Jan 30, 2007 at 2:59 PM
Believe it or not this is the fourth time I have tried to put this up.
For some reason I accept it and it deletes have of it grrrr so I left it a day so that this silly problem will go away.
Today was an ok day... really full on work wise but that is ok. (Don't usually work on Thursdays but worked half day today)
I got tagged by Chris (Diet Coke Rocks):Four things about Me:
A) Four jobs I have had in my life:
- Bank Officer
- Research Financial Administrator
- Computer Consultant
- Computer Teacher
B) Four movies I would watch over and over:
- Under the Tuscan Sun- Chocolat'
- Anything James Bond
- Over the Hedge
C) Four places I have lived:
- Bermuda
- Auckland
- Hamilton
- Hamilton (another subdivision)
D) Four favourite T.V. shows:
- Shortland Street
- CSI
- Bones
- Biggest Loser (addicted)
Well my friend Tania opened her shop today and it looks really good... quite jealous but really happy for her as it looks really good and she seemed so happy. We are going to her grand opening on Saturday which she is expecting people will buy from and to be honest I can't afford it and when she showed me all the stuff she was having in her shop last week I was saying Oh I like this and that and so today when I went to visit the shop she said "I made sure I didn't put that necklace in the window as I know you really liked it and might buy it" OMG I didn't say I would buy it but she assumes I am going to and to be quite honest we are sooooo skint with money at the moment I don't have the heart to say I can't.. I also don't want to look like a stinge either ya know.
I offered to look after her 3 kids this afternoon as the poor buggers were stuck in the shop most of the day as she didn't have anyone to look after them. I had my two and her 3 and then the little boy up the road was lonely so I had 6 kids to watch over this afternoon so not suprising I have a huge headache...
I also had an arguement with my wonderful husband because I was being a stupid cow not being satisfied with all the wonderful things and the wonderful husband I have and picked a fight with him tonight. Some of the things I said were justified but some of them weren't and I apologised for the not so good things. I think I get frustrated with the fact that I want to do so much with my life and things keep stopping me.
I think with my friend starting this business it has made me realise how much I want to do something with my life. It has made me realise more and more that I want to be a Life Coach and do something that I feel I would be good at and the only thing stopping me is money. A guy friend of mine said..."if you want it bad enough and if it is right you will make it happen"... he is right! So even though the government said that they wouldn't give a loan for this subject I went online and applied for a student loan to see if the ruling had gone through yet... hey no harm in trying aye... and it isn't like I am not going to pay it back. OMG I have paid my taxes and I have never never been on the dole and I have worked my backside off all my life I feel that I am entitled to have some breaks in this world...so we shall see what happens and if I get the loan aye.
I am also enrolling in a night course where a life coach helps you work out your personal goals, work goals, financial goals etc and what you want to achieve in life with hubby.. It is a 4 week course and I think we would benefit and I suppose doing some research on what a life coach does and is like would be good experience for me as well aye.
I have my PT session with Joy tomorrow and I am looking forward to it. I am not looking forward to seeing bloody Kris there though... she doesn't work... you would think she would fuck off and have her sessions at different times to me as I don't want to see her bloody face but no she makes them at the same time so I have to see her. Mind you I work harder cause she is there and I am not going to let her think just because she is skinnier she is fitter than me....
Went to the gym on Wednesday night and did the kickboxing class and walk to the class and did the class and walked home and at the class Joy was impressed with me doing the full on star jumps and running on the stop where as I used to do the lower impact one since starting... I must admit the reason I didn't do the high impact stuff is because I had my chest bumping up and down and my tummy too and it still creeps me out. Hubby said we can go out this weekend and find a bra that I can wear that will be more supportive but sports bra's don't come in my size... not that I have ever seen so where do I go to find one that doesn't have a bloody bone in it grrr.
Ok I am rambling on tonight.
Might leave it at that.
I suppose since I am rambling on it must mean that I am getting to be more comfortable in my new blog talking about things.
Can't say I have been very good this week with food... I have to get back in the swing. But that is ok.. I am going to lose this weight even if it takes me five years. What have I got to rush about? Nothing!!! As long as I don't gain it back and keep going down then life is good.
