Been tagged

Jan 30, 2007 at 2:59 PM

Believe it or not this is the fourth time I have tried to put this up.

For some reason I accept it and it deletes have of it grrrr so I left it a day so that this silly problem will go away.

Today was an ok day... really full on work wise but that is ok. (Don't usually work on Thursdays but worked half day today)

I got tagged by Chris (Diet Coke Rocks):Four things about Me:

A) Four jobs I have had in my life:
- Bank Officer
- Research Financial Administrator
- Computer Consultant
- Computer Teacher

B) Four movies I would watch over and over:
- Under the Tuscan Sun- Chocolat'
- Anything James Bond
- Over the Hedge

C) Four places I have lived:
- Bermuda
- Auckland
- Hamilton
- Hamilton (another subdivision)

D) Four favourite T.V. shows:
- Shortland Street
- CSI
- Bones
- Biggest Loser (addicted)

Well my friend Tania opened her shop today and it looks really good... quite jealous but really happy for her as it looks really good and she seemed so happy. We are going to her grand opening on Saturday which she is expecting people will buy from and to be honest I can't afford it and when she showed me all the stuff she was having in her shop last week I was saying Oh I like this and that and so today when I went to visit the shop she said "I made sure I didn't put that necklace in the window as I know you really liked it and might buy it" OMG I didn't say I would buy it but she assumes I am going to and to be quite honest we are sooooo skint with money at the moment I don't have the heart to say I can't.. I also don't want to look like a stinge either ya know.

I offered to look after her 3 kids this afternoon as the poor buggers were stuck in the shop most of the day as she didn't have anyone to look after them. I had my two and her 3 and then the little boy up the road was lonely so I had 6 kids to watch over this afternoon so not suprising I have a huge headache...

I also had an arguement with my wonderful husband because I was being a stupid cow not being satisfied with all the wonderful things and the wonderful husband I have and picked a fight with him tonight. Some of the things I said were justified but some of them weren't and I apologised for the not so good things. I think I get frustrated with the fact that I want to do so much with my life and things keep stopping me.

I think with my friend starting this business it has made me realise how much I want to do something with my life. It has made me realise more and more that I want to be a Life Coach and do something that I feel I would be good at and the only thing stopping me is money. A guy friend of mine said..."if you want it bad enough and if it is right you will make it happen"... he is right! So even though the government said that they wouldn't give a loan for this subject I went online and applied for a student loan to see if the ruling had gone through yet... hey no harm in trying aye... and it isn't like I am not going to pay it back. OMG I have paid my taxes and I have never never been on the dole and I have worked my backside off all my life I feel that I am entitled to have some breaks in this world...so we shall see what happens and if I get the loan aye.

I am also enrolling in a night course where a life coach helps you work out your personal goals, work goals, financial goals etc and what you want to achieve in life with hubby.. It is a 4 week course and I think we would benefit and I suppose doing some research on what a life coach does and is like would be good experience for me as well aye.

I have my PT session with Joy tomorrow and I am looking forward to it. I am not looking forward to seeing bloody Kris there though... she doesn't work... you would think she would fuck off and have her sessions at different times to me as I don't want to see her bloody face but no she makes them at the same time so I have to see her. Mind you I work harder cause she is there and I am not going to let her think just because she is skinnier she is fitter than me....

Went to the gym on Wednesday night and did the kickboxing class and walk to the class and did the class and walked home and at the class Joy was impressed with me doing the full on star jumps and running on the stop where as I used to do the lower impact one since starting... I must admit the reason I didn't do the high impact stuff is because I had my chest bumping up and down and my tummy too and it still creeps me out. Hubby said we can go out this weekend and find a bra that I can wear that will be more supportive but sports bra's don't come in my size... not that I have ever seen so where do I go to find one that doesn't have a bloody bone in it grrr.
Ok I am rambling on tonight.

Might leave it at that.

I suppose since I am rambling on it must mean that I am getting to be more comfortable in my new blog talking about things.

