Wednesday, 12 October 2005

Crying

You know I was not going to write in here tonight as I wanted to just catch up on all the blogs I have been neglecting lately.

I read a comment today about me from Jak and she had me in tears. She had me in tears because she had mentioned me in it and I had tears coming down on my face and my hubby said what was wrong so I read it to him. I have never in my life been an inspiration to someone NEVER and it really touched me. Thank you Jak!! Thank you!

It so makes me want to keep going right till the end now. I read all my blogs because they are all inspirational to me and they keep me going. Never in my life have I kept up a journal as long as I have on here and the reason I have kept it up so long is because I have met such fantastic people on here and because you are all an inspiration to me because you are all in the same boat as I am and we are all struggling towards the same thing.

I honestly don't think that I would have gone as long as I have without you all. Thank you!

Today was a good day food wise check out my tracker on the right... I have decided while doing the contract with Kris I will keep a tracker to keep me honest. I want to get into the 120's and I am doing the yoyo thing... the funny thing is is that I went back through my losses and gains and when I was getting low on the 140's, and he 130's I have done the same thing! I have gone up and down and up and down and I don't want to do this but was wondering if it is my mind set at the time. I mean I know I want to lose the weight but is my subcontious telling me something different? Hmmmm apparently our subcontious does this according to the Dr Phil book... I have to dig a little more into it that is for sure.

I didn't go to the gym tonight!! Too many things happening at home tonight I was running late and I should have gone but in the end I felt I haven't been sleeping properly lately and thought I would get to bed early as I need some time to recover. So if I got my blog reading and replying done I will go up and get some sleep Yayyyyy.

Going to a get together at the gym tomorrow night with Kris and I am sort of looking foward to it, especially since I am going with my gym buddy, but sort of nervous too... so we shall see how it goes.

I must be like a magnet this year that is for sure as an old boss cellphoned me today and said that she is trying to get a part time position in her work at the moment and would I be interested in it? I said to her I have only just started this job and she said that she would match my wage etc... I know that I should have said more but she is the sort of person that gives a lot of perks like time off for things and when the kids are sick there is no gripping etc. But.... I think I am finally getting to a good place in my job at the creche... I am getting used to the bosses and everything is really relaxed and they are really social people too and I miss that!! But I suppose when she gets back to me about it I can consider it then. It felt good for her to ask me to come and work with her again... she was saying so many nice things like I want someone I trust to work with me and someone I know will get the job done without hassle it was soooo great.. I think it must be my day for wonderful compliments that is for sure.

I told her about my loss and she said well done you deserve it and you must be looking fantastic. She is a big lady too and said that she has to do something about her weight and I might find her at my meeting one day... I said that would be nice.

Also...... one of the mums at creche was at a drinkies evening at a friends the other night and she and I were talking and I saw her delivering papers today with her daughter and she said she is going to Weight Watchers this tuesday at my Weight Watchers and I said that is fantastic and she said that she would never have gone apart from hearing me talk about it at the drinkies and I inspired her to get her arse in to gear... OMG OMG what a night... now I sound like I am bragging but I am not (well sort of not)...

I am writing this because I want to make sure that everyone that is doing a journal/blog/diary stick to it!! NEVER NEVER give up because one or two losses are nothing NOTHING and the quote that my weight watchers leader said the other day was"Nothing tastes as good as slim feels" and this is soooo true one chocolate, one greasy burger is not as good as slim feels... and I will know that feeling one day!!! Slim hmmmmm ... I feel on a high now that I have blogged tonight!!!

THANKS for reading.
Keep up the journals my friends it is worth it!!
Love Chubbymum

17 comments:

Kris said...

I love been told that I inspire people. I didn't think I was anyone special until a couple of people told me the same thing. You are right it is a great feeling and everyone has there ups and downs but we have to get back into it and keep going. Each day is a new day and theres no point dwelling on the past because we can't change it but we can use it for future reference. I look forward to seeing you at the finish line however long it takes us to get there we will get there one way or another. Keep up the good work.

Anonymous said...

glad you having such a cool time. you are so worth it. all the best.

M said...

It is great that there is a community of people who get what we are all going through. The support, empathy, and kindness is just part of what keeps me going every single day.

And what about that success magnet you have turned in to. Currently tuned into work related things, but slowly changing to be tuned into the weight loss. - 110's here you come..