Love Chubbymum
Comments
Chris H wrote:
Feb 1, 2007 at 9:47 PM
Be honest with your friend and tell her that although you do love the necklace you simply can't afford it.... don't beat yourself up about it, if she's really your friend she won't be upset or try to push you into buying it. Looking after 6 kids, yep did that all day every day with my own... and yep, I had a constant headache ! lol As for seeing Kris the Bitch when you are at the gym, why not change your times so you don't end up there when she is? I know it's kinda like running away from her, but do you really need the aggrivation of seeing her ugly mutt ? I'd find it off putting!
Rachel's World wrote:
Feb 2, 2007 at 10:23 AM
Yep I agree with everything Chis_H said.
Hope your all better now sweets, I have been checking in everyday to see if you have left a post, scored today....LOL
I am also addicted to The Biggest Loser and apparently there is a new one starting in Australia (last night) so I don't know how long we have to wait to get it here but I hope not too long. God I wish they had one in NZ, I would SOOOOO apply for it.
Tuesday, 30 January 2007
Monday, 29 January 2007
Feeling better today
Jan 29, 2007 at 10:10 PM
Well my eye still looks like someone knocked the living daylights out of me he he he but it feels like it might be getting better.... even though it is swollen and wrinkled.
Spent the day at home and just veging... the little boy from up the street came over and spent most of the day with our boys but by the 3pm I had had enough of him ya know... I don't think his parents really care where he is half the time.
Thanks Chris for your email today! It certainly cheered me up (snigger)
Back to work tomorrow after Auckland Anniversary day ho hum... don't wanna go back and sit in my office he he he.... but then again who does aye
I have done a lot of cross stitch this weekend even with my sore eye... I just wanted to get it done ya know.. not that it will get done fast but had the urge to cross stitch.
Does anyone else watch Heroes? I am enjoying it... it is sort of like a mystery but not he he he and piecing things together is quite interesting.
I am going to my friends grand opening evening on Saturday she is opening up her shop on Wednesday and having a grand opening on Saturday... it is going to be interesting as there will be around 120 people coming. It is called Bouquet Cottage and is a Florist and gift shop.... so jealous but so happy for her.
Jealous that she has started her own business as I would like to own a busines one day.. not too sure what maybe a life coach business to help people that are overweight or a craft shop hmmm not sure but one day it will be mine he he he. She is good at what she does and this business will be a great success I can just imagine. I have been helping her buy some of the gift stuff for her shop and would buy a lot of the stuff (if I actually had money that is he he he).
Anyway I better go and rest this eye and get my backside to bed he he
Love Chubbymum
Comments
Chris H wrote:
Jan 30, 2007 at 9:29 AM
Glad you were able to go to bed feeling a bit better mate. Have fun at work, I'm gunna lie in the sun today.... such a hard life! hee he
Chris H wrote:
Jan 30, 2007 at 12:58 PM
I trying to be a pain, I tagged you! check out me blog for details...
Lee wrote:
Jan 31, 2007 at 8:10 PM
What a bugger about the course...I would love to go back to study too...but it can be so expensive!
Hope you are feeling much better *HUGS*
Well my eye still looks like someone knocked the living daylights out of me he he he but it feels like it might be getting better.... even though it is swollen and wrinkled.
Spent the day at home and just veging... the little boy from up the street came over and spent most of the day with our boys but by the 3pm I had had enough of him ya know... I don't think his parents really care where he is half the time.
Thanks Chris for your email today! It certainly cheered me up (snigger)
Back to work tomorrow after Auckland Anniversary day ho hum... don't wanna go back and sit in my office he he he.... but then again who does aye
I have done a lot of cross stitch this weekend even with my sore eye... I just wanted to get it done ya know.. not that it will get done fast but had the urge to cross stitch.
Does anyone else watch Heroes? I am enjoying it... it is sort of like a mystery but not he he he and piecing things together is quite interesting.
I am going to my friends grand opening evening on Saturday she is opening up her shop on Wednesday and having a grand opening on Saturday... it is going to be interesting as there will be around 120 people coming. It is called Bouquet Cottage and is a Florist and gift shop.... so jealous but so happy for her.