Can't say I have been very good this week with food... I have to get back in the swing. But that is ok.. I am going to lose this weight even if it takes me five years. What have I got to rush about? Nothing!!! As long as I don't gain it back and keep going down then life is good.

Love Chubbymum

Comments

Chris H wrote:
Feb 1, 2007 at 9:47 PM
Be honest with your friend and tell her that although you do love the necklace you simply can't afford it.... don't beat yourself up about it, if she's really your friend she won't be upset or try to push you into buying it. Looking after 6 kids, yep did that all day every day with my own... and yep, I had a constant headache ! lol As for seeing Kris the Bitch when you are at the gym, why not change your times so you don't end up there when she is? I know it's kinda like running away from her, but do you really need the aggrivation of seeing her ugly mutt ? I'd find it off putting!

Rachel's World wrote:
Feb 2, 2007 at 10:23 AM
Yep I agree with everything Chis_H said.

Hope your all better now sweets, I have been checking in everyday to see if you have left a post, scored today....LOL
I am also addicted to The Biggest Loser and apparently there is a new one starting in Australia (last night) so I don't know how long we have to wait to get it here but I hope not too long. God I wish they had one in NZ, I would SOOOOO apply for it.

Promised myself and UPDATE

Jan 16, 2007 at 11:38 AM

I promised myself that when I started this blog I am going to put happy things and things that are going in my head making me mad or sad or angry because I am not going to hold back anymore.... as I want to learn from my grumpyness, bitcheness, happiness etc and I love the feedback to help me grow (or shrink he he).

I get so frustrated when people I know lose more!! Not that I am not happy for them... I NEED TO STATE THAT because I love them dearly and wish them well in their journey and I am talking about Debbie in this situation. It is just that I try so hard to keep with things and do my exercise and change habits and when I only lose little amounts I start to wonder if I am doing the wrong thing somewhere? I just don't get how I am being consistant and all in moderation and things don't go as planned... and I am soooo not saying that it is someone elses fault because it is mine if I am not losing the weight and no one can take that he he he... just frustrating you know.
Maybe I am counting my exercise points wrong? or something.

I might not be varied enough in my food and not using all the food groups but then when I was being strict with myself then I wasn't losing any and I was plateauing so I am not getting myself so confused and upset about it.

I think I will lose weight tonight and I am expecting about 500 grams but secretly (and don't tell me any of you don't think the same way) but I want a kilo or 2... 2 would be fantastic. But never do I lose that much.

I didn't do the superstart menu this week but have said to hubby that I might try it the week after next week and see how I go (as that is our shopping day) because I want to boost things as I want to get to 119 by end of February so that is 600 grams a week!!! I have to do this
I want to get to 100 kilos by the end of the year I am sick of fucking around...

I sort of did a calculation on where I would be if I lost 600, 700, 800, 900 grams a week so I could see what would happen... When I first started WW I did this every week and calculated when I would get somewhere and it worked until I stopped doing it so maybe it focusses me on the job at hand. So....

• If I lose 600 grams a week I will be at 99 kilos by 9 October 2007
• If I lose 700 grams a week I will be at 99 kilos by 4 September 2007 (a couple of days before my birthday)
• If I lose 800 grams a week I will be at 99 kilos by 7 August 2007
• If I lose 900 grams a week I will be at 99 kilos by 17 July 2007
• If I lose a kilo a week I will be at 99 kilos by 26 June 2007

(Now the last two for me is unrealistic but I think the 600 grams to 800 grams could be realistic for me, and I think I am aiming for around the 700 grams a week to get to 99 kilos by my birthday).

