Tuesday, 30 January 2007
Believe it or not this is the fourth time I have tried to put this up.
For some reason I accept it and it deletes have of it grrrr so I left it a day so that this silly problem will go away.
Today was an ok day... really full on work wise but that is ok. (Don't usually work on Thursdays but worked half day today)
I got tagged by Chris (Diet Coke Rocks):Four things about Me:
A) Four jobs I have had in my life:
- Bank Officer
- Research Financial Administrator
- Computer Consultant
- Computer Teacher
B) Four movies I would watch over and over:
- Under the Tuscan Sun- Chocolat'
- Anything James Bond
- Over the Hedge
C) Four places I have lived:
- Hamilton (another subdivision)
D) Four favourite T.V. shows:
- Shortland Street
- Biggest Loser (addicted)
Well my friend Tania opened her shop today and it looks really good... quite jealous but really happy for her as it looks really good and she seemed so happy. We are going to her grand opening on Saturday which she is expecting people will buy from and to be honest I can't afford it and when she showed me all the stuff she was having in her shop last week I was saying Oh I like this and that and so today when I went to visit the shop she said "I made sure I didn't put that necklace in the window as I know you really liked it and might buy it" OMG I didn't say I would buy it but she assumes I am going to and to be quite honest we are sooooo skint with money at the moment I don't have the heart to say I can't.. I also don't want to look like a stinge either ya know.
I offered to look after her 3 kids this afternoon as the poor buggers were stuck in the shop most of the day as she didn't have anyone to look after them. I had my two and her 3 and then the little boy up the road was lonely so I had 6 kids to watch over this afternoon so not suprising I have a huge headache...
I also had an arguement with my wonderful husband because I was being a stupid cow not being satisfied with all the wonderful things and the wonderful husband I have and picked a fight with him tonight. Some of the things I said were justified but some of them weren't and I apologised for the not so good things. I think I get frustrated with the fact that I want to do so much with my life and things keep stopping me.
I think with my friend starting this business it has made me realise how much I want to do something with my life. It has made me realise more and more that I want to be a Life Coach and do something that I feel I would be good at and the only thing stopping me is money. A guy friend of mine said..."if you want it bad enough and if it is right you will make it happen"... he is right! So even though the government said that they wouldn't give a loan for this subject I went online and applied for a student loan to see if the ruling had gone through yet... hey no harm in trying aye... and it isn't like I am not going to pay it back. OMG I have paid my taxes and I have never never been on the dole and I have worked my backside off all my life I feel that I am entitled to have some breaks in this world...so we shall see what happens and if I get the loan aye.
I am also enrolling in a night course where a life coach helps you work out your personal goals, work goals, financial goals etc and what you want to achieve in life with hubby.. It is a 4 week course and I think we would benefit and I suppose doing some research on what a life coach does and is like would be good experience for me as well aye.
I have my PT session with Joy tomorrow and I am looking forward to it. I am not looking forward to seeing bloody Kris there though... she doesn't work... you would think she would fuck off and have her sessions at different times to me as I don't want to see her bloody face but no she makes them at the same time so I have to see her. Mind you I work harder cause she is there and I am not going to let her think just because she is skinnier she is fitter than me....
Went to the gym on Wednesday night and did the kickboxing class and walk to the class and did the class and walked home and at the class Joy was impressed with me doing the full on star jumps and running on the stop where as I used to do the lower impact one since starting... I must admit the reason I didn't do the high impact stuff is because I had my chest bumping up and down and my tummy too and it still creeps me out. Hubby said we can go out this weekend and find a bra that I can wear that will be more supportive but sports bra's don't come in my size... not that I have ever seen so where do I go to find one that doesn't have a bloody bone in it grrr.
Ok I am rambling on tonight.
Might leave it at that.
I suppose since I am rambling on it must mean that I am getting to be more comfortable in my new blog talking about things.
Can't say I have been very good this week with food... I have to get back in the swing. But that is ok.. I am going to lose this weight even if it takes me five years. What have I got to rush about? Nothing!!! As long as I don't gain it back and keep going down then life is good.
Chris H wrote:
Feb 1, 2007 at 9:47 PM
Be honest with your friend and tell her that although you do love the necklace you simply can't afford it.... don't beat yourself up about it, if she's really your friend she won't be upset or try to push you into buying it. Looking after 6 kids, yep did that all day every day with my own... and yep, I had a constant headache ! lol As for seeing Kris the Bitch when you are at the gym, why not change your times so you don't end up there when she is? I know it's kinda like running away from her, but do you really need the aggrivation of seeing her ugly mutt ? I'd find it off putting!
Rachel's World wrote:
Feb 2, 2007 at 10:23 AM
Yep I agree with everything Chis_H said.
Hope your all better now sweets, I have been checking in everyday to see if you have left a post, scored today....LOL
I am also addicted to The Biggest Loser and apparently there is a new one starting in Australia (last night) so I don't know how long we have to wait to get it here but I hope not too long. God I wish they had one in NZ, I would SOOOOO apply for it.
Monday, 29 January 2007
Well my eye still looks like someone knocked the living daylights out of me he he he but it feels like it might be getting better.... even though it is swollen and wrinkled.
Spent the day at home and just veging... the little boy from up the street came over and spent most of the day with our boys but by the 3pm I had had enough of him ya know... I don't think his parents really care where he is half the time.
Thanks Chris for your email today! It certainly cheered me up (snigger)
Back to work tomorrow after Auckland Anniversary day ho hum... don't wanna go back and sit in my office he he he.... but then again who does aye
I have done a lot of cross stitch this weekend even with my sore eye... I just wanted to get it done ya know.. not that it will get done fast but had the urge to cross stitch.
Does anyone else watch Heroes? I am enjoying it... it is sort of like a mystery but not he he he and piecing things together is quite interesting.
I am going to my friends grand opening evening on Saturday she is opening up her shop on Wednesday and having a grand opening on Saturday... it is going to be interesting as there will be around 120 people coming. It is called Bouquet Cottage and is a Florist and gift shop.... so jealous but so happy for her.
Jealous that she has started her own business as I would like to own a busines one day.. not too sure what maybe a life coach business to help people that are overweight or a craft shop hmmm not sure but one day it will be mine he he he. She is good at what she does and this business will be a great success I can just imagine. I have been helping her buy some of the gift stuff for her shop and would buy a lot of the stuff (if I actually had money that is he he he).
Anyway I better go and rest this eye and get my backside to bed he he
Chris H wrote:
Jan 30, 2007 at 9:29 AM
Glad you were able to go to bed feeling a bit better mate. Have fun at work, I'm gunna lie in the sun today.... such a hard life! hee he
Chris H wrote:
Jan 30, 2007 at 12:58 PM
I trying to be a pain, I tagged you! check out me blog for details...
Jan 31, 2007 at 8:10 PM
What a bugger about the course...I would love to go back to study too...but it can be so expensive!
Hope you are feeling much better *HUGS*
Sunday, 28 January 2007
Still not feeling too well.
Mowed the lawns today OMG I was sweating like a pig and it was only 9am he he he and the rest of the day I didn't want to do anything.. not too sure if it is because of the heat OMG is it hot or what.. or it is because of my eye? but had a unhappy moody day.
Not sure if I am unhappy because next week I should be getting to my monthly or because hmmmm not sure...
Well I am a little sure but not sure if it is the sole reason.
I can't do my Life Coach course because the bloody government decided in all their glory that only Uni's and tech can give interest free loans by the government. If I had applied for the loan in 2006 I would have gotten it!! DOES THAT SUCK OR WHAT!!!
I can't afford to finance it! It is too much for us and especially since I am only working part time, and we are dollar for dollar at the moment and live from pay to pay ya know?
