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Warning... saying what I am thinking

OMG some people just don't get it!!!

I don't know if I mentioned that we are going to Athenree to test out my father in laws caravan before we buy it and we are also catching up with Lyn woohoooo... can't wait but I got a phone call tonight telling me TELLING ME that Tania and her family are going to be there OMFUCKEN GOD.... the last holiday we had at Bowentown with her I wanted to throttle her by the end of it... her constant shouting at the kids and her husband and me and telling everyone how and what we should do...

So she phoned up tonight and said that her husband will be there late can we help with putting up her tent FUCKEN hell... we are trying to put up the awning on our fucken caravan and set things up and see how it works for us and she is just barging in on our holiday... sorry I should be grateful that she wants to holiday with us but she didn't bother asking (not that I would have had the guts to tell her anyway) but the gall

I am still not feeling 100% but this just makes me angry...

At least we are out on Saturday night with Lyn and another friend has asked us out for the Sunday so we are going to do that so we won't see them that much but I was looking forward to a holiday without being told like a 2 year old what to do.

In April we went to Bowntown for Easter and she took her mother and father along as well and all they did all weekend was bitch at each other and her and her husband moaning about everything and even the dinner was what she wanted and the kids were only allowed sausages and no other meat so in the end I went and got some other stuff for my kids it was a bloody nightmare... She has also booked Easter where we are going too next year.

I like Tanya don't get me wrong but going on holiday with her I end up with a headache as she has the most appalling manner with her kids and they can't do anything. We took them down to the beach and she moaned when we got back that they got wet and had sand on them and that they will get a cold bla bla bla but the kids actually had a great time without her... but then I was babysitting her kids and mine GREAT.

So at least we have Lyn place on Saturday night to get away from them and we can have some fun... I can't wait to see Lyn and meet her family and have been looking forward to it that is for sure.

Don't know what to do!!!

I don't know what to do!

I have been reading books on weight loss for a month now because I feel lost!! I don't know what to do!

I have gotten complacent with WW not that I don't think it will work. IT DOES but after 2 years of doing it I am starting to be soooo boring with my food. I point but then I am getting confused with the sugar points (they don't have them anymore and it drives me insane so I still do them).

Ever since I started the exercise points stumped me.. I mean for doing one kickboxing class I get 13 points OMG I can only take like 14 a week so if I do kickboxing 3 times a week and other gym things I can't take it so what is the point in give us bigger people so many points?

I am not going to WW like I should every week and that is because I am tired of the rivalry with Debbie!! Tired of feeling like we are competing... but I like talking to her but everything is a competition with her and she keeps nudging it in my face that "I suppose you have lost more than me now etc" Which I am 7 kilos of even catching up to her but she doesn't know that.

I need some sort of food plan to get me excited again... I can't win with me at the moment... when I was planning I was overdoing the planning and being annal that I couldn't lose anything and then when I a relaxed and not anal then I start gaining. I can't find a happy medium.

I even paid like $65 (hubby doesn't know he he he) for a book from the UK about two ladies that lost a lot of weight and what they discovered and the book is fantastic and it makes sense when you read it but a little scared to try it because it goes against everything that I feel is right... It is a mixture of a lot of diets... mainly the Atkins where you don't eat Carbs for the first 2 phases and then slowly bring them back in... I just can't grasp the concept of having bacon and eggs for breakfast and no toast... and cream and rich stuff and cheese...

OMG.... if you gave me cheese I just couldnt stop myself as I am a cheese aholic... like some people love chocolate I LOVEEEEE CHEESSEEEE and find it really hard to stay at one slice of brie etc.

I feel like my whole life this week has turned me upside without having my PT's and Kickboxing I am like a bear with a sore foot.

I know I am having too big a portion and I have to stop it but then I am doing this emotional eating thing where I can't get my head around it.

We had a morning tea for Easter for work this morning and I ploughed in to the chips and dip OMG what was wrong with me I haven't wanted them in 2 years why now? I couldn't help it and the more I ate the more I wanted... I am a silly BITCH that can't control her fucken food and I am going insane.

Emailed hubby and he seems to think it is because I feel trapped with no exercise and the pain in my leg but OMG that is no bloody excuse is it!!! I mean I know I shouldn't be eating this crap!! I know it isn't good for me!! I have 1.2 kilos to get to my 35 and it isn't coming!!!

I have to start tracking and putting it up online!!! I have to keep it going and take responsibility. I track on my tracker and I put everything I have put in my mouth in it so I don't cheat on it but I am not feeling guilty like I should about it.

I am really worried about the camping trip this weekend with all the crap I know the others are going to have... I have to get up and go for a hobble(walk he he) instead of sitting there with the food in my face all the time... .

I want my posts to be positive again. I was going to start Lean this week and that is down the toilet because I wouldn't be able to keep up and in the last couple of months my fitness has gotten up to a better level that I thought I wouldn't be feeling a little out of my depth with Lean and now look at me OMG.

Moan over
Going to do some work now ho hum

Chubbymum