Day Tweenty - L Challenge

Went to work at 7.30 and was there for about 5 minutes and then just felt weird and wrong and phoned my boss in Auckland and home and said I was going home.

Felt dizzy and so went home and hubby took the boys to school and I went up to bed until about 12.30 when hubby phoned to say if I wanted to see Corbin run in the cross country then I should get myself up... not that he was pushing me just that he couldn't go and one of us wanted to be there. (It is only about 2 minutes walk to the park by our house so it wasn't far away)

I went and watched and it was great because Corbin did well he wasn't at the start but he wasn't at the end he was like 25 from the front (of about 100 kids) it was really good to see.

One of the mums gave us a lift back home because she said I looked rather pale.

Went to school early and picked up Quinn from school and then came back and went to bed again and the kids watched Star Wars as I just couldn't be up... the kids loved it because they were snuggled in our king size bed and had their afternoon tea etc.

I decided today I wasn't going to weigh in till Wednesday and that is because I want to get better first and I am not worried about what the result is because I have tracked and today isn't the day I will weigh... I have been spending too much time worrying about my weight and with my health not doing good in the last couple of days I said to hubby that I wasn't going to worry about the weight until Wednesday.

Anyway going back to bed as I am still not feeling good

Monday - Thinking a lot

I have been thinking a lot this weekend and reading more weight loss stuff so that I can get my motivation back up and running.

I so want Helena's book and I am going to save up to get it because I need the lots of motivation.

So anyway my 10 week challenge is now me and Celtic Girl woohoooo I am not alone doing this and I think that motivates me more because I have to be accountable now.

As you all know I gained like 2 kilos (unofficially over Easter OMG ) My homes scales last week said 124.4 OMG I was sooo upset with that.. and so I set myself this challenge to get my new wardrobe in 10 weeks and this morning I weighed myself and I DRUM ROLL PLEASE... 121.7 OMG that is soooooooo fantastic. I have watched what I ate and just ate when I wanted to and not that I have to have this and that and snacks etc... it has been better with food.

I suppose in a way having a sore back I wasn't concentrating on food all the time and wanting wanting wanting food so that made a huge difference.

My rings are starting to annoy me too... so maybe I was holding a lot of water or something because now I think I might have to go and get my rings taken in... for fear that they are going to fall off... grrrr more money.

My old boss Nikki came in to work this morning and I told her about Papaya and she is going to get me to do her Dad's 60th birthday invites and she also wants me to do her invites for her 10th Anniversary with her other half for next year so I have two more to do OMG I think I can do this!

I brought The New Zealand Bride magazine too and once I have done a couple of jobs on Papaya and got the website up and running then I am going to put an advertisement in the magazine to get more work because I think I am going to do this... I think it is going to work. It might get to the stage that I hire someone to help me do them he he he now I am getting ahead of myself aye.

Thanks Anne for your advice... I am meeting with a friend this week as she is an accountant and seeing what we she suggests.

Thanks Leenie I had looked at the website before I wrote my post yesterday but I wanted it to be a little more indept because I didn't know what to choose for a couple of things as I have never set up a business etc and if I make the wrong choice re invoicing etc then I have to apply to change and I want to get it right the first time.

Got a compliment from a girl at work today asking if I had lost weight as I am looking fantastic and she wanted to tell me last week (now this girl doesn't say boo to me at work she is really quiet). I felt fantastic. I think I need those compliments to keep me going sometimes (just like Anne had mentioned a couple of posts ago and when it stops then you wonder if what you are doing is noticeable.)

I have my appointment with my physio tonight so I hope it goes just as well as last week as my back has been better since then.. not 100% but much better.

Today's Food:

Breakfast: 3 Weetbix and 2 Vogel
(decided to put more food into my breakfast and see how it goes this week)
Lunch: Left over casserole
Dinner: 4 Burgen Bread, snitzel, tomato, lettuce
Water: 2 Bottles Water
Too much bread today.. at least it was Burgen etc but still no excuse.

Looking for a new laptop

Woke up at 9.30am but didn't get out of bed till 12.00 because I had a huge headache and I am constipated (ewww I know you didn't want to know that). The doctor said that if I took the pain killers it would make me constipated and grrrr now I know it!!!

Had prunes and lots of water but not shifting and it is sooo hard to sit with constipation OMG OMG if it isn't one thing it is another.

So anyway after I got myself up we went out looking for a new laptop as this one is sooo slow that it takes like 20 minutes before it starts so hubby and I thought if I am going to do Papaya then I am going to have to have something that can handle the work...