Jealous that she has started her own business as I would like to own a busines one day.. not too sure what maybe a life coach business to help people that are overweight or a craft shop hmmm not sure but one day it will be mine he he he. She is good at what she does and this business will be a great success I can just imagine. I have been helping her buy some of the gift stuff for her shop and would buy a lot of the stuff (if I actually had money that is he he he).
Anyway I better go and rest this eye and get my backside to bed he he
Love Chubbymum
Comments
Chris H wrote:
Jan 30, 2007 at 9:29 AM
Glad you were able to go to bed feeling a bit better mate. Have fun at work, I'm gunna lie in the sun today.... such a hard life! hee he
Chris H wrote:
Jan 30, 2007 at 12:58 PM
I trying to be a pain, I tagged you! check out me blog for details...
Lee wrote:
Jan 31, 2007 at 8:10 PM
What a bugger about the course...I would love to go back to study too...but it can be so expensive!
Hope you are feeling much better *HUGS*
Sunday, 28 January 2007
Still unhappy
Jan 28, 2007 at 7:43 PM
Still not feeling too well.
Mowed the lawns today OMG I was sweating like a pig and it was only 9am he he he and the rest of the day I didn't want to do anything.. not too sure if it is because of the heat OMG is it hot or what.. or it is because of my eye? but had a unhappy moody day.
Not sure if I am unhappy because next week I should be getting to my monthly or because hmmmm not sure...
Well I am a little sure but not sure if it is the sole reason.
I can't do my Life Coach course because the bloody government decided in all their glory that only Uni's and tech can give interest free loans by the government. If I had applied for the loan in 2006 I would have gotten it!! DOES THAT SUCK OR WHAT!!!
I can't afford to finance it! It is too much for us and especially since I am only working part time, and we are dollar for dollar at the moment and live from pay to pay ya know?
It is getting tearing my heart apart because I can't find anything that matches what I want to do in any other institution.... The only one that offers the Life coach course (part time from home) is this company and it is in Hamilton. I know that people will say what will be will be and that it was meant to not happen right now but it was going to be my year to sort out what I want to do for a job for the rest of my life.
I want to help people in my situation through life coaching... I want to be there to listen to people and help people lose weight just like I have been doing... I want to be an inspiration and I want to let people know that I am there to listen and help them achieve all that they wish (of course as a paying job does that sound bad?).
Losing weight as all of you know is the hardest thing anyone can do and if you are in just to lose the weight fast WELL that just doesn't happen and getting your head around things and having someone that understands is also the hardest to find. Families are great but they don't always know what happens and how we feel being overweight and they don't always know how to help, or they just have too many things on their plate to help and be there...
Yeah I know sounds silly but it is something I want to do.
So maybe that is what is getting me down in the last couple of days as well.
I am glad to be able to do my blog and say these things... for a while there I didn't have anywhere to vent... hubby thinks that is why I am not well lately as well because it is all catching up on me because I haven't been able to vent it on my blog.
I am reading all your blogs I thought I would mention and haven't commented but I hate commenting unless I can be positive ya know... so please know that I love you all and that you are all really dear to me and it isn't because I don't love ya that I haven't been leaving comments....
I know I will be back to my old self.
Love ya all... the old Chubbymum will be back tomorrow. I just know it!
Comments
Kateypie wrote:
Jan 28, 2007 at 8:44 PM
Hope you are feeling better soon!x
Chris H wrote:
Jan 28, 2007 at 10:29 PM
Hell I hope you will be back to your old happy self soon! It sucks when one is feeling down and nothing seems to be going right, been there, done that. Sometimes it does take time, there are usually no quick fixes, but keep working on being happy and one day it will all fall into place. Life coaching sounds great, I would love to do something like that too, but I don't know if I could curb my fat mouth... if someone is piss arsing around and not really trying, I'd probably tell them to piss off and stop wasting their time and mine! lmao
Still not feeling too well.
Mowed the lawns today OMG I was sweating like a pig and it was only 9am he he he and the rest of the day I didn't want to do anything.. not too sure if it is because of the heat OMG is it hot or what.. or it is because of my eye? but had a unhappy moody day.
Not sure if I am unhappy because next week I should be getting to my monthly or because hmmmm not sure...
Well I am a little sure but not sure if it is the sole reason.
