Saturday, 1 October 2005

Second post for the day

This is my second post for the day and I really did think that my day couldn't get bad... nope nope nope I was wrong. Hubby's brother decided he would phone and say he needed us to take him to his work (he went back to his old job as they offered it to him) to take his tools there, as he only has a motor bike. (He is a mechanic). That is fine and I didn't mind that, but then we had to wait for him to arrive, which was not until 11am (3 hours later) when we had made plans to do stuff today and then when he arrived hubby and him made plans to do a couple more things so the stuff we were going to do as a family was stuffed up. I can tell you ever since he has come home I just want to strangle both him and his mother.

She NEVER in the two years that her son was away asked us over for dinner and basically the only time she ever took our boys out is if we asked her to and as soon as her precious son came home from Europe she has been all smiley and talkative and doing lots with him... which in a way I can understand as he has been away for two years but when the kids phoned to say they want to do something with her she always has the excuse of she has lots of school marking to do or her study or other things. Especially this holiday she was saying that she was overloaded yet she went out with my brother in law lots and the kids suffered. Sometimes I just feel like packing up and leaving town and moving because then maybe my boys will get to see their grandmother more. I get so annoyed because my Dad would have spent time with them and did stuff with them if he was still alive yet she is and can't be bothered...

I got so angry you wouldn't believe with my hubby that he was breaking our plans to go and do this and yet he went anyway. I said to him that if he went I wouldn't be back when he got back and I wasn't. I went out from 11.30 to 5pm and did things for me. I even went to the library and went and parked by the lake and read my book and had a snooze. Thought that since I am the one looking after the boys all the time that I was going to leave him to take the oldest to a birthday party and look after everything else. I didn't want to be angry today I wanted to spend time with my family.

But with all that stress I kept thinking that I want to get McDonalds and I passed KFC and there was a really nice muffin place in town too but I was proud of myself I got sushi and a V and I went and ate it at the lake. I didn't sit where all the other food places were so that I could eat. I really could smell the big mac's while I was driving and yet I avoided it.

At the start of the year if I had an arguement with hubby I would have gone and got food and ate till my hearts content.

I felt so lonely today. I miss my friend Aroha today... because I know that if she was here in town that I could have gone over to her place and talked or we would have gone out for a while. I don't have that here... all my friends have moved out of town and I sat at a Lake instead of going out with a friend. I didn't realise how lonely I was until today. I have people I do things with but I miss the friendship I have with Aroha... I mean she listens... she doesn't just pretend to listen she listens and talks and we have fun and I know I can count on her. Why did she have to leave and go and live in Wellington?? Why is it so hard to make friends at 35... it is so hard! Anyway I am going to stop now before I can't stop crying.

My sad day today sorry guys but I needed to get this out in my diary. My life isn't always smooth and wonderful.

Chubbymum

11 comments:

Karen said...

*super big hugs* hun! I am so sorry to read of your sad day!
I know I too have days like you have had and men - they just do NOT think at times :(
Please remember I am always here for you though I know I am in Wgtn like Aroha is and a phone call is not the same as visiting or spending time with them.
I am glad you had some "me" time though and that you got hubby to look after the boys... and well done on resisting KFC and McDonalds! I know a couple of years back they would have been my first choice as well but not any longer!
Love ya

Jaxx said...

Hey you - know what you mean about the friends, that is why I am moving back to Tauranga, my friends are there....

You take care and I will email you ok..

Cheers Jaxx :):)

Felicity said...

Be PROUD of yourself you had a bad day and u conquered it with flying colours girl. No McD or other crap u did a great job. Men can be incensitive twits sometimes and need a knock back into reality...I am sure he will think today how can I make up for my blunder. (well if he is like my hubby maybe not sorry kiddo men don;t think) I also know what u mean about friends I moved here away from all mine and have often thought of moving back closer but I'm afraid they have moved on and r in differnet places in there lives now and i don't think I'd get it back if I did move. I haven't got anyone here to spare the good and bad with and my journal buddies r my life. So I know how lonely it can get girl but please know I am here. I am hoping to manage another trip up nth in April and we had talked about couple days in Hamilton and I am sur eplanning on catching up with u and Kris...if you all want. HUGS from a faraway friend.

Helena said...

*hugs* mate, life can be so cruddy sometimes eh? But today was just one day, tomorrow is just around the corner and if you really want it, you can make it into a better day :) Hang in there honey :)

Anne said...

Men can drive you mad! I'm sure he wasn't thinking and will be regretting it now. As the others said be proud you coped with it all. As for the boy's nana - it's really her loss!

Slim Suzy said...

So sorry that you feel sad. Hope you are soon feeling happier. You did so well not to turn to food for comfort though. Take care xxx

Me said...

Well done on resisting the junk food - you should feel so proud of yourself for that. So sorry to hear that you had such a crappy weekend. The others have said it all - sometimes men just don't think and sometimes they just don't get it.
Your MIL is really the one missing out on her grandchildren. I know how much my folks missed after we left South Africa and now they are so pleased to be able to go to school matches and carnivals - but she is the one who is the loser.
I hope that your week gets better - don't worry about blonde - rather spend that enery on yourself and your family.
Lotsa hugs to you - take care and continue to be strong !
Me

{ the.Moranbah.Scrapper } said...

sorry to hear about the family probs and I hope they sort out soon! It can be really stressful when you are fighting with those you love the most.

Eternal Sunshine said...

You passed on the KFC Mc Donalds and muffin place. Good on ya girl!

jak said...

It sucks when our hubby's do stuff like that, sometimes men just don't really see the big picture. It must be hard for him too, though, if his brother was gone for so long in Europe. My brother's just gone away and he lived here with us this year, and if he ends up staying away as long as he plans to, I am going to miss him so much and would be wanting to do as much stuff as possible with him when he gets home...

But hey - you had a really horrible day, and you came through it bloody brilliantly. You should be SO proud of yourself on resisting the bad food, resisiting the old habits. You go girl. :)

M said...

** Big Hugs ** for this post. So much I could say but just know that I am with you on this. I hope you feel happier soon :)