for dinner and the boys were on their best behaviour and then didn't have to be asked and they got their showers (remembering that they are 5 and 7 years old) and they cleaned their teeth and cleared the table and set the table and went to bed and read their books before lights out and they didn't disturb us by getting out of the bed OMG I was soooo proud of them (and was wondering where my boys were he he he)

So this morning hubby and I said to the boys that we were really happy with how wonderful they were last night and how they made us proud and I treated them today. Ice Age 2 was on sale for $19 so I went and brought that and brought a cake mix so that they could cook a cake and have for afternoon tea and watch the DVD... (which is what they are doing now while I update my blog he he he).

Kris phoned me while I was on my computer yesterday and OMG she talked for 45 minutes on the phone and I just said ah yes ah and by the end of it OMG what was I thinking why didn't I just say piss off? Whooppeee she has gotten her life together and worked out this and that... well if she would have listened to her friends a year ago then there wouldn't be a problem.... yep yep yep finally over her... yep yep yep sad sad sad person.

Love ya
Chubbymum
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Today's Food:

Breakfast: English Muffin, Chicken Bacon, Egg
Lunch: English Muffin, Chicken Bacon
(hmmmm just wanted another one for lunch sue me he he)
Dinner: Corned beef, Potatoe, Carrot, Cauliflour, String Beans
Snack: 5 Marshmellows
Exercise: Walked 40 minutes with boys around the block

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Yesterday's Food:

Breakfast: 2 Sandwich Bread, Chicken
Lunch: Vogel Bread, Chicken, Pickle, Lettuce
Dinner: Chicken Tikka (homemade), Rice, Beans
Snack: Chocolate Brownie, V (went out for morning tea and this is my one treat this week).
I am going to let myself have one treat a week as I need to have a treat.
Exercise: Walked 40 minutes with boys around the block

Been in a funk

Been in a funk today!!!

Back at work but my back was killing me today.

Over the weekend things seemed to go ok with my back and I had twinges here and there but they were bearable but today I was in agony. I went to the doctor's after work and got some different pain killers and they make me feel just as weird as the ones I took in the weekend.

The pain killers the doctor gave me Thursday morning made me feel really relaxed and that was good but I felt so light headed it was a strange feeling and then on the Friday morning I threw up and felt really bad for the whole morning.

I am so hoping that these tablets do the trick.

I didn't go to WW tonight and there were a couple of reasons...

1. I was in agony and I could not have sat in my chair and listened and driving there wasn't good either.
   
2. I haven't been that wonderful since not being able to exercise and I had an email from one of my WW leaders and she was straight to the point that exercise doesn't mean I can't lose the weight (and I know she is right) but I have been a stupid cow (yes I know guys I said stupid again) I have not tracked and I have not really wanted to... I have given up in the last couple of weeks.
   
3. I have gained!!! I just know it and I feel it!!

I feel like a broken record and had a huge breakdown with hubby tonight about it all. I feel so out of control and I just wanted to finish with WW this week for good because I just haven't cared. I shouldn't use the back as an excuse but honestly today I was in so much pain at work with my back that there was a morning tea and I didn't stop at just one thing!!

I got my ACC letter today saying that I was covered for my back. I am so happy about that because I think I will be going to the physio quite a lot until it is sorted as I am going back to my exercise because I feel so down in the dumps and my emotions are all over the place when I am not being active and I am not liking it.

Anyway.... hubby and I have a plan from tonights dinner that I am going to cut everything down but a quarter. So for dinner I had chilli con carne and salad and it was filling. I am also going to cut down on the carbs as I eat too much of them.

I do want to keep with this lifestyle change. This afternoon while sitting in my office I was feeling sorry for myself and I was totally going to give up! I was!!! but after getting off my sad horse I know I can't do that.

Tomorrow I will:

1. Go for a walk even if it is just down the street and back and not to overdo it so my back hurts.


2. Drink my water.


3. Have a good breakfast so I don't feel that I have to nibble.

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Ok my bitch over now...

Attached are some photos of my camping trip and I know I haven't sad too much about the weekend but to be honest I don't want to... because I would say negative things and I want to remember that I had time with my family and that was the most precious thing that weekend (apart from meeting lovely lyn that is he he).
Above my boys were sitting on a lovely rock at Karangahape Gorge and I just loved how delicious they looked. My boys were so happy to be going on holiday... look at their faces and this was only the first day he he he.

Corbin took this photo little cheeky monkey. We thought we would catch a kiss while the boys took a photo of the water and he turned around and took a photo of us instead he he he.

Isn't Wahi just beautiful!!!! I just love this photo and I loved walking up this beach in the weekend and I also loved just sitting there and taking it all in.

This is hubby and Tania's hubby and the kids making sandcastles and having a great time.

Like father like son... Hubby called me and I turned around and there he was taking a photo of me relaxing at the beach... but I do like this photo I must say.

We went long line fishing and we caught a sting ray OMG I was like gobsmacked because I didn't think that stingray's would have been that close to shore but they are and you would be happy to know that we set it free to go back to the sea poor thing.

Good night everyone... I need to get some sleep.

Love ya

Chubbymum

Camping

Hi Everyone

I am at Bowentown camp and just loving it. I must say I am a little tired of my back and it has gotten much better since the middle of last week that is for sure.

Thursday
Well Wednesday night I was in so much pain that I booked in for the doctor this morning. She ended up sending me for a blood test as she thought maybe I could have had a blood clot so I was terrified for an hour and she said that I would have to stay in Hamilton because if the blood test came back positive then I would have to go and have a scan or something and I said well I would be just coming back because I was going on this holiday.

I got a phone call on my cellphone to say that it was Negative woohoooo so I am glad we took off for the holiday anyway.

It was great after getting the negative results and we stopped at Karangahake Gorge and walked across the bridges and took photos and had some fun with the boys. I enjoyed it a lot.