I can't do my Life Coach course because the bloody government decided in all their glory that only Uni's and tech can give interest free loans by the government. If I had applied for the loan in 2006 I would have gotten it!! DOES THAT SUCK OR WHAT!!!
I can't afford to finance it! It is too much for us and especially since I am only working part time, and we are dollar for dollar at the moment and live from pay to pay ya know?
It is getting tearing my heart apart because I can't find anything that matches what I want to do in any other institution.... The only one that offers the Life coach course (part time from home) is this company and it is in Hamilton. I know that people will say what will be will be and that it was meant to not happen right now but it was going to be my year to sort out what I want to do for a job for the rest of my life.
I want to help people in my situation through life coaching... I want to be there to listen to people and help people lose weight just like I have been doing... I want to be an inspiration and I want to let people know that I am there to listen and help them achieve all that they wish (of course as a paying job does that sound bad?).
Losing weight as all of you know is the hardest thing anyone can do and if you are in just to lose the weight fast WELL that just doesn't happen and getting your head around things and having someone that understands is also the hardest to find. Families are great but they don't always know what happens and how we feel being overweight and they don't always know how to help, or they just have too many things on their plate to help and be there...
Yeah I know sounds silly but it is something I want to do.
So maybe that is what is getting me down in the last couple of days as well.
I am glad to be able to do my blog and say these things... for a while there I didn't have anywhere to vent... hubby thinks that is why I am not well lately as well because it is all catching up on me because I haven't been able to vent it on my blog.
I am reading all your blogs I thought I would mention and haven't commented but I hate commenting unless I can be positive ya know... so please know that I love you all and that you are all really dear to me and it isn't because I don't love ya that I haven't been leaving comments....
I know I will be back to my old self.
Love ya all... the old Chubbymum will be back tomorrow. I just know it!
Comments
Kateypie wrote:
Jan 28, 2007 at 8:44 PM
Hope you are feeling better soon!x
Chris H wrote:
Jan 28, 2007 at 10:29 PM
Hell I hope you will be back to your old happy self soon! It sucks when one is feeling down and nothing seems to be going right, been there, done that. Sometimes it does take time, there are usually no quick fixes, but keep working on being happy and one day it will all fall into place. Life coaching sounds great, I would love to do something like that too, but I don't know if I could curb my fat mouth... if someone is piss arsing around and not really trying, I'd probably tell them to piss off and stop wasting their time and mine! lmao
Saturday, 27 January 2007
Busy Day... run down
Jan 27, 2007 at 8:59 PM
Went to bed last night thinking wow this is early and I will be able to get some sleep and stop feeling like crap... nope nope nope. I had a stingy eye and woke up with a sty and not wanting to leave my eye open as it was sooo sore.
We were taking mum up to Auckland today to a friends place as she is staying the whole weekend up there and we are getting some free time he he he.
It was a nice drive and after we left mum at her friends place we went to the Auckland Museum and the boys had so much fun at the museum and they didn't complain about it like I thought they might... thought they might get bored or something but they didn't and asked lots of questions and explored lots in the kids sections too.... a good time was had by all but I was a little miserable with a sore eye and I have not been feeling well all week.... I sooo soooo soooo wanted today to be perfect and have a fantastic time with the kids. I didn't show it to them that I wasn't feeling well but I felt miserable..
My friend Tania thinks that I have been like this since getting the text from Kris... she thinks I am run down because I have that bloody woman back from Australia (where I wished she would have stayed) and cannot concentrate on me anymore..
Kris managed to get a PT session with Daniel for Friday at the same time as my PT session with Joy OMG she doesn't work all fucken week and she just manages to make an appointment at the same time as me BULL SHIT... it made me so mad that I worked so damn hard with Joy.
I worked my butt off and was sweating down my face like you wouldn't believe soooo cool!!! he he he
But.. I don't want the skank to be there at the same time anymore! SLAP on hand ewww still talking about the woman... stop it! stop it!
I suppose holding that in wouldn't help me showing the signs of being run down... so I have decided to write it in here to get it off my chest.
Something nice about the skank... she does look like she has lost a lot and looking good and her face is certainly smaller but she deserves that comment... not ever going to say it to her face though.