So we shall see what happens with the weigh in tonight... for tomorrow we target getting to the 99 kilos he he he

Food today so far
Breakfast: 3 Weetbix, Milk, banana
Snacks: 10 Rice Crackers, 1 peach
Lunch: Roast beef salad sandwich
Dinner: Spare Ribs, mashed potatoe, peas, carrots
Water: 750mls x1
Exercise: Went for walk to get milk at the supermarket (even though day off exercise he he he)

UPDATE:
I lost 800 grams... so I am well on my way to get to the 99 kilos... I am happy with the loss.
So if I can be consistant with the 800 grams then I could be down to 99 kilos by August so I would be more than happy with that. I have to be consistant because I can do this.
Debbie lost 2.5 kilos OMG I wish!! I am soooo happy for her as she must have worked her butt off to lose that amount in a week.

But I had decided before I went there I wasn't going to say what my weight loss was anymore because in my mind I make it a competition. She wasn't happy about it at all but I wasn't doing it to make her mad I was doing it to stop me having a competition with her as I didn't want to ruin the friendship... but she managed to tell me her weight loss anyway so I would know which kind of pissed me off as I want to enjoy the going together and helping each other without it meaning that either of us felt bad.

I know that you all probably don't understand why I am so upset about it but it is because I want to do so well and I don't want it to be about anyone else but me but with my competitive streak.... I hate not losing as much and I don't want to feel that! I want to happy going and doing the exercise with Debbie and going out shopping and working with each other and feeling like we are both doing it for ourselves. Not a competition with numbers as it does my head it..

So another 800 next week and I am well on my way. 2.8 kilos to go till I reach the teens woohoooo,

Love ya
Chubbymum

Comments

Rachel's World wrote:
Jan 16, 2007 at 12:03 PM
I reckon keeping a running total of where you will be if you lose 'this or that' each week is a fantastic idea. I also do it and find that it just gives me that extra little incentive each week. I have given myself a total of 400 - 600 per week which I hope isn't too unrealistic.
I have weigh in tonight too, can't wait to see how we both go.
Don't worry about feeling guilty because you get a bit upset when someone else is doing better (or losing more) as it is NORMAL. They just have a different body makeup which really sux for us but whaddya do?

Celtic Girl wrote:
Jan 16, 2007 at 3:14 PM
HUGS,HUGS HUGS.. Yes we ALL get disappointed an think we can do better at the weigh ins. Try not to compare yourself with Debbie, everybody is different, for all you know she could be eating lettuce leaves all the time!! lol. Focus on where you have come from and where you are now - A MARVELOUS ACHIEVMENT.

Chris H wrote:
Jan 16, 2007 at 6:29 PM
My only suggestion is to drop some carbs, if you are having 5 servings a day, go to only 3. I still think you are plateauing, and need to change a few more things around, then the weight might move. Good on you for not having unrealistic goals too, it is self defeating to have unrealistic expectations, cos they backfire on us.

Sue wrote:
Jan 17, 2007 at 8:16 AM
800 - way to go.

You asked about turkey. I buy the frozen Tegel roasts (not the stuffed ones!). These are boneless and in a roll, so once you cook it it's easy to use. One of them does about five or six lunches (depending on whether or not I'm making Mark's lunch as well - I give him more meat than I have).

Feather wrote:
Jan 17, 2007 at 2:22 PM
Thanks for sharing your thoughts about this! I think we all feel like this at one time or another. It's so frustrating to work so hard and see someone else do it faster. I know it's hard to think of it like this but just remember that you have changed your life, you are fit and meeting goals. I KNOW YOU CAN DO THIS!!! it's such a hard thing to do, food is around all the time, it's not like smoking you can quit and limit interaction with smokers or you quit drinking and stop going to a bar or stop bying alcohol. But it is just as strong as an addiction, and you have to deal with it day in and day out.
Keep working, we will get there together!!

Tracy wrote:
Jan 26, 2007 at 4:16 PM
[this is good]
Hiya. Well done on the 800g loss!!! I know how you feel about others doing better, I guess it is the downside of having someone do it with you. My friend has done really well & is below goal but I get annoyed when we go to weigh in & she goes on about how bad she has been & is going to put on etc etc - lo & behold - Nope lost again & turns out all she did was have a glass of wine or a handful of chips. You are doing so well, look at how much you have lost so far!!
Have a great weekend.