We got to the Waihi township and I went in to a tiny $2 shop and got spades and buckets and they were the best investment for this holiday that is for sure.

We went down to the beach with my kids and Tania's kids that afternoon and spent time getting wet and sandy and it was a blast and all the kids just get on so well. Tania didn't come down she just wanted to sit around reading so she missed out on her kids having fun... but then she turned up and all she could do was shout at her kids to get out of the water and stop getting so dirty that I turned to her and said go back to the camp ground and I will tidy them up as they are kids and need to have some fun.

I am liking having the two families together but want to shake Tania because her kids can't be kept in cotton wool all their lives or it is just not fair.

So needless to say hubby and I had 5 kids this weekend and not 2 he he he but we got shells and walked along the beach and it was good.

Tania and her mum argue more than me and my mum do and I have a little bit of a headache and last night (Saturday night) I said "For christ sake stop it... Stop bitching at each other.

Tania has gained about 20 kilos back in the last year and I have been trying to get her to get off her backside and get out with me this whole time. I am a little afraid that she is using her ankle as an excuse because she doesn't want to get up at all when we are at home either and I don't want my friend going back to her size she was before... but I need to say it in a nice way.. how do I do that?

We went out line fishing last night and ended up catching some fish and a sting ray and I took a photo of it. Soooo coool.

I met Lyn and she is JUST FABULOUS what a darling she is and I felt really comfortable talking to her. She is so easy to talk to and so nice. I hope that we meet again that is for sure. I also took a photo and I will attach it when I get back off holiday.

I think I have been good with food while we have been away. I have had a hollow easter egg though he he he and totally enjoyed it for the diet starts on Monday he he

We have booked the camp ground again for next year for Easter so I get to meet Lyn again next year he he he.

Thinking about seeing if there are any spaces for January next year too and get out with the kids... but we shall see.

It has been nice coming out with another family and I do adore Tania and her family and we have been playing cards and games too and it has been an experience.

Anyway better go back and cook dinner now and catch up on my book he he he for tomorrow we go home.

Miss reading your blogs and I will update properly when I get back. Love ya all.

I will attach photos when I get back too.

Love ya
Chubbymum

Sunday!!!!

Got up late this morning as I didn't go to sleep till late as I was in a lot of pain with my calf muscle last night. OMG I haven't had that much pain ever! But last night was really bad.

Got up and did a spring clean of our bedroom and ensuite and then the kids came up to annoy us and ended up helping us it was great to have them help and not moan he he he.

We then went down and had breakfast and we all went for a bike ride. I was in a little bit of pain getting on the bike but it was better than going for a walk because on a bike you can glide in parts... so I got a little bit of exercise woohooo as it has been a week with no exercise and I was hanging out for it.

When we went to the shops we go a fruju iceblock each and an old friend of ours saw us sitting on the bench and came over to chat. It was good catching up with her (she is the reason hubby and I got together 18 years ago) so it brought back some memories and we don't live that far from each other so we will have to catch up again. She goes mountain biking with her family and she isn't a skinny thing either so we might join them as a family one day it would be great.

Tania came over after lunch and we went food shopping for our camping trip Easter at Bowentown. I can't wait it is going to be great there are three families going and all with kids the same age so woohoo for us. I brought a magazine and taking a book and my cross stitch and then I am sorted for the weekend he he.

Went to Tania's for dinner tonight.. hmmm nice pork roast yummmy. It was a relaxing night. Her hubby wasn't there but sometimes that is a good thing as he makes it a little tense and I don't think he is a very sociable person usually. Tania, hubby and I had a good time.

Anyway going to go and make a camping list argghhhh so many things to do in so little time he he he. Beach here we come.

Love ya all
Chubbymum

Physio appointment today

I don't know if I had told anyone about pulling my back on Sunday... well I was in sooo much pain yesterday and today that I made an appointment with the physio this morning because the pain was going down my lower back to my back of my thigh and a major pain in my calf muscle and I couldn't take the pain anymore and I told Joy I wouldn't be at my PT this morning (and if you all know me I wouldn't give up my PT for nothing NOTHING at all). She told me that I needed to get to a physio and stop worrying about money and just got.... Bloody expensieve people if it isn't covered by ACC. The physio said it was covered by ACC Wohooo bloody woohoooo. I am not really that stingggyy really I am not. I just want to be better by next week when we go camping.

I phoned up and made an appointment and got one at 10.40 and before that I went to visit Tania at her shop and we sat and talked and it was nice... I got a bit upset because I can't sit without being in pain and also driving is painful. It was nice to catch up with Tania and have a good chat. She gave me a hug and said she was sorry for giving me hell about K. I said to her I understand why she goes at me about K and I understand that I need to keep away from her but I am not a fool... I have stopped replying to her texts and I say hello at school this week and I am happy with that.

I would never be upset with Tania... she can be a bit straight forward sometimes but I know it is with good intentions. I said to her if I was truly pissed off with her I promise I would tell her to F**K off he he and she laughed.

So anyway I have exercises to do to stretch my muscles and have to go back to him on Wednesday night... OMG I hope I can last till then and I hope the stretches help too. He said to take some pain killers to help things... I said I can take panadol but not Voltaren because of my ulcer grrrr... I hope that panadol works.

My mum is at bingo today and I must say it is nice having the house to myself and doing things for me. I was going to go and have a bath but was too scared I wouldn't have been able to get back out he he.

I am still being really good with my food but with not being able to do exercise I am not sure if I am going to make it to my 35 kilos before Easter. I will be so so so pissed off that is for sure.

I am glad to be back on blogger. I did like Vox but I am more at home on Blogger and I can put my stuff down the sides. I have to update with peoples blogs on the side bar but will get to that. If you read and want your blog on the side please tell me.

Love ya all
Chubbymum

Weekend

Ok..