I said that to hubby that she was looking good in her face and he said so do you!! Nah I thought I haven't lost that much but he took a picture of me today and I am more defined in my face now and felt great looking at this photo... I will show you a comparision. First one is an old one of me in 2004 and the second was today (2007) with my boys. I am quite proud of these photos now.
The next lot of photos are of the ones we took at the Museum today.
The last photo was a photo taken by hubby as he was trying to be artistic he he he.
I have been thinking about my weight loss and I am going to try and cut out my V altogether. I have a V twice a week but should really have none ho hum... soooo soooo addicted to it but I want this weight off.
I am going to go for a long walk tomorrow morning... lots to do this weekend. Thought after the walk I would mow the lawns again to get the extra exercise and then go and do the shopping.
Was going to have some friends over this weekend for a bbq but decided with hubby that maybe we could just be with us because we always have people over and always have mum with us so having time to us doing whatever we like and not worrying if anyone is unhappy about what we are doing would be the best. I always have this feeling that mum is mad with us if we sit around and veg on Sundays so I am going to Veg as much as possible on Monday (our Auckland anniversary day and feels like a Sunday it will be for me he he he).
Thanks for reading everyone!! Thanks for your comments they keep me going and make me feel more and more like updating. I promise I will try and make my posts happier and I know this last week I have been down in the dumps and moany and I don't want to be like that anymore.
Love Chubbymum
Comments
Chris H wrote:
Jan 27, 2007 at 9:49 PM
If you need to vent about bloody Kris, then do it, it will help you get over the bitch. Sad you still have to have her in your face on ocassions tho. I think you can handle it though, you are a stong woman, you have shown that by how you have handled the situation, not verbally attacking her to her face etc. Don't know if I could have controlled myself! AS for the V, why not just have one on a designated day once a week like I do with my diet coke? Life is not all about total denial, even if we are on a diet! Pregnancy makes us fat, so does that mean we can never ever have a nookie again??? I DON'T THINK SO, HA HA HA.
Chris H wrote:
Jan 27, 2007 at 9:50 PM
Damn, forgot to say, your comparison photos are awesome chick!!! Sure can see a difference.
Celtic Girl wrote:
Jan 28, 2007 at 12:33 AM
Yep, you can definately see the difference in your comparision photos.YOU ROCK GIRL. Sorry your not feeling well still. It sucks when us girls get sick as we are still expected to be there for everyone else.
Lee wrote:
Jan 28, 2007 at 4:41 PM
You are looking so great!!! Keep it up!!!
Vent away ....that is what we are here for!!!
Went to bed last night thinking wow this is early and I will be able to get some sleep and stop feeling like crap... nope nope nope. I had a stingy eye and woke up with a sty and not wanting to leave my eye open as it was sooo sore.
We were taking mum up to Auckland today to a friends place as she is staying the whole weekend up there and we are getting some free time he he he.
It was a nice drive and after we left mum at her friends place we went to the Auckland Museum and the boys had so much fun at the museum and they didn't complain about it like I thought they might... thought they might get bored or something but they didn't and asked lots of questions and explored lots in the kids sections too.... a good time was had by all but I was a little miserable with a sore eye and I have not been feeling well all week.... I sooo soooo soooo wanted today to be perfect and have a fantastic time with the kids. I didn't show it to them that I wasn't feeling well but I felt miserable..
My friend Tania thinks that I have been like this since getting the text from Kris... she thinks I am run down because I have that bloody woman back from Australia (where I wished she would have stayed) and cannot concentrate on me anymore..
Kris managed to get a PT session with Daniel for Friday at the same time as my PT session with Joy OMG she doesn't work all fucken week and she just manages to make an appointment at the same time as me BULL SHIT... it made me so mad that I worked so damn hard with Joy.
I worked my butt off and was sweating down my face like you wouldn't believe soooo cool!!! he he he
But.. I don't want the skank to be there at the same time anymore! SLAP on hand ewww still talking about the woman... stop it! stop it!
I suppose holding that in wouldn't help me showing the signs of being run down... so I have decided to write it in here to get it off my chest.
Something nice about the skank... she does look like she has lost a lot and looking good and her face is certainly smaller but she deserves that comment... not ever going to say it to her face though.