It is getting tearing my heart apart because I can't find anything that matches what I want to do in any other institution.... The only one that offers the Life coach course (part time from home) is this company and it is in Hamilton. I know that people will say what will be will be and that it was meant to not happen right now but it was going to be my year to sort out what I want to do for a job for the rest of my life.
I want to help people in my situation through life coaching... I want to be there to listen to people and help people lose weight just like I have been doing... I want to be an inspiration and I want to let people know that I am there to listen and help them achieve all that they wish (of course as a paying job does that sound bad?).
Losing weight as all of you know is the hardest thing anyone can do and if you are in just to lose the weight fast WELL that just doesn't happen and getting your head around things and having someone that understands is also the hardest to find. Families are great but they don't always know what happens and how we feel being overweight and they don't always know how to help, or they just have too many things on their plate to help and be there...
Yeah I know sounds silly but it is something I want to do.
So maybe that is what is getting me down in the last couple of days as well.
I am glad to be able to do my blog and say these things... for a while there I didn't have anywhere to vent... hubby thinks that is why I am not well lately as well because it is all catching up on me because I haven't been able to vent it on my blog.
I am reading all your blogs I thought I would mention and haven't commented but I hate commenting unless I can be positive ya know... so please know that I love you all and that you are all really dear to me and it isn't because I don't love ya that I haven't been leaving comments....
I know I will be back to my old self.
Love ya all... the old Chubbymum will be back tomorrow. I just know it!
Jan 28, 2007 at 8:44 PM
Hope you are feeling better soon!x
Chris H wrote:
Jan 28, 2007 at 10:29 PM
Hell I hope you will be back to your old happy self soon! It sucks when one is feeling down and nothing seems to be going right, been there, done that. Sometimes it does take time, there are usually no quick fixes, but keep working on being happy and one day it will all fall into place. Life coaching sounds great, I would love to do something like that too, but I don't know if I could curb my fat mouth... if someone is piss arsing around and not really trying, I'd probably tell them to piss off and stop wasting their time and mine! lmao
Saturday, 27 January 2007
Went to bed last night thinking wow this is early and I will be able to get some sleep and stop feeling like crap... nope nope nope. I had a stingy eye and woke up with a sty and not wanting to leave my eye open as it was sooo sore.
We were taking mum up to Auckland today to a friends place as she is staying the whole weekend up there and we are getting some free time he he he.
It was a nice drive and after we left mum at her friends place we went to the Auckland Museum and the boys had so much fun at the museum and they didn't complain about it like I thought they might... thought they might get bored or something but they didn't and asked lots of questions and explored lots in the kids sections too.... a good time was had by all but I was a little miserable with a sore eye and I have not been feeling well all week.... I sooo soooo soooo wanted today to be perfect and have a fantastic time with the kids. I didn't show it to them that I wasn't feeling well but I felt miserable..
My friend Tania thinks that I have been like this since getting the text from Kris... she thinks I am run down because I have that bloody woman back from Australia (where I wished she would have stayed) and cannot concentrate on me anymore..
Kris managed to get a PT session with Daniel for Friday at the same time as my PT session with Joy OMG she doesn't work all fucken week and she just manages to make an appointment at the same time as me BULL SHIT... it made me so mad that I worked so damn hard with Joy.
I worked my butt off and was sweating down my face like you wouldn't believe soooo cool!!! he he he
But.. I don't want the skank to be there at the same time anymore! SLAP on hand ewww still talking about the woman... stop it! stop it!
I suppose holding that in wouldn't help me showing the signs of being run down... so I have decided to write it in here to get it off my chest.
Something nice about the skank... she does look like she has lost a lot and looking good and her face is certainly smaller but she deserves that comment... not ever going to say it to her face though.
I said that to hubby that she was looking good in her face and he said so do you!! Nah I thought I haven't lost that much but he took a picture of me today and I am more defined in my face now and felt great looking at this photo... I will show you a comparision. First one is an old one of me in 2004 and the second was today (2007) with my boys. I am quite proud of these photos now.
The next lot of photos are of the ones we took at the Museum today.
The last photo was a photo taken by hubby as he was trying to be artistic he he he.
I have been thinking about my weight loss and I am going to try and cut out my V altogether. I have a V twice a week but should really have none ho hum... soooo soooo addicted to it but I want this weight off.
I am going to go for a long walk tomorrow morning... lots to do this weekend. Thought after the walk I would mow the lawns again to get the extra exercise and then go and do the shopping.
Was going to have some friends over this weekend for a bbq but decided with hubby that maybe we could just be with us because we always have people over and always have mum with us so having time to us doing whatever we like and not worrying if anyone is unhappy about what we are doing would be the best. I always have this feeling that mum is mad with us if we sit around and veg on Sundays so I am going to Veg as much as possible on Monday (our Auckland anniversary day and feels like a Sunday it will be for me he he he).
Thanks for reading everyone!! Thanks for your comments they keep me going and make me feel more and more like updating. I promise I will try and make my posts happier and I know this last week I have been down in the dumps and moany and I don't want to be like that anymore.
Chris H wrote:
Jan 27, 2007 at 9:49 PM
If you need to vent about bloody Kris, then do it, it will help you get over the bitch. Sad you still have to have her in your face on ocassions tho. I think you can handle it though, you are a stong woman, you have shown that by how you have handled the situation, not verbally attacking her to her face etc. Don't know if I could have controlled myself! AS for the V, why not just have one on a designated day once a week like I do with my diet coke? Life is not all about total denial, even if we are on a diet! Pregnancy makes us fat, so does that mean we can never ever have a nookie again??? I DON'T THINK SO, HA HA HA.
Chris H wrote:
Jan 27, 2007 at 9:50 PM
Damn, forgot to say, your comparison photos are awesome chick!!! Sure can see a difference.
Celtic Girl wrote:
Jan 28, 2007 at 12:33 AM
Yep, you can definately see the difference in your comparision photos.YOU ROCK GIRL. Sorry your not feeling well still. It sucks when us girls get sick as we are still expected to be there for everyone else.
Jan 28, 2007 at 4:41 PM
You are looking so great!!! Keep it up!!!
Vent away ....that is what we are here for!!!
Thursday, 25 January 2007
Thank you for your comments on last nights post... I needed to know I had done the right thing.
I didn't answer her text, and have decided not to answer her text, she doesn't deserve my forgiveness so she can feel better about what a bitch she was!
I have never been a person that will hold a grudge but this time she fucked with my life and I cannot forgive that. I really miss my Lean class and I have had people ask me why I am not there anymore but I said I didn't want to go into it but it wasn't because I didn't love them anymore... I didn't think it was right to bad mouth her to them because then I would be stooping to her level.
If you are reading this I have to say... not everyone in my neighbourhood on Vox can read these posts as they are only for eyes I really trust so please don't tell anyone about the posts.
The reason for leaving blogspot was because of it all and I wanted to discuss things but found out that it was getting back to Kris so I couldn't vent anymore.
Today was extremely full on.
At 8.05am this morning I went for a 1 hour 20 minute walk and swung my arms and got in to the music and did 8 kms I was sooo proud of myself.
I think getting the text from Kris has kicked my ass and I have thought to myself I am going to lose this weight and I am going to be georgeous. I am also going to have heaps of friends by my side because they know that I am loyal and that I would never do anything like she has done to me EVER... and that made me work even harder to get this weight off.
I was stopped by a lady that used to go to Weight Watchers and she made me stop telling me how wonderful I am looking and to keep it up so that was really great to hear.