Hubby wanted to go and get it but I decided that I wanted to be GST registered before getting the laptop or if I do start making money I wouldn't be able to claim a thing and I want to be able claim ya know??? But I don't know too much about GST to know.

Had a coffee with Delwyn (from Lean group) tonight at her place it was nice catching up.. she just came back from Samoa and so we are going to the gym with her tomorrow morning... it has been so long since going to the gym with Delwyn and I am looking forward to it even if I am limited to what I can go on, but damn it I am going to get back in shape.


Food today:

Breakfast: Egg, Toast
Lunch: Nothing as I had my breakfast late
Dinner: Roast Beef (leftover), Cauliflour, Carrots, Courgettes, Potatoe, Beans
Snacks: 4 Ryvita with Tomato, coffee
Water: 3 Bottles

Postive Thing that happened today: Delwyn texted to catch up and ask how I was.. I am thankful for friends today.

Movies

Got up at 8.30am as I was still feeling ikky with the painkillers and I think it drys me out too as I had a splitting headache but I got up and went to the gym by 9am to meet with Joy.

I wasn't allowed to do a lot by what the physio said but hey I wanted to get some exercise. (P.S I know that I could go and do swimming or aqua or something and would love to but even putting undies on is hard and have to have hubby to help so going swimming would be harder getting the togs on and off without pulling a muscle... as it is the bending that is getting me).

Anyway so I went to my PT and Joy had me on the treadmill but I think I wasn't warmed up enough for it as it was hurting a little. So she got me on the water bike with my arms for 10 minutes and that was good as I didn't feel like it was hurting and when she was chatting to me at the same time I sort of forgot that I was sore it was wonderful. After that we went and did some weights with my legs and that was fantastic as I could use my legs without it hurting my back and my calf muscle was a little tight but we stretched them and things were on a roll.

I didn't feel like I was sweating like I usually do but at least I was doing something.

It was Joy's last day at the gym (but she wasn't telling them until 5pm that she wasn't coming back) so she was pretty nervous about it all but she was also excited as she has been getting her garage all set up with gym stuff. I am looking forward to it but then scared too because I know the gym so well and feel comfortable there.

Came home got a shower ready for hubby to come home at 12 so that we could all go out for lunch and then the movies for school holidays.

We went to have lunch in town.. I had chicken kebab, the boys had subway and hubby had chinese... I reckon I chose wisely and it was yummy too.

The movie we went to see was Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles and it was ok but Quinn was being a right little nightmare and couldn't keep still. I have totally different children... Corbin is easy going and can sit and watch a movie or read a book and generally keep still where as Quinn has like HUGE termites in his pants and cannot keep still longer than 5 minutes and he drives me insane with that... he has to constantly have someone playing with him or talking to him and it drives me insane because you could play with him all day and he still won't let you have 5 minutes peace.

The movie was good but I wouldn't take Quinn again as it went over his head.

While we were out mum cooked a nice roast beef meal for us and we had that while she was at bingo.... it was a nice night when the boys went to bed as hubby and I read books and basically just chilled. I have so many books and magazines that I need to catch up with that it was nice just to chill.

I think I am back on track again???? I really do want to lose this weight but with not exercising I just haven't been able to get my head around how I do it and still enjoy my food...

Food today:

Breakfast: 2 Sandwich Bread toasted, Jam
Lunch: Chicken Kebab and Falafel, V
Dinner: Roast Beef, Kumera, Carrot, Pumpkin, Peas

Lovely Lyn

I forgot to put the beautiful photo

of Lovely Lyn up yesterday!!!

What was wrong with me GEESH...

My coffee with Lyn was great and here we are...

both of us making sure that Tania took the photo

from the right spot upwards he he he what a laugh.

Went to the physio tonight and he is convinced it is my back for sure and not the calf and hamstring being the main culprit. Hubby got off work early and took me because driving home today I felt like I was going to fall asleep at the wheel... GEESH. Why are physio's sooooo painful OMG hubby said that he had his elbow into my back I was in so much pain and he just kept going it was horrible. But I feel a little better since though so that is great.

Saw Joy afterwards and she said that there has been so many people coming up to her asking why they haven't seen me around the gym in the last couple of weeks and also a couple of people asking why the lovely couple weren't at the kickboxing classes anymore he he he so we were missed.