So my weekend has gone so bloody fast it is unbelievable and can't really say it was over the top wonderful but ya know.

Friday night I had Debbie over and we were putting paua shells on a clutch bag of hers... not sure why but she thought it was what needed to be done to match her hair and necklace for her brothers wedding... hmmmmm it wasn't really something I would do but it made her happy. Jeremy and I finally convinced her that wearing paua shell flat jandle sort of shoes just didn't go with the beautiful black flowy skirt (from precious vessels) and a lovely greeny top it just made a lovely wedding outfit look like she was going to the beach.... I think we convinced her of that so hey that was soooo good...

Satuday got up early as we had to be at the school hall to see what teams the boys are in for soccer. OMG I have to take them to practice each for each team and then they both have a game on a Saturday ARGGHHHH I am a serious soccer mum now he he he. While we were there this guy came up and gave me a hug and I didn't get too much of a chance to see who it was and then realised it was my ex boyfriend.... one of hubby's friends from school. I met him before I met Jeremy. It was nice seeing him again as we parted friends as the relationship shouldn't have happened when it did anyway. He is married with two kids and looking good and his son looks amazingly like him it is scary. It was good to catch up and Jeremy and him were chatting for ages.

Then we went shopping for soccer balls, boots, etc and also for some winter clothes for Corbin as he has gotten too big for the ones from last year. OMG I got the ones last year two sizes bigger too so that they should have lasted two seasons BUT OH NO THEY DON'T. Got my hubbies birthday present too of 3 Cd's and two pairs of jeans that he wanted.

We got home and hubby dyed my hair... which no one that night noticed btw. After dying my hair I went to my eyebrow appointment and OMG what a difference it makes to your eyes when you don't have a bush there he he he he... I felt really great.

The reason for doing my hair was because we were meeting 10 friends in town for dinner for Jeremy's birthday. I got showered and dressed and came downstairs where Jeremy's bro and girlfriend were and J's bro said "Wow you look fantastic" wow that took me back because he never usually says anything and to tell the truth I felt pretty fantastic too. I wore my black jeans, high heeled short boots (like yours Rachel he he he) and a black and white top that was quite frilly but very feminine and it had sort of a plunging neckline but not too bad that if I bent over anything would be seen... I am a little bit too reserved for that he he he.

We went and picked up Debbie and then met everyone at a Thai restaurant. Now non of the people there had met any of the other people so it was an interesting night but it was really talkative and we laughed a lot. Debbie and Tania met for the first time and I could tell that Tania didn't like Debbie too much and Debbie was being a little abnoxious too... which was strange. I don't know if it was because she was nervous or not but her and Tania clashed. By the end of the night I was about to strangle Debbie as she was contradicting everything I said and everytime I tried to ask someone a question she would answer for them. I think I will put it down to being nervous around people she didn't know.

Tania and Annabelle got on like a house on fire and I was so glad as Annabelle (soon to be sister in law I reckon) is such a nice person and to be honest Tania is my best friend and I know that she always says what she thinks it is a great friendship with no bullshit ya know.

The restaurant sucked....We got there at 7pm and it took 2 hours for us to get our entree's and then we got it at different times so the idea of sharing the entree's and mains didn't happen or half the food would have been cold. The spelling etc in the menu was sooooo bad... like one of them said "Beef with toasted" yeah beef with toasted what... which we found out beef on toast he he he and there were a lot more things he he he. I asked for a lemondade and the lady said that they were out of Lemonade... OMG what restaurant at 7pm on a busy Saturday night doesn't have Lemonade... The mains.... we got the rice 10 minutes before the mains and so the rice was cold. It didn't stop there though but I am not getting in to it. Even though all the food was sooooooo long to get to our table it was great to be able to chat with everyone and that was great.

After dinner was done we went down to a new pub in the next block that was a Russian pub and so we all had Vodka (we pronounced WODKA he he he) and clinked our glasses and drank up hmmmm warm is the word I leave to describe... then we went and played two games of pool... it was good. I went on the boys team or it wouldn't have been even and we won the first game and the girls won the second.

We then went to another pub that was full on Irish music and drinks etc and Debbie was making a play for the bar man that I got a little annoyed (in a funny way) and I ended up saying something to him (can't really remember) that he came over later on and gave us those glowing bracelets and we had fun teasing him and Debbie... so she got her thrills for the night it was nice seeing her happy. He wasn't bad but my brother in law said that he knows his brother and apparently the guy loves the teasing etc... so ya never know aye.

On the way back to the car park we got in the elevator and I was looking straight ahead and Debbie and Annabelle were laughing and I was thinking "what the hell are you laughing at" and then I looked next to Annabelle and there was Jeremy next to her....... and I was holding my brother in laws hand he he he he I thought it was Jeremy next to me and I was grabbing for his hand thinking OMG your hand is sooo cold tonight and it is usually really warm... OMG what a fright I got from that knowing that I was the one grabbing for the brother in law he he he.
Got up this morning and was over joyed when we realised we had an extra hour woohooooo.
Annabelle and Chris stayed the night so they didn't have to drive their long drive to their house and so we all sat in the lounge (on this miserable day weather wise) and watched James Bond... it was nice.

I went with Debbie around lunch time as she was begging me to go shoe shopping as she didn't know what to get for the wedding which turned out to be a waste of time because she doesn't like closed in toe shoes and she doesn't like heels and she doesn't like this or that OMG it was horrible and I even hate shoe shopping for myself...