Got home and got a shower and took the boys to my gym as there was a holiday programme on and they so so so so enjoyed themselves there for 2 hours while I took my mum out shopping and she took me to a really lovely cafe for a coffee and a slice... I was also proud of myself with that too because it was a chocolate slice (I thought I deserved it) but I ate not even a quarter of it because it was too sweet... and normally I would have asked to take it home where I would have eaten it later but I didn't I left it there... I didn't touch the cream either.
Just had my coffee.... it was a great accomplishment for me. ALL IN MODERATION I say as it is a life style change not a life style constriction..... and my WW ladies keep telling me that I am too strict on myself and I should treat myself so I tried and I didn't eat the whole slice and more... and it was too sweet and I stopped... I cannot tell you how proud I am of myself.
So then after that took the boys to the playground and we played there for about 40 minutes then I had to come home so to drop them off and mum look after them while I went to look at houses with Debbie as she is buying her first home. We found a really great one that I have been in before...soooo spooky possums I say.. nice little place he he he
Then... he he he I went aqua jogging OMG OMG I am so sore after it as I made sure I was using my arms heaps as I don't want these bingo wings anymore... it was great.... I felt great but now I am really sore and tomorrow I am going to be sore and I have a PT with Joy tomorrow OMG then that is it for my exercise.
I have been thinking about all the exercise I did last year and even though I did some fantastic things and accomplished so much I did too much exercise and only lost 10 kilos last year (but glad I lost and didn't gain aye).
This year I am going to do a maximum of 4 days exercise a week and I am going to lose the weight!!
I have 22.3 (to get to 99.9 kilos) to go and it is going to be off by the end of the year and I want you all to remind me of this whenever I am feeling down because I do need reminding sometimes.
So now I am typing this and watching a James Bond DVD and going to do my cross stitch and veg he he he
Love ya all guys
Thank you for your support
Chris H wrote:
Jan 25, 2007 at 9:51 PM
You ROCK, sounds like you had a fantastic day! What a huge walk, you have inspired me to walk the streets again, it is so much more enjoyable than the treadmill. Keep it up Mandy, we shall both be 20kgs smaller by years end. I am in Hamilton ocassionally, shall give you a toot when we breeze in!
Rachel's World wrote:
Jan 26, 2007 at 10:21 AM
You made me tired just reading all the exercise you did.........yeeha!
You are doing so well, isn't it exciting? That 99.9kgs is just around the corner!
Our journey wrote:
Jan 26, 2007 at 10:41 AM
Just popping in to say hi hun... I have finally caught up on all posts after working out why I couldn't read them! DUH! I felt so stupid! But you are doing so well and I think you did the right thing by not replying to Kris! You DO NOT need her in your life!You are on fire!!!Love ya Karen xx
Jan 26, 2007 at 8:22 PM
You are doing great hon!!
Wednesday, 24 January 2007
Ok. Excuse my language on this because I don't usually swear but I want to let all my feelings out and I am not going to hold back. There are some people I am not letting see this post by the way.
Things were going ok today until I got this text!!!
Hey Mandy, I would like to apologise for the email I sent to you before I went away. I let my emotions get the better of me. I know I made mistakes and I hurt you and I am very sorry for that. I did a lot of thinking while I was away and made some changes for the better I hope. I just want to say sorry.
I was angry at the start only because the crap I have had to put up with... with this woman and her vendictive personality, as she almost lost my personal trainer for me because of all the lies she had told them. I found out that she copied my blog and changed things around in word so that it would incriminate me... it caused so much problems for me that I don't feel as happy with my trainer since the situation because she still doesn't know that Kris lied and caused the problem in the first place... and I don't want to stir up all the crap again.
I lost my team of friends that I went to twice a week and it has made me really sad about it because I don't want to look like the bitch causing problems so I didn't tell anyone what she was like... just decided I didn't want to deal with a bitch like her ever again so I left my group and now she has my group.
She made going to school to take my kids an awkward as I don't want to bump into her even though she knows my timetable with work that she is always there at the time I go and drop them off etc.
I know it took a lot of guts for her to apologise but I DID NOT REPLY TO THE TEXT. I WILL NOT REPLY TO THE TEXT but I wanted to vent about it.
My husband, mother, Debbie and my friend that knows her realllly well said that I shouldn't answer and to keep right away from her because she isn't worth my friendship... but I hate not answering.. I HATE losing friendship but I don't want anything to do with her.
I don't want to deal with the woman anymore.. is it bad of me not to answer?
She hurt me so much you wouldn't believe.... I feel so angry after this whole thing.. I lost my Lean group... I lost my great PT sessions with my trainer and how relaxed it used to feel, I lost my chubbymum blog that I made so many friends from and could have made more, I lost taking my boys to school and enjoying being with my kids. I don't like going to the gym anymore for fear of bumping in to her as well.... it is so uncomfortable.
I have heard that she has lost over 6 kilos since going on her holiday and that is really good for her so I suppose she is doing something right in her life and that is a great thing for her. That is a great effort on her part and being on holiday while doing it.. not many people can do that.
Ok that is off my chest now.. I would like opinions.... it makes me work it out etc.
Chris H wrote:
Jan 24, 2007 at 8:16 PM
Sounds to me like you have done the right thing, changed your blog, etc etc. Don't reply to her text, that would be validating her apology, and sounds to me like you shouldn't! She sounds like a back stabbing f - - kng bitch and you are better off without her "friendship". While it is hard to see her at school etc, just smile and ignore her, you are the better person. She MUST know what she did was terribly wrong, let her stew in it.
Celtic Girl wrote:
Jan 24, 2007 at 9:32 PM
Sorry you haven't been feeling well. I think you are right not to respond to such a coniving and deceitful person like she seems to be. I must admit I was shocked and horrified as I read your post about her changing the words in your blog.Keep well away from her - she's trouble. Chin up hun, in the long run everyone will see her for the person she is and see you as the innocent party.
Rachel's World wrote:
Jan 25, 2007 at 9:54 AM
Hi sweets, congrats on the 500g loss......you are so clever losing everyweek. Obviously not having a certain poisonous person (Kris) in your life is doing you wonders for your happiness and weightloss. I agree with hubby and Deb that you shouldn't reply BUT if it were me I would love to say something like,
"Glad to hear you have realised what a nasty person you are but this friendship isn't reconsilable....your loss"
What a cow to not only copy your blog but CHANGE it, you don't need horrible, nasty, acid people like that in your life when you have Jeremy, Debs and US (bloggers)............hahaha.
Good riddens to useless garbage I say!
Jan 25, 2007 at 12:45 PM
If you really feel the need to reply, just send her back a brief "this is too little too late" note and not say anything else. There's no point getting caught up in any sort of dialogue with her as no doubt she would find a way down the track to turn it back around on you again somehow.
Jan 25, 2007 at 3:37 PM
You are right not to reply - I can't believe she actually changed the words in your blog to make you look bad ...what a bitch...you are much better without that in your life!!
Congrats on your loss...that is fantastic!!!
Not been feeling well for about 4 days now.
Not wanting to post... no reason but laziness as well as not feeling well.
I lost 500 grams last night and I am happy with that. I am averaging around 600 grams a week (since start of year) so I am happy with that too.
I would like it to be more but hey that is life.
I want to be to the 35 kilos by 27th February which will be 119.7 kilos woohoooo so hopefully that will happen.
Then I will vow never never never to go back to the 20's, 30's, 40's and 50's ever ever ever again.
So I have 2.2 to get to that... (that is like 400 grams a week) I think I can achieve that what do you think?
I have made a little promise to myself that I will not gain for 6 weeks... so 2 weeks down and 4 to go he he he
Jan 24, 2007 at 1:44 PM
Congrats on your loss - Hope you are feeling better soon :)
Jan 24, 2007 at 1:45 PM
Well done on another loss.
