Saturday, 13 August 2005

Tears of Happiness because of great friends

Thank you
Thank you
Thank you

Thank you for all your wonderful comments it is absolutly wonderful to know that I am not just talking drivel like I thought I was he he he..

Anyway I am in the process of going over to blogger... so that the comments can be kept with my diary.

So bear with me. In the next couple of days I might change over. I just want to get it right first.
You wouldn't believe how that made me feel tonight reading the tags.

I am starting to get in to my new job that is for sure. The only thing that bugs me a little is that BLONDE has her son at the creche (and what a difference he is when she isn't around, I don't mind him at the creche). So I don't get away from her totally as on the Wednesday and Thursdays I see her in the mornings. I still get this pit in my stomach when I see her like there is a competing thing there and maybe it is just me but it really bugs the hell out of me that I am feeling like that.

My mum is going away for the weekend so it will be quite quiet around here this weekend. I think she needs to get out with some of her friends. The only problem is that most of the people she has known most of her life life 2 hours away and that is why she doesn't get to see them much. I have said a thousand times that I will pay for a bus ticket or take her up there but she is just a home body. But there is a big anniversary up there and they have invited her to come up for the weekend. So I hope she enjoys herself this weekend.

Back to work.... well I am finally getting used to the job and they are a great bunch of people that is for sure and they seem to have a great time. I still feel like the odd one out and I think it is only because I am new. I do find that I am getting used to one of the directors and she isn't as scary as I first thought. I suppose I have this thing that when someone is the boss that I can't see anything but business links with them and I can't seem to relax. I am trying this time to relax a little more and I think it is working. We seem to have a laugh while she is teaching me the job and she has said some nice compliments about how on to it I am and fast... so I might end up liking this job.

I haven't been that in to the gym or in to the weight loss this week. I think that I have just come to the stage that I have achieved my first BIG goal and I need a week just to relax... not to give up just cool off a little for just a week and enjoy as well. I also feel like I want to compete again and it is screwing up my goal for me. I don't like the competing and so I have to re focus again to make it that the gym is for me and not to compete but for me to do it for me. So I don't think I will be too worried about the weigh in on Tuesday as I haven't really tried this week.

Anyway it is 11pm and I am a tired bunnie he he he... will check you all tomorrow night.

Once again thanks for being there and listening... it has made this journey much easier.


1 comment:

Vsred said...

Hi!!! I don't know you but I'm in Awe of what u've been able to do so far, Kudos! i've been treading this same path(well on the treadmill at least ;o))and trying to lose the weight desperately. i'm 73kg rite now, trying to get down to abt 55 kg. i wanna be my old self again, boy is it hard, and seeing what u have done, amazing. Great to have something to read to relate too. U dun realise the impact that ur making on other ppl!keep up the effort, i'll be rooting for u!