I gave up in the end because she should just go in sneakers to the wedding and that way she wouldn't complain. I think she must have her TOM at the moment because she was even walking ahead of me and not even walking with me in the shopping mall. I think after the second shop I had had enough!!! she should have gone shopping by herself if she wasn't going to walk with me. It was making me angrier and angrier. I said to Jeremy when I got home that I would have rather have stayed with them and had fun then going shopping with someone that didn't want to associate with me while shopping. GRRRRRRR

When I got home we had a couple of good friends and kids turn up and it was a great afternoon as our kids put on a dancing show for us in the lounge and they were pretending to do break dancing.... OHHHH How cute that was. When they left Corbin, Quinn and I went for a bike ride... it was great I was sweating by the time I got back as we go a lot faster now that Quinn lost his training wheels.

I even got some more invites done for my sample book and I am sooo happy with them.
So that was my weekend and it went way way to fast...

Hope all your weekends went well.

Love Mandz

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Chris H wrote:
Mar 19, 2007 at 10:47 AM
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Far out you had a busy weekend. Shame the restaurant was suckful! I hate it when you go out and it's a let-down like that ... that's probably why we always end up going to the same places, cos we know the service and food will be good.

Tracy wrote:
Mar 19, 2007 at 4:12 PM
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Sounds like a good weekend - what was with Debbie - I wonder if she is a bit jealous of your friendship with Tania???? The bit where you say she was contradicting you & answering the questions etc, sounds like she was "marking her territory". As for the shopping - that is just rude!!! Be careful, I would hate to see you get hurt. Have a good week anyway :-)

Chubbymum
Mar 19, 2007 at 4:19 PM
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Don't fear Tracy... I won't get hurt again and Debbie can be a nice person 'really she can!' but lately she has been really strange and I don't think she is anything like Kris.
I just wonder if she is unhappy that I have friends and we are not just like best exclusive friends some times. I don't want to have just one friend... I want lots of friends and it may have been a jealousy thing? Not sure. I did get soooo mad at the fact she didn't want to walk with me in the shopping mall though grrr...
There are a lot of good qualities about Debbie and I suppose when reading my blog I do bitch about her and I should say some nice things too as she is caring in other aspects. I don't really want to just bitch about her but I if I talk about it on my blog then I can get it off my chest and go about life as normal ya know?.
Mandz

Anne wrote:
Mar 19, 2007 at 5:33 PM
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Isn't great to get compliments!

Was getting over it

Mar 15, 2007 at 5:25 PM

Ok so I was getting over the Kris thing I WAS YA KNOW!!!!

Then today she came up to me in my car while waiting for the kids and she looked like death warmed up and she said "I have a permanent babysitter now" I said "what are you talking about" she said that she had a nervous breakdown and since Tuesday has been in hospital in the care unit because of her breakdown. She doesn't know why it happened or what happened but she drove to a friends place and then the next thing she knew she was going to hospital... SHIT.
Said that the babysitter is there to make sure she doesn't try to commit suicide... and while she was talking to me her hubby was in the car and he has taken a week off because he is worried about her.

Now my heart sank as I felt sorry for her but after talking to hubby and another friend... they said the same thing (both of them at different times) that she is telling me because she wants attention.

She also said she went and saw Daniel (her trainer) to apologise for all the crap she has done... and told him about the situation and realised that she was getting to attached to him in her head. I said to her "I could have told you that a year ago... infact I told you that a year ago" The poor trainer is only like 23 or 24 and that is a lot to take in when you are training someone.
She asked if I could have a coffee with her next week and I said yes. After that I just felt stink all day. I don't want to get involved with this woman anymore but I also don't want it on my conscience if anything happened that I wasn't wanting to listen. Why do I get caught up in this... am I a person that feels I can sort peoples problems out? Or am a nosy person? Or what? I am not sure.

My friend Tania said (in no certain terms as she doesn't hold anything back and is sooo straight forward sometimes I want to slap her he he he) that she is weedling her way back in to my life and I am a soft hearted stupid woman if I get involved again.. it is attention seeking and really if a normal person was admitted to hospital for depression or something like that then they would want to be at home wallowing in their problem and not tell anyone yet she came and told you... GET REAL she is just wanting the attention again and you cannot do it.. I kept saying to Tania yes I know I know but I can't leave a person that wants someone to talk to like that... and Tania said Well she has got you hooked again and it isn't like you haven't got your own things to worry about.

OMG am a bitch!! OMG is going to a coffee the wrong thing? I just want to text Kris and tell her that I am there to talk to if she needs me but I am scared on the other hand too because I don't know mentally that I can handle it.

I know this blog has been filled with things about Kris lately but I suppose this is my life and things that are worrying me I want to get off my system and having someone to listen to me is what I need. Or am I doing the same as Kris?

Went to morning tea with old work mates today and gave them some of my business cards and they were impressed and said that they would pass it on that I am doing this and see if they can send business my way. I got a lot of good compliments on my invites too. One of them even said that I should put them in a scrapbook instead of a folder and it would look more arty and better presentation and I agree... didn't really think of it like that before.

Eating has been ok this week. Not been concentrating too much on it just going with the flow. I haven't gained on our scales so that is ok.

Went out for dinner last night with hubby but decided to go to The Londoner and had a nice pub sort of dinner. It was nice and relaxing and we had fish and chips and salad and I totally enjoyed it. We talked and relaxed and watched the people around us and it felt good to get out with each other. I said to Jeremy that it felt different going out for dinner tonight.... a year ago I would have been self conscious and wondering what everyone was thinking of me and if my pants looked ok or if I was dressed up or down for the place but I wore a orange hessian shirt (that I get lots of compliments on and my three quarter black jeans and felt really good and relaxed. What a difference in my attitude with going out and Jeremy noticed it too.

I am in the study at the moment and Quinn is on the floor making cards (like I do he he he) I gave him a little basket to put his finished cards in like I do with mine and he is enjoying that. I think he is going to be a very arty little boy... not conventional with his art as he doesn't draw specific things just blobs and stuff and sometimes bees or birds etc but still it is good.