Jan 24, 2007 at 9:37 PM
Well done on your fantastic loss!
Wednesday, 17 January 2007
I haven't got much to say but feel like I have to do a post or I will get lazy he he he
I felt more confident today because of my loss last night. 800 grams for me is fantastic.
Went to the gym tonight to my first Kick boxing class with Joy my personal trainer and I worked my butt off. Before I went I had decided that I was going to try things I haven't done before or moves that I have done the easy option to... so tonight I did the jogging instead of the walking fast on the spot and I did full star jumps FULL STAR JUMPS OMG instead of the one step sideways.
I made sure all the hand work was done at the same time and I pushed hard and didn't give in. I sometimes feel like I don't go that extra little mile... I get to the point where I am hurting and then I don't go that extra mile and push through it and after watching The Biggest Loser in the last couple of weeks I have been thinking about the program and then I go through that barrier.
I have not ever wanted it so bad as I have in the last couple of weeks.
I have 22.8 kilos to get under 100 kilos CAN YOU BELIEVE IT???? only 22.8 kilos... not 54.7 kilos like the start of my journey.
Sue... thanks for the offer I appreciate it and I will use it to (you know what I mean)... thank you!
Work was ok today got a little annoyed with the Manager of the centre I have my office in... how useless is she!!
OMG I was sooo sick of covering her backside the last 6 months since she took over (when she had been jointly doing the job for the first 6 months) and she never gives credit where credit is due that I took some problems that she caused in her office today while her boss was there (didn't know she was but I was leaving for the day) and said "you need to sort these out because I am tired of fixing the problems when I have constantly been telling you guys how to do it" I know it was harsh but OMG there is so much you can take and not get credit for before you crack... and today it was me.
I worked full time last week instead of 20 hours a week to fix all the stuff ups that she caused over the holiday break that I think I got to breaking point.
OMG I got flack from Debbie today about not telling her how much I had lost last night.. she made such a big deal with her boss that her boss turned around and said "do you think maybe she lost way more than you had that maybe she didn't want to make you feel small" I just smiled and walked away... realistically she knows that wouldn't happen but why would she be so upset that I didn't tell her....?? don't quite get it... I didn't tell anyone at work when they asked too so that she didn't feel it was just her.
I felt better about it though... I felt like finally this journey was mine and now for all to see... I don't mind on here because of the support and we are all happy for all of our losses... but I feel quilty everytime I tell someone as the meeting how much I had lost because it is never a lot.... I don't want the quilt I want to feel proud of my accomplishments.
WHEW it feels good to just get it off my chest.... and talk talk talk... isn't this the way it is supposed to be? I feel like a journal is my way of getting it off my chest and working on it and not bottling it up inside.
OHHHH I am sore!! sore sore in my arms tonight after class.
Off tomorrow... got a PT with Joy and I am going to treat myself and get my nails done to feel good about myself.
I am going to my uncles funeral on Friday and I haven't seen most of the people that are coming in a couple of years as they live a long way away and hopefully someone will notice the difference in me... not that they are there for that but sometimes it is nice to talk about something else... It is bringing back a lot of upset moments for me at the moment and especially about my Dad. I so know what my cousin is going through at the moment and I hope to God that she has spent as much time with her Dad before he died because you can never get the time back.....
Anyway I have rambled on too much now.
Rachel's World wrote:
Jan 18, 2007 at 2:48 PM
[this is good]Good on you for saying something at work, if you don't nobody else is going to ay?
Celtic Girl wrote:
Jan 18, 2007 at 2:56 PM
Congrats on your loss, yourve been working hard and you deserve it. Also a big Hug, I hate funerals to as they always bring back sad memories for me, try and remember the good times hun. Chin up
Jan 18, 2007 at 7:50 PM
Sorry to hear about your Uncle. But congrats on your loss :):).You will get there.Jaxx
Jan 18, 2007 at 9:45 PM
Sorry to hear of your loss.
You are doing so well:)
I have started reading Dr Phil 7 keys - what was the addy for the group you wrote to me about?
Jan 19, 2007 at 9:24 AM
Great loss - well done! You aer sounding so positive! Good on you for saying your thoughts at work. Had to be done/
Jan 22, 2007 at 4:42 PM
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You sound great. I finally caught up with your blog. I love it. You sound so happy and things are working out well . Will email you later. Take care. And happy new year!!!!
Rachel's World wrote:
Jan 23, 2007 at 11:17 AM
Hello in there...........is there anyone home?????????
Jan 24, 2007 at 11:44 AM
Just checking in to see how you are going!!
Tuesday, 16 January 2007
I promised myself that when I started this blog I am going to put happy things and things that are going in my head making me mad or sad or angry because I am not going to hold back anymore.... as I want to learn from my grumpyness, bitcheness, happiness etc and I love the feedback to help me grow (or shrink he he).
I get so frustrated when people I know lose more!! Not that I am not happy for them... I NEED TO STATE THAT because I love them dearly and wish them well in their journey and I am talking about Debbie in this situation. It is just that I try so hard to keep with things and do my exercise and change habits and when I only lose little amounts I start to wonder if I am doing the wrong thing somewhere? I just don't get how I am being consistant and all in moderation and things don't go as planned... and I am soooo not saying that it is someone elses fault because it is mine if I am not losing the weight and no one can take that he he he... just frustrating you know.
Maybe I am counting my exercise points wrong? or something.
I might not be varied enough in my food and not using all the food groups but then when I was being strict with myself then I wasn't losing any and I was plateauing so I am not getting myself so confused and upset about it.
I think I will lose weight tonight and I am expecting about 500 grams but secretly (and don't tell me any of you don't think the same way) but I want a kilo or 2... 2 would be fantastic. But never do I lose that much.
I didn't do the superstart menu this week but have said to hubby that I might try it the week after next week and see how I go (as that is our shopping day) because I want to boost things as I want to get to 119 by end of February so that is 600 grams a week!!! I have to do this
I want to get to 100 kilos by the end of the year I am sick of fucking around...
I sort of did a calculation on where I would be if I lost 600, 700, 800, 900 grams a week so I could see what would happen... When I first started WW I did this every week and calculated when I would get somewhere and it worked until I stopped doing it so maybe it focusses me on the job at hand. So....
- If I lose 600 grams a week I will be at 99 kilos by 9 October 2007
- If I lose 700 grams a week I will be at 99 kilos by 4 September 2007 (a couple of days before my birthday)
- If I lose 800 grams a week I will be at 99 kilos by 7 August 2007
- If I lose 900 grams a week I will be at 99 kilos by 17 July 2007
- If I lose a kilo a week I will be at 99 kilos by 26 June 2007
(Now the last two for me is unrealistic but I think the 600 grams to 800 grams could be realistic for me, and I think I am aiming for around the 700 grams a week to get to 99 kilos by my birthday).
So we shall see what happens with the weigh in tonight... for tomorrow we target getting to the 99 kilos he he he
Food today so far
Breakfast: 3 Weetbix, Milk, banana
Snacks: 10 Rice Crackers, 1 peach
Lunch: Roast beef salad sandwich
Dinner: Spare Ribs, mashed potatoe, peas, carrots
Water: 750mls x1
Exercise: Went for walk to get milk at the supermarket (even though day off exercise he he he)
I lost 800 grams... so I am well on my way to get to the 99 kilos... I am happy with the loss.
So if I can be consistant with the 800 grams then I could be down to 99 kilos by August so I would be more than happy with that. I have to be consistant because I can do this.
Debbie lost 2.5 kilos OMG I wish!! I am soooo happy for her as she must have worked her butt off to lose that amount in a week.