I said that to hubby that she was looking good in her face and he said so do you!! Nah I thought I haven't lost that much but he took a picture of me today and I am more defined in my face now and felt great looking at this photo... I will show you a comparision. First one is an old one of me in 2004 and the second was today (2007) with my boys. I am quite proud of these photos now.
The next lot of photos are of the ones we took at the Museum today.
The last photo was a photo taken by hubby as he was trying to be artistic he he he.
I have been thinking about my weight loss and I am going to try and cut out my V altogether. I have a V twice a week but should really have none ho hum... soooo soooo addicted to it but I want this weight off.
I am going to go for a long walk tomorrow morning... lots to do this weekend. Thought after the walk I would mow the lawns again to get the extra exercise and then go and do the shopping.
Was going to have some friends over this weekend for a bbq but decided with hubby that maybe we could just be with us because we always have people over and always have mum with us so having time to us doing whatever we like and not worrying if anyone is unhappy about what we are doing would be the best. I always have this feeling that mum is mad with us if we sit around and veg on Sundays so I am going to Veg as much as possible on Monday (our Auckland anniversary day and feels like a Sunday it will be for me he he he).
Thanks for reading everyone!! Thanks for your comments they keep me going and make me feel more and more like updating. I promise I will try and make my posts happier and I know this last week I have been down in the dumps and moany and I don't want to be like that anymore.
Love Chubbymum
Comments
Chris H wrote:
Jan 27, 2007 at 9:49 PM
If you need to vent about bloody Kris, then do it, it will help you get over the bitch. Sad you still have to have her in your face on ocassions tho. I think you can handle it though, you are a stong woman, you have shown that by how you have handled the situation, not verbally attacking her to her face etc. Don't know if I could have controlled myself! AS for the V, why not just have one on a designated day once a week like I do with my diet coke? Life is not all about total denial, even if we are on a diet! Pregnancy makes us fat, so does that mean we can never ever have a nookie again??? I DON'T THINK SO, HA HA HA.
Chris H wrote:
Jan 27, 2007 at 9:50 PM
Damn, forgot to say, your comparison photos are awesome chick!!! Sure can see a difference.
Celtic Girl wrote:
Jan 28, 2007 at 12:33 AM
Yep, you can definately see the difference in your comparision photos.YOU ROCK GIRL. Sorry your not feeling well still. It sucks when us girls get sick as we are still expected to be there for everyone else.
Lee wrote:
Jan 28, 2007 at 4:41 PM
You are looking so great!!! Keep it up!!!
Vent away ....that is what we are here for!!!
Thursday, 25 January 2007
Extremely Full On
Jan 25, 2007 at 9:05 PM
Thank you for your comments on last nights post... I needed to know I had done the right thing.
I didn't answer her text, and have decided not to answer her text, she doesn't deserve my forgiveness so she can feel better about what a bitch she was!
I have never been a person that will hold a grudge but this time she fucked with my life and I cannot forgive that. I really miss my Lean class and I have had people ask me why I am not there anymore but I said I didn't want to go into it but it wasn't because I didn't love them anymore... I didn't think it was right to bad mouth her to them because then I would be stooping to her level.
If you are reading this I have to say... not everyone in my neighbourhood on Vox can read these posts as they are only for eyes I really trust so please don't tell anyone about the posts.
The reason for leaving blogspot was because of it all and I wanted to discuss things but found out that it was getting back to Kris so I couldn't vent anymore.
Today was extremely full on.
At 8.05am this morning I went for a 1 hour 20 minute walk and swung my arms and got in to the music and did 8 kms I was sooo proud of myself.
I think getting the text from Kris has kicked my ass and I have thought to myself I am going to lose this weight and I am going to be georgeous. I am also going to have heaps of friends by my side because they know that I am loyal and that I would never do anything like she has done to me EVER... and that made me work even harder to get this weight off.
I was stopped by a lady that used to go to Weight Watchers and she made me stop telling me how wonderful I am looking and to keep it up so that was really great to hear.