Just checked the mail and FINALLY I got a letter about my Smear which was 4 weeks ago and came back normal. What a relief.. OMG it took them long enough though. Hubby said that if there was anything wrong they would have come back really soon with it so I suppose that was a good sign.

I feel better getting that letter that is for sure.

On that note I am going now.

Mandz

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Chris H wrote:
Mar 15, 2007 at 8:19 PM

I am going to keep this short and simple... attention seeking, don't be sucked in again unless you want to be her support person forever, don't go there. She makes you miserable, want to be miserable some more???

Chubbymum wrote:
Mar 15, 2007 at 9:22 PM
You are right Chris H
I don't want to be miserable anymore!! Won't go there!
Mandz

Celtic Girl wrote:
Mar 16, 2007 at 12:50 AM
I agree with Tania, most people would not want anybody knowing they have had a breakdown, so I feel she'e out for the sympathy vote.

Lynise wrote:
Mar 16, 2007 at 11:56 AM
yippeeee, on the clear smear result. That must be a weight off your mind. (I'm still procrastinating about booking one which is really silly of me)

In regards to Kris, I'm with Chris and Celtic Girl, I don't think coming up and telling you she has had a nervous breakdown is normal at all. I imagine most people would be feeling quite sensitive about having people know, therefore the fact she is advertising it to you SCREAMS of seeking attention. Your heart is in the right place (wanting to lean an ear) but as Chris has said, she just makes you miserable, and her past actions have shown that she really can't be trusted. Remember, she CHOSE to do something that would make YOU look bad. No true friend would do that. I wouldn't trust her as far as I could throw her, I am convinced that she hasn't changed at all, and would turn on you in a heart beat if something ticked her off and she wanted to get back at you.

In my opinion she isn't really a true friend Mandy, she is needy, and manipulative, and cunning, and deceitful (all things she has shown herself to be through her own actions)

I hope you don't get hurt again.
Take care

Chubbymum wrote:
Mar 16, 2007 at 1:27 PM

Yes I have come to the conclusion that you are all right... I knew deep down but didn't want to feel like I was giving up on someone that needed my help or my ear.

I am feeling better about it today. I am also feeling better about the weight loss side of things today.

Mandz

janene wrote:
Mar 16, 2007 at 1:32 PM

Mandy I can hear the alarms bells ringing from here. I know what you are saying about not wanting to feel guilty that you weren't there for her to talk to, BUT as your friend said, who the hell goes out telling everyone that they had a breakdown, and so soon after the fact! She is trying to wheedle her way back into your life, and you will end up going through the same heartbreak as you did before, but even worse this time. You are finding it hard enough now to trust new friends (eg Debbie), but imagine how hard it will be if she messes with you again. Tell her to buggar off and to go talk to a counsellor - okay, so you could be more polite about it than that, but it makes me angry that she might be given the opportunity to hurt you again. You are too special and you don't deserve to have to put up with her shit again.
BE STRONG MY FRIEND!!!

janene wrote:
Mar 16, 2007 at 1:34 PM

Okay just read your responses to your comments. Good decision Mandy, she's just not worth your time or the hurt xox

Tracy wrote:
Mar 16, 2007 at 2:22 PM
I know it is hard to say no, especially when someone seems so needy & desperate but in this case, you need to keep away from the woman as much as you can. Tell her you are sorry that she has been ill but at this stage you feel that it would not be a good idea to resume contact. She only wants attention & you have too much good stuff going on now to get caught up in that crap again.

Sorry I have not been commenting much lately, flat out with work etc but have been reading regularly.
Have a great weekend.

Lee wrote:
Mar 18, 2007 at 8:13 PM
It is so hard to break away as you want to help, but this chick has done nothing but bring you down...don't punish yourself by going back there!!
You have kicked on and you are doing great in all areas of your life...don't start to go backwards!!
Have a great week
xxx

Weekend went well

Mar 13, 2007 at 1:01 PM

Went to the gym on Sunday morning with hubby and did a really good work out that on Monday my arms were hurting he he he

We went grocery shopping and Jeremy's mum looked after the boys as my mum wasn't feeling well.

When the groceries were finished we went outside and took Quinn's training wheels off his bike as he isn't using it and then refused to use the bike so after some persuading we got him on and then he was full on on the bike and loving it and smiling because he can go faster now and it didn't take too long for him to learn how to ride without them.

We went for a family bike ride and I was finding it hard to keep up with him as he was going fast as he he he my little monkey. He said to me "I am sooo good mum aren't I... how clever is that" I had to laugh it was so funny to hear that. He is a cleaver little monkey that is for sure.

What is up with me and my food lately. I have lost the umph and not sure how to get myself on track. I am craving chocolate and just eating it! I don't want to and I don't want to gain but I don't seem to care at the moment...

It is Jeremy's birthday tomorrow... and my mum has given him some money for us to go out to dinner just the two of us and then on Saturday we are going out with all our friends so that should be good. I did invites and all and sent them and felt quite proud.

I am working hard on my invites and looking for so many different ideas so if you guys find an invite (ANY INVITE) that is different and I can rearrange for me to use then please send it to me or take a photo for me. I would really appreciate it.

I get my business cards this afternoon woohoooo and then I have to get my website sorted! Also have to some research in to prices for car sign writing (probably the magnetic ones but a friend said that if you go over a certain speed they can peel off so that put me off a little).
My friend Tania (that owns the flower shop) is just amazing she is such an inspriation and her business is growing like you wouldn't believe. She found out that she has gotten accepted to be a teleflora florist (which is really hard to get) and she is just growing this business at a fast rate. She has also been telling people about Papaya Invites and also when she gets a tradesperson that would benefit what I am doing she gets their card and at the trade fair in the weekend she picked up so much information for me so that I can get things wholesale. I just think she is the best friend... she is so busy with her own business yet she is trying to help me as well.