Hope you have a great day tomorrow and have fun at the social do. :)

Karen said...

You are an inspiration hun - well certainly in my eyes anyway! :)
Wow you are a magnet right now - oh to be so wanted :)
*big hugs*

Me said...

WOOHOOOOOOO - well done for all the compliments - they are something which you can never get enough of and which keep you going when you want to give up - good for you !!!!!
I think it is great that your old boss phoned you to see if you are interested - another fantastic boost for you !!!
Don't worry about feeling like you are bragging - you need to acknowledge that you are special and you do inspire people. Why is it so hard for us to accept compliments ? We must deserve them if someone is giving them to us and I have only recently been able to say thank you and look them in the eyes rather than putting me head down and wanting to crawl away - I have worked hard to get where I am and if they acknowledge that I should be happy - just like you should be happy and accept all the good things people are saying about you becuase you are a special person and you deserve to have nice things said about you !
Hang in there - you will get to the end of this journey when the time is right for you !
Have a great week and stay on the high as long as you can - it is such a great feeling and such a great motivator !!!!
Me

Anne said...

At times I'm totally blown away at the support that is out there by keeping journals. As you said it really is worth it, mainly as we all are going through similar issues. Your journal would be a huge inspiration to many people out there.
The WW quote is so true!

Slim Suzy said...

So true, blogging is such a great support. Especially the network of blogging friends that we have.
And so true greasy food doesn't even taste that good while we are eating it and we certainly suffer afterwards. Love your tickers!

fattyboombastic said...

Hi there CM!

Thanks for letting me know about the spam *lol* Gosh I am such a virgin at these blogs! You are a true inspiration in my eyes - definitely! It was your blog that allowed for me to share my blog for everyone to see my loss and struggles. Yes you are right - having a journal/blog does help keep you on track with the weight loss. You've lost so much, you look great. Have an awesome work out tonight at the gym. YOU GO GIRL!! Keep it up with the good work. Love FBB!

Jodie said...

Definately, if I don't update I get a few messages saying "We miss you" or "hope you are Ok" and that is the amazing part of this little community. In a way I sort of feel like I would be letting a few people down if I discontinued this journal. I love helping people and if people can learn from what I've been through then it's all worth it. You are worth it!! We are all worth it!! I agree I couldn't have got through the hurdles I've been faced with over the past few months without the support I receive on here and to me that is one of the most important things to me at the moment. Well done. XX

{ the.Moranbah.Scrapper } said...

i definitely get inspiration from your blog and all the others I read. Its so good to know that I can jump on my computer and browse a few sites to get my motivation going again. It reinforces that there are so many people out there going through the same struggles as me!

u are fantastic!

Felicity said...

great post and hey girl u deserve to brag go girl

Anonymous said...

have I told you how cool you are? hehe YOU ARE SO COOL! 20kgs babe is a truckload of weight ... a truckload of weight that used to sit on your butt, thighs and anywhere else it could find ... but its not there ANYMOREEEEEE ... weightloss isnt a walk in the park - whether we have 5kgs to lose or 90kgs! Inspiration comes from knowing that it is possible and we arent alone in our journey :) you rock mate! :D

Helena - PS ... I dont seem to be able to type my name in and always have to select anonymous now? wots goin on?

michelle said...

Loved catching up on your blog, I hav eto say the photos are amazing. You hav ea right tofeel proud of yourself. You look like a completely different person. Years younger. This is a wondeful community and like you I find the support makes all the difference.

jak said...

Great post CM. I posted what I posted because it's true, you are an inspiration to me and to lots of us here in blogland. Keep it up! Hehehe :)

Emily said...

Its great to see you so excited! Just wanted to let you know that you ARE an inspiration to us, and everything Jak said is stuff that I have thought about you myself.

Keep going chicky-babe, there is plenty more good feelings and compliments out there looking for you :-)

Lee-Anne said...

See you are an inspiration. Everybody says so. CM I just saw your photos and I just though -
WOW. You look about 10 years younger honestly. You look fantastic. Well done. Take care and have a great weekend.

Janene said...

Hi CM, just catching up on your entries for the last week or so. Wow! Love the updated photos, you look truely amazing! So different from when I met you!! Keep up the great work, you are doing so well and at this rate will probably be into the double digits before me hehe :)