Got home and got a shower and took the boys to my gym as there was a holiday programme on and they so so so so enjoyed themselves there for 2 hours while I took my mum out shopping and she took me to a really lovely cafe for a coffee and a slice... I was also proud of myself with that too because it was a chocolate slice (I thought I deserved it) but I ate not even a quarter of it because it was too sweet... and normally I would have asked to take it home where I would have eaten it later but I didn't I left it there... I didn't touch the cream either.
Just had my coffee.... it was a great accomplishment for me. ALL IN MODERATION I say as it is a life style change not a life style constriction..... and my WW ladies keep telling me that I am too strict on myself and I should treat myself so I tried and I didn't eat the whole slice and more... and it was too sweet and I stopped... I cannot tell you how proud I am of myself.
So then after that took the boys to the playground and we played there for about 40 minutes then I had to come home so to drop them off and mum look after them while I went to look at houses with Debbie as she is buying her first home. We found a really great one that I have been in before...soooo spooky possums I say.. nice little place he he he
Then... he he he I went aqua jogging OMG OMG I am so sore after it as I made sure I was using my arms heaps as I don't want these bingo wings anymore... it was great.... I felt great but now I am really sore and tomorrow I am going to be sore and I have a PT with Joy tomorrow OMG then that is it for my exercise.
I have been thinking about all the exercise I did last year and even though I did some fantastic things and accomplished so much I did too much exercise and only lost 10 kilos last year (but glad I lost and didn't gain aye).
This year I am going to do a maximum of 4 days exercise a week and I am going to lose the weight!!
I have 22.3 (to get to 99.9 kilos) to go and it is going to be off by the end of the year and I want you all to remind me of this whenever I am feeling down because I do need reminding sometimes.
So now I am typing this and watching a James Bond DVD and going to do my cross stitch and veg he he he
Love ya all guys
Thank you for your support
Chubbymum
Comments
Chris H wrote:
Jan 25, 2007 at 9:51 PM
You ROCK, sounds like you had a fantastic day! What a huge walk, you have inspired me to walk the streets again, it is so much more enjoyable than the treadmill. Keep it up Mandy, we shall both be 20kgs smaller by years end. I am in Hamilton ocassionally, shall give you a toot when we breeze in!
Rachel's World wrote:
Jan 26, 2007 at 10:21 AM
You made me tired just reading all the exercise you did.........yeeha!
You are doing so well, isn't it exciting? That 99.9kgs is just around the corner!
Our journey wrote:
Jan 26, 2007 at 10:41 AM
Just popping in to say hi hun... I have finally caught up on all posts after working out why I couldn't read them! DUH! I felt so stupid! But you are doing so well and I think you did the right thing by not replying to Kris! You DO NOT need her in your life!You are on fire!!!Love ya Karen xx
Lee wrote:
Jan 26, 2007 at 8:22 PM
You are doing great hon!!
Thank you for your comments on last nights post... I needed to know I had done the right thing.
I didn't answer her text, and have decided not to answer her text, she doesn't deserve my forgiveness so she can feel better about what a bitch she was!
I have never been a person that will hold a grudge but this time she fucked with my life and I cannot forgive that. I really miss my Lean class and I have had people ask me why I am not there anymore but I said I didn't want to go into it but it wasn't because I didn't love them anymore... I didn't think it was right to bad mouth her to them because then I would be stooping to her level.
If you are reading this I have to say... not everyone in my neighbourhood on Vox can read these posts as they are only for eyes I really trust so please don't tell anyone about the posts.
The reason for leaving blogspot was because of it all and I wanted to discuss things but found out that it was getting back to Kris so I couldn't vent anymore.
Today was extremely full on.
At 8.05am this morning I went for a 1 hour 20 minute walk and swung my arms and got in to the music and did 8 kms I was sooo proud of myself.
I think getting the text from Kris has kicked my ass and I have thought to myself I am going to lose this weight and I am going to be georgeous. I am also going to have heaps of friends by my side because they know that I am loyal and that I would never do anything like she has done to me EVER... and that made me work even harder to get this weight off.
I was stopped by a lady that used to go to Weight Watchers and she made me stop telling me how wonderful I am looking and to keep it up so that was really great to hear.