I am going to do some flyers for her this week so she can send put them in people's letterboxes in the weekend. I might just sneek my logo and phone number in there too and not charge for the flyer etc he he he so I get some advertising too.

I have her son's birthday invites to do as well... something to do with fishing so if you have any ideas please do not hesitate to tell me he he

Just a little note to say big hugs to Felicity for losing a close friend this week. My thoughts are with you hun.

Anyway I better get some work done he he he
Love Mandz


Comments

Hippygal wrote:
Mar 13, 2007 at 1:39 PM
Hi Just letting you know I am still reading just not commenting much. Ummm I was considering getting those magnetic things for the car advertising the Tourette site, I don't really want to paint the car......will have to look into it more. BTW how is the printer, what sort did you get......... oh yeah the invitations look great to. Jaxx

Rachel's World wrote:
Mar 13, 2007 at 2:15 PM
Yay I can finally leave a message. I don't know if it is that I am on the new blogger or if it is the work computer but I am having a REALLY hard time leaving anyone messages.............you know I'm always here ay?

Papaya Invites are looking awesome and I can't wait until you get your own website (how exciting).

Andrew's Cadbury car has those magnetic advertising and he can boot it and never have they even looked like coming off, so I think if you get good quality ones you will be fine (much less expensive I have heard).

Lee wrote:
Mar 13, 2007 at 3:31 PM
Hey Mandy, sorry I have not been online much...
Your invites look great - and its great that your friend is helping out too:)
Happy Birthady to Jeremy!!!

Kateypie wrote:
Mar 13, 2007 at 9:33 PM
Ooh yes, I do have at least one invite I can photograph and show you, will get onto it this week, and I was wondering... maybe you could sell some of your gorgeous cards in your friend's flower shop?x

fortysumthing wrote:
Mar 13, 2007 at 10:03 PM
Hello dear girl, just want you to know you're doing the invites for my wedding. Btw, haven't heard from you if you want to come..... hint, hint.
I think you're doing great. Maybe too much floating around in your head. Sometimes its best if we don't analyzise too much but just concentrate on what's around us NOW.

You have to live your life for you. Enjoy your life - and that's you, hubby, and the kids. (I put them in the right order too)

Love you girl and believe in you.

No post last night & WW UPDATE

Feb 27, 2007 at 9:37 AM

There was no post last night even though I really really wanted to post... didn't have much that I could talk about but felt like it ya know.

I went to bed at 7.30 straight after dinner because I was not feeling well at all... really upset tummy and couldn't keep my eyes open... OMG I just want these last four weeks to be over with and stop feeling so bad.... I can't get rid of this cold grrr but hey it didn't turn in to the the flu so that is a consolation.

Went to the gym at 6 to 7 to do my kickboxing class and while I was doing the class I kept thinking OMG 2 years ago I couldn't do one set without stopping to breath and now I am only stopping because my face is dripping and I need to wipe it. I love the sweating and I know some of you are going to think what a strange person but I could never sweat before... it just wouldn't happen and now it is coming down in droves and I LOVE IT he he he he he.

I am punching harder and sit ups are getting so much easier and even all the upper thigh work is getting better. I feel fantastic.

Now did I tell you that on Friday a teacher (that I haven't officially met just that I see her walking around) came up to me and said "you look absolutly fantastic and you inspired me to go and lose some weight (she is another big lady) and she has now lost 16 kilos WOW was I ever shocked I mean I didn't even know this lady and because of me she has gone and helped herself... isn't that fantastic!!!! she is look really good too.

I know I promised to get some photos up of my invites but because I went to bed so early I didn't get the time but will endeavour to do it tonight after weight watchers and parent/teacher interviews.

I have now got a 10 year old birthday invites and a wedding to do and might have a 21st wooohooooo bloody woohooo it is sooo exciting. Is there anyone out there that just loves stationery as much as I do... I am certainly a psycho when it comes to stationery he he he
I am at work at the moment but don't feel like doing my work but I know I have to... Tania just rang to say there was a big sale on at Scapbook Inn on Sunday so guess where I am going he he he he... wedding invites here I come he he he

Anyway better get back to work.
Love ya all
Mandz

UPDATE

I stayed the same with my weight this week and to tell you the truth I deserved it!! I haven't been concentrating on my weight loss this week. I have been trying to get my invite business up and running and getting over this cold... so I am not bummed about it.. better than gaining..
This week I am going to concentrate on both the business and the weight loss and it is going to happen.

OMG I have now:

2 weddings, 2 birthdays, and a booklet for a friend for her mother in law (who is dying) and they are doing a booklet of her poetry etc for all the grandchildren... so that will be an interesting project for me.

Feels good to have those appointments and only in a week woohooo. So if anyone knows of anyone else please send them my way.. I am calling my business Papaya Invites and so now I have to organise my business cards, logo and website woohooo.

Good night.
Chubbymum

Comments

janene wrote:
Feb 27, 2007 at 10:09 AM
OMG so I just caught up on the last few days blog entries, and I can't believe that Kris cow tried to weezle her way back into your life. Good on you for facing her, at least now you know that there is no way ever that the friendship will be rekindled. Let's hope that Joy has the strength to get Kris's claws out of her too!
Sounds like you are loving doing your invitations. That's great that you've found something you can do that you love, and that you can still keep your main job for now. I just love stationery too... pens, pencils, papers, notebooks, they are all just so deliciously wonderful (now I just sound weird!). I think that's why I'm enjoying scrapbooking so much hehe
*hugs*

Chris H wrote:
Feb 27, 2007 at 1:10 PM
Ha! I never used to sweat either! Now, like you I have it pouring off me! YAAA for sweat! It means we are working our butts off.... in every way.

Chris H wrote:
Feb 27, 2007 at 4:39 PM
Haaa haaa ha, a certain person who shall remain nameless (K) left a message on my blog,inviting me to view her blog ! She wanted my email address too.... hmmmmm ???? NAH ... NOT GUNNA HAPPEN... I deleted her message, I don't even want her name in my comments. OH GOD I'M NASTY

OMG the Kris saga keeps going!