Joy is finishing this Friday at the gym and the guy doesn't know it... she is on contract till then and has started setting up a gym in her garage and is going to do personal training from home and starting the Lean group over there as well. So our night time Lean is going to start soon afterwards OMG I cannot wait because I need it!! I need to get back in to a group and a new group will be good for me. Daniel isn't going to leave the gym and go with her to her business so I am soooo happy with that because I enjoy just Joy as the trainer.

I have tried today to be good with my food and have decided to put my food down at the bottom like Sue and Leenie are doing and maybe it will keep me on track. I haven't eaten too much today but that is because these tablets are making me feel quite sick to the stomach so food isn't on my mind at all.

I have been thinking about the books that Leenie has been reading (her bible as she calls it) and I put a reservation on one of them at the Library so I can't wait till I get that. I have been also been raiding the internet about the author as well to find out more information.

I have also added something new to my Papaya business as I was asked to do a wine label for a 21st for a lady at work's daughter and she loved the designs I did and showed others at work and now I have 4 orders OMG that was the easiest way to make a little bit of money ever he he he so I am going to put them as part of Papapya too... it was sooo much fun.

Food today:

Breakfast: Weetbix and milk
Lunch: Ham and Egg sandwich
Dinner: Fish (on George Forman) Salad
Snack: Plums
Water: 2 Bottles

Been in a funk

Been in a funk today!!!

Back at work but my back was killing me today.

Over the weekend things seemed to go ok with my back and I had twinges here and there but they were bearable but today I was in agony. I went to the doctor's after work and got some different pain killers and they make me feel just as weird as the ones I took in the weekend.

The pain killers the doctor gave me Thursday morning made me feel really relaxed and that was good but I felt so light headed it was a strange feeling and then on the Friday morning I threw up and felt really bad for the whole morning.

I am so hoping that these tablets do the trick.

I didn't go to WW tonight and there were a couple of reasons...

1. I was in agony and I could not have sat in my chair and listened and driving there wasn't good either.
   
2. I haven't been that wonderful since not being able to exercise and I had an email from one of my WW leaders and she was straight to the point that exercise doesn't mean I can't lose the weight (and I know she is right) but I have been a stupid cow (yes I know guys I said stupid again) I have not tracked and I have not really wanted to... I have given up in the last couple of weeks.
   
3. I have gained!!! I just know it and I feel it!!

I feel like a broken record and had a huge breakdown with hubby tonight about it all. I feel so out of control and I just wanted to finish with WW this week for good because I just haven't cared. I shouldn't use the back as an excuse but honestly today I was in so much pain at work with my back that there was a morning tea and I didn't stop at just one thing!!

I got my ACC letter today saying that I was covered for my back. I am so happy about that because I think I will be going to the physio quite a lot until it is sorted as I am going back to my exercise because I feel so down in the dumps and my emotions are all over the place when I am not being active and I am not liking it.

Anyway.... hubby and I have a plan from tonights dinner that I am going to cut everything down but a quarter. So for dinner I had chilli con carne and salad and it was filling. I am also going to cut down on the carbs as I eat too much of them.

I do want to keep with this lifestyle change. This afternoon while sitting in my office I was feeling sorry for myself and I was totally going to give up! I was!!! but after getting off my sad horse I know I can't do that.

Tomorrow I will:

1. Go for a walk even if it is just down the street and back and not to overdo it so my back hurts.


2. Drink my water.


3. Have a good breakfast so I don't feel that I have to nibble.

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Ok my bitch over now...

Attached are some photos of my camping trip and I know I haven't sad too much about the weekend but to be honest I don't want to... because I would say negative things and I want to remember that I had time with my family and that was the most precious thing that weekend (apart from meeting lovely lyn that is he he).
Above my boys were sitting on a lovely rock at Karangahape Gorge and I just loved how delicious they looked. My boys were so happy to be going on holiday... look at their faces and this was only the first day he he he.

Corbin took this photo little cheeky monkey. We thought we would catch a kiss while the boys took a photo of the water and he turned around and took a photo of us instead he he he.

Isn't Wahi just beautiful!!!! I just love this photo and I loved walking up this beach in the weekend and I also loved just sitting there and taking it all in.

This is hubby and Tania's hubby and the kids making sandcastles and having a great time.

Like father like son... Hubby called me and I turned around and there he was taking a photo of me relaxing at the beach... but I do like this photo I must say.

We went long line fishing and we caught a sting ray OMG I was like gobsmacked because I didn't think that stingray's would have been that close to shore but they are and you would be happy to know that we set it free to go back to the sea poor thing.

Good night everyone... I need to get some sleep.

Love ya

Chubbymum