But I had decided before I went there I wasn't going to say what my weight loss was anymore because in my mind I make it a competition. She wasn't happy about it at all but I wasn't doing it to make her mad I was doing it to stop me having a competition with her as I didn't want to ruin the friendship... but she managed to tell me her weight loss anyway so I would know which kind of pissed me off as I want to enjoy the going together and helping each other without it meaning that either of us felt bad.
I know that you all probably don't understand why I am so upset about it but it is because I want to do so well and I don't want it to be about anyone else but me but with my competitive streak.... I hate not losing as much and I don't want to feel that! I want to happy going and doing the exercise with Debbie and going out shopping and working with each other and feeling like we are both doing it for ourselves. Not a competition with numbers as it does my head it..
So another 800 next week and I am well on my way. 2.8 kilos to go till I reach the teens woohoooo,
Rachel's World wrote:
Jan 16, 2007 at 12:03 PM
I reckon keeping a running total of where you will be if you lose 'this or that' each week is a fantastic idea. I also do it and find that it just gives me that extra little incentive each week. I have given myself a total of 400 - 600 per week which I hope isn't too unrealistic.
I have weigh in tonight too, can't wait to see how we both go.
Don't worry about feeling guilty because you get a bit upset when someone else is doing better (or losing more) as it is NORMAL. They just have a different body makeup which really sux for us but whaddya do?
Celtic Girl wrote:
Jan 16, 2007 at 3:14 PM
HUGS,HUGS HUGS.. Yes we ALL get disappointed an think we can do better at the weigh ins. Try not to compare yourself with Debbie, everybody is different, for all you know she could be eating lettuce leaves all the time!! lol. Focus on where you have come from and where you are now - A MARVELOUS ACHIEVMENT.
Chris H wrote:
Jan 16, 2007 at 6:29 PM
My only suggestion is to drop some carbs, if you are having 5 servings a day, go to only 3. I still think you are plateauing, and need to change a few more things around, then the weight might move. Good on you for not having unrealistic goals too, it is self defeating to have unrealistic expectations, cos they backfire on us.
Jan 17, 2007 at 8:16 AM
800 - way to go.
You asked about turkey. I buy the frozen Tegel roasts (not the stuffed ones!). These are boneless and in a roll, so once you cook it it's easy to use. One of them does about five or six lunches (depending on whether or not I'm making Mark's lunch as well - I give him more meat than I have).
Jan 17, 2007 at 2:22 PM
Thanks for sharing your thoughts about this! I think we all feel like this at one time or another. It's so frustrating to work so hard and see someone else do it faster. I know it's hard to think of it like this but just remember that you have changed your life, you are fit and meeting goals. I KNOW YOU CAN DO THIS!!! it's such a hard thing to do, food is around all the time, it's not like smoking you can quit and limit interaction with smokers or you quit drinking and stop going to a bar or stop bying alcohol. But it is just as strong as an addiction, and you have to deal with it day in and day out.
Keep working, we will get there together!!
Jan 26, 2007 at 4:16 PM
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Hiya. Well done on the 800g loss!!! I know how you feel about others doing better, I guess it is the downside of having someone do it with you. My friend has done really well & is below goal but I get annoyed when we go to weigh in & she goes on about how bad she has been & is going to put on etc etc - lo & behold - Nope lost again & turns out all she did was have a glass of wine or a handful of chips. You are doing so well, look at how much you have lost so far!!
Have a great weekend.
Sunday, 14 January 2007
I haven't been posting every day because I feel content at the moment.
I had a horrible eating on Friday with dinner being pizza and gave myself crap for it on Saturday and starting getting angry but after posting on a group I belong to and reading the Dr Phil book I am even more determined to sort it out.
It is funny how reading the Dr Phil book has made me think about things like my exercise. I go and work out at the gym and I do work out hard but in the last week I have been watching myself and when I start to think I cannot go any further or faster then I push through it and realise I can do more and I am holding myself back... and I think that is the reason I had such a sweaty t-shirt on friday.... because I didn't let my mind think I couldn't do it.
Like the saying goes (if I have it right) "if you do what you always have done then you will get what you always got" I don't want to do what I have always done I want to change what I have always done and do better.
So today got up and went to the gym at 9.30am and decided that I wouldn't go with Debbie but would go with hubby as I go with Debbie 3 times a week and I find that I slow myself down on the bike, and cross trainer because she doesn't like those machines so I go at her speed and I finally realised I don't want to do that. I like having her there and I push myself on the rower and treadmill because she likes it and tries hard...well today I tried hard on all the equipement and I also spent time with hubby and we did kickboxing punches and kicks and situps and we worked on the bingo wings. It was nice working out with him as we don't get much time to be together and do something we both like doing so I was soooo happy afterwards it was nice and I hope we do more of that.
Got home and got a shower and went to lunch with my BIL and his girlfriend (hopefully one day my sister in law he he he) we get on so well not like the other girl friends he has ever had and she is so family friendly and we went to a chinese restaurant and had yum cha.. and enjoyed it totally and his girlfriend paid for lunch... she ran up to the desk so she would get there before us OMG... she said it was to say thanks for Christmas lunch and having her around. That was really nice of her. My MIL was there as well and it was a pleasant lunch and the food was yummy.
Got home and took mum to spotlight (didn't buy anything ho hum) I am a craft junkie if you guys didn't know that by now.
Then in the afternoon the kids played outside in the sprinkler and hubby and I sat on the swing and read books and talked to the kids and talked and all the while a roast chicken was cooking in the oven. It was a nice day to just relax in the sun... it was a hot day OMG WHAT A BOILING HOT DAY.
Anyway tired now and I have the dreaded work tomorrow and hopefully I will find out whether or not there are any spaces for my life coach course that I can get in to...
Jan 14, 2007 at 10:42 PM
Good luck for the life coach....Cheers Jaxx
Rachel's World wrote:
Jan 15, 2007 at 11:43 AM
Hi mate, yeah I did the pizza thing on Saturday night as well and then kicked myself all day Sunday (what is with that???).
Loved the sweaty shirt.......hehehe, I bet you don't hear THAT everyday
Jan 15, 2007 at 2:46 PM
[this is good]At long last I can get to read! Well done with the measurements - good to catchup on your news:)
Celtic Girl wrote:
Jan 15, 2007 at 4:10 PM
OMG, just saw your measurements from your last post, you are doing fantastic, you can really see your progress when you measure. I think I will start tonight as It's ages since I measured myself.Also, loved the sweaty shirt and YES it is an achievment worth capturing and sharing.
Friday, 12 January 2007
What a day it went so fast today.
Went to my first personal training with Joy and so she did a fitness test on me and I went from 18 to 20 in the test which is really good as you have to go up in numbers for your fitness to be better so I am pleased with that and so is she. I weighed at 122 on her scales so I was happy with that...
I went down in measurements for my tummy and calf muscles but my thighs went up and she said they would have gone up with muscle as it was more defined as far as she could see. So I was really pleased that my fitness level went up and she said so far this week she has had most of her clients go down in their fitness test because of Xmas so she was really pleased with me.
After that we went and did a lot of cardio and I sweated like I have never never sweated before and my t-shirt has never had sweat on it but look at the picture below... ok ok I look like a nightmare but I was soooo proud of my t-shirt he he he. I know I know not exactly exciting for anyone else but for me it is an achievement and maybe if I am sweating more now then maybe my metabolism is working right now and I will lose some more weight.
Had an appointment for the boys for the doctors today as my oldest has a wart on the bottom of his toe... they call them farruca (spelling???) and also my youngest had to go for his immunisation that we have been trying to get him to have since he was 4 but everytime we went in he was sick so finally we got it done and OMG he said nothing he sat there nicely and he looked at her and didn't fight, scream or cry and the lady said she has never had a child do that before. I was sooo proud of him.