Feb 22, 2007 at 6:16 PM

As you have all known I have been battling with this Kris saga and how anyone who says they are my friend would do such a thing... it is a suzy school thing to do.

Well I took the boys to school this morning and then came home and got in the car to go out to buy stationery to make some more invitation samples (feeling quite excited about it as I am a stationery aholic woohoooo he he he).. anyway back on the subject. I got a text from Kris and I sighed and my mum said "what is wrong" so I told her about the text. I have told her about all what Kris did and how she alienated my trainer Joy (which hasn't gotten back to normal either). So with all that I told her what Kris had written which is as follows:

Hi I knw this is a long shot but if u r free ths morning wld u let me buy u a coffee? I wld like 2 put the past behind us & move 4ward. I really do miss our friendship & I knw I hav sd & done sme hurtful things & I am sorry 4 tht if I cld change thngs I wld. Plse consider it. I am free till 11.30am.

Mum said that she has texted twice maybe it would be nice to go and see what she has to say and sort it out and to get it so that I don't have to afford her but not to get back as friends. To be quite honest I don't want to get back as friends. I don't mind be acqaintance but that is it for me.

So I texted her back with "I am not sure Kris. U caused so much crap 4 me and in the email u were happy about it. I miss some things but other things I certainly don't. My mum thinks I should have a coffee so I only half an hour."

She texted back " Thank u. I dnt blame u 4 being cautious u hav every right 2 b."

So we had morning tea and when I got out of my car she came over and OMG I didn't know what to do or say as I still had such hatred for this woman that in the past 3 months has caused my life to turn upside down. She gave me a hug and said that she missed our friendship and was glad that I came for a coffee..

I am not sure what I felt but pity for a woman that thrives on kaos.

Went in the coffee shop and she paid for a coffee (skinny one he he) and when she passed her card over she was shaking like fully shaking and when she tried to close her purse she was shaking and I said to her "what is wrong" she said that she will tell me soon.

So we sat down and I heard that she was sorry and bla bla bla I just felt like screaming at her. But I had to give her the benefit of the doubt at least she is saying sorry for all the crap but that doesn't excuse it ya know.

She said that yesterday she went to the doctors as a friend took her there and tried 4 doctors before getting in to the doctor... now I was sitting there thinking does she think this excuses everything? I didn't do this to her she did... The doctor said it was anxiety and has put her on antidepressents etc.

In the last couple of months she has alienated her mother and me and her family and other friends so something needed to be said that she needs to go and see a counsellor or someone.

I sound harsh don't I? I did talk to her and I was nice and in parts we smiled but I don't want to deal with all her emotional stuff anymore... I have enough crap in my own life to deal with let alone solving hers. I am happy that it can be left in the past now so I don't have to avoid her all the time but to be quite frank I don't trust her anymore. We left on a good note and she kept apologising and I said to her... I am not sure what to say to you Kris but thank you for the coffee.... I think I was unemotional about it in the end because I didn't feel anything anymore after finding out that she enjoyed giving false documents to my trainer and her trainer.

Which by the way she was telling me that her and my trainer have been texting a lot (now Kris always told me that she was jealous of the friendship between Joy and I) now I guess she has gotten what she wanted my trainer... anyway Joy said to her that I wouldn't answer the phone if she called and maybe I should take a morning tea over to my house and sort it out... I am pissed about that because I told Joy how I felt and she needed to keep her nose out of it. So I have made the decision that I am not telling Joy anything about my private life anymore and I am only doing the PT's with her as I get a lot out of them but that is it... I don't want to get in to that crap ever happening again and if I don't convide I don't have to hide.

I told my friend Tania and she thought I was a fool to go back into that crap and that I will get sucked in once again and I said to her that I just wanted all this to end but it didn't mean that I was back as her friend as I want to be able to trust my friends. She still said it quite to the point that she thought it was the wrong move considering she knows Kris.

I also phoned Debbie to see what she thought and OMG her and Tania could be the same person sometimes... they both haven't met each other but they are sooooo similar it is scary.

So that was my interesting morning.

So after the coffee with Kris I went out shopping for papers for doing my invitation samples woohoooo got to spend some money and on my favorite thing..... STATIONARY WOOHOOOO.
Did anyone watch bloody Biggest Loser at the end they basically told us in the commercial that the blue team lost OMG that really pissed me off!!!

I am rooting for the blue team as I like their attitude and I am rooting for Eric to win (he is like 400 pounds).... I don't mind the red team but that lady that made that other lady feel really bad last week I could have slapped her... Karma!!! what goes around comes around and what a bitch for telling her off in front of national television... if it was me I would have gotten rid of her because she isn't a team player.

Anyway on that note I am going to make invitations woohooooo
Love CM

Comments

Chris H wrote:
Feb 24, 2007 at 3:29 PM
Mandy.... remember that Kris is a chronic lier, what she said about your trainer could be a bloody lie to alienate you from your trainer again. Be careful of a wolf in sheep's clothing, do not trust her. She has shown herself to be a back stabbing bitch, and leopards DO NOT change their spots. She is just feeling sorry for HERSELF cos she had alienated so many people against herself.
I take my hat off my head to you for going to coffee, I would not have given her the satisfaction on being able to say "Mandy has forgiven me", cos I bet she uses that to her advantage somehow.
I hope you had a wonderful time shopping for stationary, I love it too.