I did my measurements today... comparisons with January 2005 to January 2007 and here it is.
So that is over and done with.
What a stinker of a hot day today aye!
Anyway got a headache and need to get off the computer.
Chris H wrote:
Jan 12, 2007 at 9:02 PM
Very impressed with the wet t-shirt, way to go! Keep it up mate.
Jan 12, 2007 at 9:16 PM
My my you worked up an impressive sweat!!! Your change in measurements are just awesome L, good work!
Jan 13, 2007 at 12:45 PM
Your measurements are impressive...love that you are so proud of sweating...you look so happy:)
Jan 13, 2007 at 12:54 PM
Wow - 83cm! Outstanding work!
Tuesday, 9 January 2007
My first weigh in for the year tonight.
I am pretty happy with it considering I set myself a limit of 2 kilo gain. I didn't want to gain but if I did then anything under 2 kilos is ok.
So I gained 1.7 kilos taking me to 123.5 OUCH but I am still over my 30 kilos lost so that is fanbloodytastic.
Debbie went with me tonight for her first night and she gained 3.3 kilos OMG she was pissed!! She knew she was going to gain but 3.3 just killed her.
To be quite honest she could loose that in a week or 3 where as if I gained that much it would take me months because I only lose an average of 500 grams a week.... so didn't feel too much sympathy for her tonight.. I know that sounds harsh but I get sooo frustrated when she can lose so much when we do exactly the same thing in exercise and food... and that is making me sound like a bitch!
I am not trying to sound like a bitch but I hate the way I really try and I get minimal and that isn't against Debbie at all as I adore her as my friend and love spending time with her just that I get frustrated as I try just as hard or even more and I can imagine you all have been in the same situation. It is so not against her as a person...it has taken me 2 years to lose 33 kilos and it took her 16 weeks to lose 15 kilos so I get a little frustrated even though she totally deserved to lose the weight!! TOTALLY.
Work today drove me insane and I worked from 7.30am to 5pm tonight as well as yesterday and I usually finish at 2.30 as idiots interferred with my job and now I am fixing the errors for about 400 children GOD that pisses me off! No communication just they decided to do something without consulting... I should make them sort out the problem but in the end they might stuff it up more than it is worth. I suppose I am getting overtime paid so hey!
I am getting SOOOOO much out of the Biggest Loser that is on everynight at the moment. It is motivating me like you wouldn't believe... wish things like that would be on more instead of all the crap on at the moment.
So my goal:::::::
By the end of February I want to be at 119 kilos!! I want to be out of the 120's FOREVER!!!!!!
So that is 3.6 in 7 weeks so that is 500 grams a week and if I lose more than 500 grams then that is a bonus.
I am going to do this!!
I am back to being FEISTY!!!
Good night everyone
Jan 10, 2007 at 9:07 AM
1.7kgs is under your 2kgs you gave yourself over Xmas so GOOD GIRL.........LOL
That certainly is 2 long days at work for the start of a new year, I tried to sneak off early to go to the gym on Monday and got snapped by the Director (the big boy) of the bloody company.............typical!!!!
Oh well, at least it was for a good cause....hahaha.
I am also loving the Biggest Loser, what a hoot. I have missed a couple unfortunately but Mum has already seen it in Oz, so she is filling me in. Don't ya just wish someone would come and take us away to do the same thing and then we could just get on with living a happy, normal life?
Isn't Bob a lot shittier in this series? I always thought he was Mr Nice Guy and Jillian was the bitch but Bob hasn't been his lovely self this time.
Jan 10, 2007 at 10:51 AM
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Nice to read that you are motivated and going to kick butt this year. I always admre how much exercise you get in, youa re a gym machine.
Fat Queen wrote:
Jan 10, 2007 at 5:00 PM
Nothing wrong with being feisty! MOTIVATED is good :) Sorry your day at work was a hassle, but I guess that's why they CALL it work ;) Baby steps -- and NO comparing -- work at your OWN pace. Everyone's metabolism works differently...
Jan 11, 2007 at 1:45 AM
Is biggest loser on there already???...I can't wait till it starts here!!
Jan 11, 2007 at 8:01 AM
Very doable goals - I feel a bit guilty, because I am like Debbie, if I stick to the points properly and exercise 3-4 times a week, I can lose 1 kilo a week on average. I suppose I should count myself as lucky in that respect.
Chris H wrote:
Jan 11, 2007 at 10:46 AM
I know how you must be feeling about the slow loss, but remember, a loss is just that, A LOSS. I am sure you can get outta the 120's, so go for it. I have been thinking.... maybe in order to lose faster you need to try changing something in your routine... like change what you are eating, when you are eating it, have your main meal at lunchtime, don't eat a thing after say... 7pm, do a different exercise (our bodies get used to what we do all the time), try dropping the carbs a bit more, CHANGE AS MUCH AS YOU CAN.... and maybe that will help. It has for me and heaps of others.... good luck!
Celtic Girl wrote:
Jan 11, 2007 at 2:48 PM
You'll get to the teens, I know you will. You have the drive to accomplish anything you want to.
Monday, 8 January 2007
Ok so I went back to work today and it felt like I hadn't left.
Things are still up in the air and I was on the phone to my boss so many time sorting out things as she is an hours drive away in Akl. She is a little worried too as she doesn't know what is going to happen with our jobs. The teachers are going to be ok but the Administration is a different story.
I figure that I have no choice in what is going to happen and we have been promised that we will all have jobs (for how long I don't know) but at least there if I get made redundant I will have six weeks notice and in that time I will find another job I have no fear about that. I cannot do anything about it so I am not going to worry about it for now.
My boss asked if I could do overtime this week so what they hey I am going to do some overtime so I can get some more money as we could do with it as we live from fortnight to fortnight usually.
I have said to myself over these holidays that I am happy with a 2 kilo gain over the holiday as I wanted to be a little lax and then make sure I get back to it so tomorrow night is my first weigh in and I will gain I know it so at least I can sort myself out and from this week on I am going to lose 500 grams a week!!! I am!! I am!!!
Went to the gym tonight... I worked out soooo hard and the reason being when I first got there the tv in the gym had The Biggest Loser on it and it inspired me. If these people could do it then so could I, so the workout was.
- Treadmill for 12 minutes and 4 minutes out of that I jogged!!! Not all at once but 1 minute on 1 minute off.
- Kickboxing with Debbie we boxed each other for 3 sets and then kicked the pads for 3 sets.
- Rower for 1000 metres as fast as we could
- Womens gym downstairs (set up like curves) 45 seconds each set and we did them twice to get more out of it.
- Inner Thighs weights x 2
- Cross trainer x 2
- Butt machine x 2
- Spin Bike x 2
- Outer Thighs x 2
- Sit ups x 2
- Butt Ups x 2
- Cross Trainer x2
- Biceps x2
- Calve muscles x2
- Cross Trainer x2
- Triceps x2
- Calf muscles x2
- Biceps x2
Sunday, 7 January 2007
Don't wanna go back to work tomorrow!!
I am having too much fun being me and being home with my family and enjoying everything that we are doing!!! I don't want to go back into that little office and doing crap boring work. I want to get paid he he he but I don't want to get paid doing work I don't particularly like!!!
I know we all feel like that some or most of the time but I don't want to feel like that again! I hope that I can do this Life Coach course and that I can get myself in to a job that I am passionate about and want to do because so far in my life I haven't found anything that I am passionate about!!! and will being a Life Coach be something I am passionate about or will I be in the same situation I am in now?
How do we ever know what makes us happy? How do people do what makes them happy in a job!!???How do they work it out?
All I know is I don't want to live the rest of my life making challenges with my life that revolve around exercise and family but don't work out what really makes me happy in my work life!!
I have to find what will make me happy so that all my life is happy and contented.
I stay in my jobs for security and really they aren't making me happy and you only have one life to live.
Jan 7, 2007 at 11:54 PM
I know how you feel...not looking forward to going back to work myself...lol
Life coaching sounds like fun...you can use me as a gueina pig anytime:)
Fat Queen wrote:
Jan 8, 2007 at 9:33 AM
Life is a Journey as much as losing weight or being healthy. Besides -- there's so much to learn and DO how could we pick just ONE? No one says we HAVE to either -- if it makes you happy -- DO IT!
My Dad got his HS Diploma [equivalent] when he was 64. His philosphy was: Never Stop Learning!
Rachel's World wrote:
Jan 8, 2007 at 10:06 AM
Hi matey, I am also back at work today and can finally make comments on blogs as my home PC is terrible and I haven't had the time to catch up with everyone.
I went and read your January posts and you are sounding so motivated and positive and your family days out sound fantastic. You are going to have such an awesome 2007,,,,,,,,,I just know it!!!!!
Celtic Girl wrote:
Jan 8, 2007 at 4:09 PM
I know how you feel. I also hate my job and feel trapped.I agree with Fat Queen, your never to old to stop learning. I'd love to go back to uni and do something I enjoyed. Life can be so challenging sometimes, but it also helps to look at the positives and be thankful for what we have.
Saturday, 6 January 2007
Got up and went for my hour walk again today. I am sooo enjoying my walks because I can put my music on and block out everyone else and think about what I want to achieve in the next week, month, year. It has been good because I sort out things.
I must admit that I have been so much happier with myself and my achievements in the last couple of months and that is because I am no longer trying to please or help other people sort out their problems (here where I live) but I am sorting out mine and moving forward to what I believe is right for me.
So this year is the year to lose the remaining amount to get under the 100 kilos... at the end of 2006 that was 21.8 kilos but I am thinking it is more like 23 or 24 kilos to get under the 100 kilos. That is not much considering and I think if I keep focussed on me then I will do that.
I am so enjoying this new blog and my friends that have joined me!
I start back at work on Monday and I must say I am not looking forward to that. In the next couple of months it is going to be all up in the air with the take over and even though they have said we all keep our jobs I am not too sure about if my job will stay the same and I am finally getting used to the job I have after the last takeover less than a year ago.
Went to the Museum with the boys today and they have a space excite on for the holidays and it was so much fun learning how things work and space works and doing puzzles and also they had a section that showed other things like earth quakes and how mirrors work and lots of other things. It was fantastic and there were a couple of things that if I had done a couple of years ago then I would have sat on the side and not had a go with the kids.. it was great.
Didn't do much other than that today but that is ok it is our relaxing holiday from work and everything else and it was enjoyable.
Good night everyone...
From a contented CM
Friday, 5 January 2007
I had a full on day yesterday and totally enjoyed it!
Maybe that is my New Year's Resolution to get out and go for it no matter what it is we only have one life to live so let's live it.
Got up had breakfast (in bed I might add from hubby he he he) then phoned MIL and we all went to Ngatea Water Gardens and it was a lot of fun. They have jokes all the way around the gardens and the kids get to do a quiz along the way so that they keep occupied.
What a beautiful place it is and they have so many funny things as you can see in the photo below. They have bird houses with sky digital on the top and a sign on it saying "For Lease". Sign saying Caution Falling rocks and then some gumboots under a rock. Also a gate saying please keep closed and there is only a gate and nothing else he he he. The flowers were georgeous and the whole place was enjoyed by all of us. The plague that said Do Not Stand Here was so funny. My oldest decided to stand on it and he got soaking wet he he he he too funny he should have done what it said he he he.
We then went out for lunch and I had a panini with mushrooms and bacon and really really enjoyed that.
Celtic girl in response to your comment yes I am feeling much happier and to be honest I shouldn't have told Kris about my blog because seeing her so much at my son's school and gym I couldn't talk on my blog anymore.
After driving there (which took an hour each way) we got home and went swimming with Debbie. Debbie and I swam lengths and the boys played (with my hubby) in the kids pool. I did 40 lengths but Debbie decided after 28 that she would go and play with the boys. I didn't swim the whole 40 as 15 of them I aqua jogged back and forth... it felt good and felt like I had achieved something. OMG it is sooo hard to swim after not doing it for years. I found doing the freestyle that I didn't want to put my face down in the water as I was always out of breath... I am sure I will get better and I am determined to go every Thursday night with Debbie and get my heart pumping. I have to get out of my square and the gym is good and I am not going to give up but I think I need to try something different.
Food is my problem!! How do I sort it out?
I am going to make sure I point every day but I am wanting bad food so much in these holidays and no matter how much exercise I do won't help me at all if I don't get it under control.
I suppose when I get back to work things will get back to normal.
I am really trying with the water and when I go for my hour walk every day I am trying my hardest to make sure I am sweating enough so that I am working hard... hmmmm it is going to happen I just have to keep to my points and stop being so bad and convincing myself that I need to eat more when I don't need to eat anymore at all. I do feel it is all in my head.
Hubby took me out for lunch today to an Italian Cafe and we enjoyed our time away from the kids. We went to find out about doing a Life Coach Diploma but when we got there the guy that answered the door said he was there to paint and they wouldn't be back until the 16th January so I suppose I have to wait till then.
I have really thought about my future in these past holidays. I have wanted to do training as a Life Coach for about a year now and have been too chicken to go for it because of money and because of part of it I have to be interviewed to get in to the course and I think I was thinking that because I am big that they wouldn't accept me because if I can't loose weight how can I help others in their life choices.... but then I have two years part time study to do before I will be coaching anyone and I want to specialise in helping people with weight issues and that is what I am going to concentrate on. I know that there is more to losing weight than just eating and exercising and some skinny people don't know about the head stuff that goes on and I want to help as many people in my situation as possible.
So when I lose the weight by the time I finish my 2 year studies then I WILL be in a position to help others just like I wished I had had from someone.
I want to do this!! I hope that I am not too late to get in to the course because after much thought I know I want to do this.
Anyway... tired and need to get some sleep
Jan 5, 2007 at 9:55 PM
Hey girl, you definately should go for it with the Life Coach training. Even if you start off with one paper (or module or whatever), you can at least dip your toes in the water (so to speak), and see if it is really what you want to do. From the little I know about Life Coaching there's more to it than just coaching people who are overweight, so you shouldn't let that stop you, not for one second!! For ages I was put off midwifery because I thought I would be turned down because of the "health screening" tests, which I was assumed was weight/fitness related, but it turns out it's just bloodtests for diseases that you don't want to pass onto patients and immunization levels. Anyway, I think you get what I mean. Just GO FOR IT! And doing the studies yourself will no doubt help you in your own journey... and you can use us as guinea pigs hehehe :)
Fat Queen wrote:
Jan 6, 2007 at 4:22 AM
I love the photos! It looks like you had a wonderful time -- you're looking FAB-U-Lous and the boys are getting soooooooooooooo big!! They grow so fast, don't they?
Love the Diet utensils. Made me laugh :)
To answer your question -- I never HAD a partner. I just did it myself. I don't know how I stayed focused... I guess it was my MISSION or something. Now Mom/I are working together and that seems to work well. She's got arthritis and the docs told her it would be good for her to do water therapy -- so we go together!