Kateypie wrote:
Feb 24, 2007 at 9:31 PM
I hope you will post some photos of the invites! Exciting!

pink-elephants wrote:
Feb 25, 2007 at 9:36 AM
hi Mandy
hmmmm re Kris-I see she has posted a comment on my blog over night I need to go delete this. I think u did the right thing by going and seeing her in your mind now u know u r over her u felt nothing for her and u can get on with your life if she contacts u again just say no thanks and say hello if u pass in street as u would anyother stranger and this in reality is what she is strange. She was a big part of your life for a while but now that part is over u have gone differnet ways...like a lost love there are memories but it wouldn't be a good idea to go back there.
Hope u r having an awesome weekend big hugs from me
Felicity

Celtic Girl wrote:
Feb 25, 2007 at 9:15 PM
Mandz, I agree with Chris, dont trust the her, be very careful.I think she was trying for the sympathy vote from you re her "anxiety" problem which has all been created by her, so let her wallow in her own shit.

Been tagged

Jan 30, 2007 at 2:59 PM

Believe it or not this is the fourth time I have tried to put this up.

For some reason I accept it and it deletes have of it grrrr so I left it a day so that this silly problem will go away.

Today was an ok day... really full on work wise but that is ok. (Don't usually work on Thursdays but worked half day today)

I got tagged by Chris (Diet Coke Rocks):Four things about Me:

A) Four jobs I have had in my life:
- Bank Officer
- Research Financial Administrator
- Computer Consultant
- Computer Teacher

B) Four movies I would watch over and over:
- Under the Tuscan Sun- Chocolat'
- Anything James Bond
- Over the Hedge

C) Four places I have lived:
- Bermuda
- Auckland
- Hamilton
- Hamilton (another subdivision)

D) Four favourite T.V. shows:
- Shortland Street
- CSI
- Bones
- Biggest Loser (addicted)

Well my friend Tania opened her shop today and it looks really good... quite jealous but really happy for her as it looks really good and she seemed so happy. We are going to her grand opening on Saturday which she is expecting people will buy from and to be honest I can't afford it and when she showed me all the stuff she was having in her shop last week I was saying Oh I like this and that and so today when I went to visit the shop she said "I made sure I didn't put that necklace in the window as I know you really liked it and might buy it" OMG I didn't say I would buy it but she assumes I am going to and to be quite honest we are sooooo skint with money at the moment I don't have the heart to say I can't.. I also don't want to look like a stinge either ya know.

I offered to look after her 3 kids this afternoon as the poor buggers were stuck in the shop most of the day as she didn't have anyone to look after them. I had my two and her 3 and then the little boy up the road was lonely so I had 6 kids to watch over this afternoon so not suprising I have a huge headache...

I also had an arguement with my wonderful husband because I was being a stupid cow not being satisfied with all the wonderful things and the wonderful husband I have and picked a fight with him tonight. Some of the things I said were justified but some of them weren't and I apologised for the not so good things. I think I get frustrated with the fact that I want to do so much with my life and things keep stopping me.

I think with my friend starting this business it has made me realise how much I want to do something with my life. It has made me realise more and more that I want to be a Life Coach and do something that I feel I would be good at and the only thing stopping me is money. A guy friend of mine said..."if you want it bad enough and if it is right you will make it happen"... he is right! So even though the government said that they wouldn't give a loan for this subject I went online and applied for a student loan to see if the ruling had gone through yet... hey no harm in trying aye... and it isn't like I am not going to pay it back. OMG I have paid my taxes and I have never never been on the dole and I have worked my backside off all my life I feel that I am entitled to have some breaks in this world...so we shall see what happens and if I get the loan aye.

I am also enrolling in a night course where a life coach helps you work out your personal goals, work goals, financial goals etc and what you want to achieve in life with hubby.. It is a 4 week course and I think we would benefit and I suppose doing some research on what a life coach does and is like would be good experience for me as well aye.

I have my PT session with Joy tomorrow and I am looking forward to it. I am not looking forward to seeing bloody Kris there though... she doesn't work... you would think she would fuck off and have her sessions at different times to me as I don't want to see her bloody face but no she makes them at the same time so I have to see her. Mind you I work harder cause she is there and I am not going to let her think just because she is skinnier she is fitter than me....

Went to the gym on Wednesday night and did the kickboxing class and walk to the class and did the class and walked home and at the class Joy was impressed with me doing the full on star jumps and running on the stop where as I used to do the lower impact one since starting... I must admit the reason I didn't do the high impact stuff is because I had my chest bumping up and down and my tummy too and it still creeps me out. Hubby said we can go out this weekend and find a bra that I can wear that will be more supportive but sports bra's don't come in my size... not that I have ever seen so where do I go to find one that doesn't have a bloody bone in it grrr.
Ok I am rambling on tonight.

Might leave it at that.

I suppose since I am rambling on it must mean that I am getting to be more comfortable in my new blog talking about things.

Can't say I have been very good this week with food... I have to get back in the swing. But that is ok.. I am going to lose this weight even if it takes me five years. What have I got to rush about? Nothing!!! As long as I don't gain it back and keep going down then life is good.

Love Chubbymum

Comments

Chris H wrote:
Feb 1, 2007 at 9:47 PM
Be honest with your friend and tell her that although you do love the necklace you simply can't afford it.... don't beat yourself up about it, if she's really your friend she won't be upset or try to push you into buying it. Looking after 6 kids, yep did that all day every day with my own... and yep, I had a constant headache ! lol As for seeing Kris the Bitch when you are at the gym, why not change your times so you don't end up there when she is? I know it's kinda like running away from her, but do you really need the aggrivation of seeing her ugly mutt ? I'd find it off putting!

Rachel's World wrote:
Feb 2, 2007 at 10:23 AM
Yep I agree with everything Chis_H said.

Hope your all better now sweets, I have been checking in everyday to see if you have left a post, scored today....LOL
I am also addicted to The Biggest Loser and apparently there is a new one starting in Australia (last night) so I don't know how long we have to wait to get it here but I hope not too long. God I wish they had one in NZ, I would SOOOOO apply for it.