From what I understand from my Physical Therapist and trainers, a day of rest is good. Just so that you don't let it be too many days in a row -- then you're outta sync. Or don't want to continue. I try to schedule everything in my life -- including days of rest :)
Jan 6, 2007 at 10:49 PM
Ohhhh,,, I love Ngatea Water Gardens. (as most garden freaks probably do) Its such a well established garden and I also love all those funny quirky little things they have included in the design. I was actually suppose to have that venue for my wedding reception but here we are,, still not married and know that I won't be. (thats another long story, I should blog about it sometime soon) Roger, the guy that made the gardens gave me a lot of tips when I was setting up our garden.
Know what you mean about the food. Since my wisdom tooth infection, (and stitches) have all finally healed up I seem to be inhaling enough food to feed a small nation. I am certainly making up for not eating over Christmas/New Years. (grrrrrrr, at myself). I HAVE to get back on track.
Ciao for now
Celtic Girl wrote:
Jan 8, 2007 at 4:05 PM
This place look really pretty from your pictures. You also look so happy and vibrant.
Wednesday, 3 January 2007
Doing so much but I can't seem to find the inclination to write in my blog.
I was a little upset the last couple of weeks that I have let myself eat whatever I wanted and not feeling the consequences.
When I went to WW on 19th December and I was 121.8 kilos (at home they said 122.7) and I am certainly not that anymore but I am not stressing too much but angry with myself. The scales on Monday 1st January 2007 my scales at home said 125.3 ARGGHHHH (124.4 WW would have said) and so that is 2.6 kilos gained.... ho hum but......
This morning after being really good since Monday I am now 123.7 kilos on my scales (122.8 on WW scales) and so I have gained 1 kilo by WW scales and I can handle that but I am still working on either staying the same or losing.
This year is going to be a good one for me!! I am not going to plateau this year like last year. Mind you I achieved so so so much last year and there were ups and downs but I think that has made me a better person.
I regret that I had to give up a friendship last year but I also think that after what she did with Daniel and Joy in causing strife that I didn't deserve a friend that will use things against me. And she wasn't a true friend and will never be happy in life and she will deserve that. It took me a while to realise that I had to find a place to have my blog and not to be known as CM anymore and to be free of her totally.
Be ready for my blog to be just as full on as last year as I have so many challenges this year that I want to conquer.
I really want to do something with my life and if that is studying then I am going to do it this year but mind you it is not going to come in between my weight loss and exercise as I am content with all that now and I am not giving that up for anyone. Yes I have given up Lean because of Kris but to be honest she was doing me a favour as I was getting a little stale in it and not trying other things and she will never get out of it what I have and she will never get out of it the friendships that I have.
Which reminds me Delwyn is coming over tonight (from Lean) she phoned me this morning and we went for a walk around the Lake (4 kilometres) and had a coffee afterwards and tonight we are going to play Canasta woohoooo going to beat her backside he he he he.
So this year guys we are going to achieve all that we wish whether it be weight loss or other achievements.. I know with friendships like yours I will achieve anything!
I have been printing my Digital Scrapbooking out in the last couple of days and finding out ways to bind them etc as I want my boys to be able to read them and show them to other people.
I feel so content at home with my boys these holidays and I feel so happy here at Vox. I have realised that having a simple blog like this one is the best because all the extras aren't needed as long as I get what I need down. I have ticked off a lot of my 101 things list and feeling really proud of that. I still have heaps and heaps to do but I am achieving things and that is the main thing.
I am doing more Digital Scrapbook pages lately too and that is making me happy, and will upload more in the next day. I love being creative and I am also glad that Kate is doing it too... anyone else want to join us?
Anyway I have spaghetti meatballs (homemade and low in fat) tonight woohooo and a game of Canasta... how better can life get aye.
Love ya all
Fat Queen wrote:
Jan 3, 2007 at 6:37 PM
[this is good]Glad to hear you are OFF to a good start :)
Celtic Girl wrote:
Jan 4, 2007 at 2:53 PM
You'll soon get the extra weight off which you gained over Xmas. I You sound so content in this blog - everything is always easier when we are content and at ease.
Jan 5, 2007 at 12:25 AM
I also gained over christmas - nearly 6 kilo's....I am doing my best to get that off before my 1st weigh in...18th Jan!!
This year will be a great one!! We can do this!!!
About digital scrapbooking...how do you do it??
Monday, 1 January 2007
New Years Resolutions for 2007
For both Jeremy and Mandy
- Be more social even if it means visiting people and stop being recluses and make the effort.
- Maybe make an effort to every 2 months have a Friday dinner party at our place (when mum is at bingo). Even going out for dinner or movie like the one we had with Robin, Liz, Annabelle and Chris... like a group of six etc.
- We need to do at least one night class each. So J picks one and M picks one that we both go as a couple. (maybe learn to play the guitar)
- One workout or walk a week with just J and I so that we can workout together and bond more. Even if it is a bike ride or something
- Start saving money for our holiday. Jeremy seems to think 80 kilos and then is on!
- Sort out our budget and keep to it and take our spending money out and stop wasting money.
- Get tow bar sorted
- Do retaining wall garden.
For Jeremy to do
- Do more writing
- Work out next career move
For Mandy to do
- Reach 100 kilos by Christmas 2007. I am now 121.8 and so I have 21.9 kilos to lose this year!!
- That is the only thing I should concentrate in regards to weight (numbers). 500 grams a week will get me there!!
- Learn to play guitar.
- Learn more about SLR Digital Camera and go to a photography class
- Hubby and I write and illustrate a children’s book
- Write something about my past for future generationsfrom my about me book
- Place $1 a day in a jar
- Go on some bush walks
- Investigate learning to be a Life Coach
- Do a digital scrapbook page a week (or 52 pages by end of 2007)
Exercise goals for me:
- I want to Kayak by December 2007
- I want to do a Quad Bike adventure again
- Huntly half
- Relay for Life
- Run on treadmill for 10 minutes
- Sort out Bingo Wings
For us to do with the kids
- Take them to the Museum in 2007
- Put $10 a fortnight away for the boys
- Sort out Corbin’s glasses early in 2007
- Make sure each boy does a sport and something creative.
- Take the kids to speedway
- Go to Rangitoto for a visit with the kids
Corbin wants to do
- Corbin wants to spend more time with Mum and Dad
- Corbin wants to go to
- Corbin wants to learn to play the guitar
Quinn wants to do
- Quinn wants to play the piano
- Quinn wants the pool out
- Quinn wants to go to
- Quinn wants to go to
We went shopping this morning and I got some storage boxes (nice ones black and silver) and we brought some jars so that we can save money this year.
We have a resolution with the kids that we will teach them how to save money in 2007. So we had a talk to them and we all went out and brought a jar each and in each jar we are going to put 20 cents each for the boys and a 1 dollar each for us so the boys will save $73 each and we will save $365 each. I am not too sure if we will tell the boys half will go into their bank account and half to spend in the holidays but we will see. We are also doing the normal savings and pocket money stuff but I don't want them to be bad like us with saving so we want to start off now.
We also did a lot of other resolutions for ourselves for the year of things we want to achieve this year because after the fabulous year we had in 2006 we want to make sure we still keep striving for the best again in 2007.
We went to friends of ours G & P for New Years and had a BBQ and spa and swim and it was a fabulous relaxed night and we all really enjoyed it. We played Spin Uno and it is such a great game and we didn't stop playing till 3am in the morning and my oldest and their oldest were up talking in their beds till midnight that in the end we got them out just at midnight and did the count down with us.
It was fantastic night and it was good to get out with friends.
Jan 2, 2007 at 9:28 PM
The white-water rafting sounds like it was awesome fun! Good on you for doing it, even though you had your doubts. You are such an inspiration, seriously :)
Keep up the great work, and maybe it will be a bungy jump next time hehe
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