Got home and got a shower and took the boys to my gym as there was a holiday programme on and they so so so so enjoyed themselves there for 2 hours while I took my mum out shopping and she took me to a really lovely cafe for a coffee and a slice... I was also proud of myself with that too because it was a chocolate slice (I thought I deserved it) but I ate not even a quarter of it because it was too sweet... and normally I would have asked to take it home where I would have eaten it later but I didn't I left it there... I didn't touch the cream either.
Just had my coffee.... it was a great accomplishment for me. ALL IN MODERATION I say as it is a life style change not a life style constriction..... and my WW ladies keep telling me that I am too strict on myself and I should treat myself so I tried and I didn't eat the whole slice and more... and it was too sweet and I stopped... I cannot tell you how proud I am of myself.
So then after that took the boys to the playground and we played there for about 40 minutes then I had to come home so to drop them off and mum look after them while I went to look at houses with Debbie as she is buying her first home. We found a really great one that I have been in before...soooo spooky possums I say.. nice little place he he he
Then... he he he I went aqua jogging OMG OMG I am so sore after it as I made sure I was using my arms heaps as I don't want these bingo wings anymore... it was great.... I felt great but now I am really sore and tomorrow I am going to be sore and I have a PT with Joy tomorrow OMG then that is it for my exercise.
I have been thinking about all the exercise I did last year and even though I did some fantastic things and accomplished so much I did too much exercise and only lost 10 kilos last year (but glad I lost and didn't gain aye).
This year I am going to do a maximum of 4 days exercise a week and I am going to lose the weight!!
I have 22.3 (to get to 99.9 kilos) to go and it is going to be off by the end of the year and I want you all to remind me of this whenever I am feeling down because I do need reminding sometimes.
So now I am typing this and watching a James Bond DVD and going to do my cross stitch and veg he he he
Love ya all guys
Thank you for your support
Chubbymum
Comments
Chris H wrote:
Jan 25, 2007 at 9:51 PM
You ROCK, sounds like you had a fantastic day! What a huge walk, you have inspired me to walk the streets again, it is so much more enjoyable than the treadmill. Keep it up Mandy, we shall both be 20kgs smaller by years end. I am in Hamilton ocassionally, shall give you a toot when we breeze in!
Rachel's World wrote:
Jan 26, 2007 at 10:21 AM
You made me tired just reading all the exercise you did.........yeeha!
You are doing so well, isn't it exciting? That 99.9kgs is just around the corner!
Our journey wrote:
Jan 26, 2007 at 10:41 AM
Just popping in to say hi hun... I have finally caught up on all posts after working out why I couldn't read them! DUH! I felt so stupid! But you are doing so well and I think you did the right thing by not replying to Kris! You DO NOT need her in your life!You are on fire!!!Love ya Karen xx
Lee wrote:
Jan 26, 2007 at 8:22 PM
You are doing great hon!!
Wednesday, 24 January 2007
Having a delima... need to vent
Jan 24, 2007 at 6:48 PM
Ok. Excuse my language on this because I don't usually swear but I want to let all my feelings out and I am not going to hold back. There are some people I am not letting see this post by the way.
Things were going ok today until I got this text!!!
Hey Mandy, I would like to apologise for the email I sent to you before I went away. I let my emotions get the better of me. I know I made mistakes and I hurt you and I am very sorry for that. I did a lot of thinking while I was away and made some changes for the better I hope. I just want to say sorry.
I was angry at the start only because the crap I have had to put up with... with this woman and her vendictive personality, as she almost lost my personal trainer for me because of all the lies she had told them. I found out that she copied my blog and changed things around in word so that it would incriminate me... it caused so much problems for me that I don't feel as happy with my trainer since the situation because she still doesn't know that Kris lied and caused the problem in the first place... and I don't want to stir up all the crap again.
I lost my team of friends that I went to twice a week and it has made me really sad about it because I don't want to look like the bitch causing problems so I didn't tell anyone what she was like... just decided I didn't want to deal with a bitch like her ever again so I left my group and now she has my group.
She made going to school to take my kids an awkward as I don't want to bump into her even though she knows my timetable with work that she is always there at the time I go and drop them off etc.
I know it took a lot of guts for her to apologise but I DID NOT REPLY TO THE TEXT. I WILL NOT REPLY TO THE TEXT but I wanted to vent about it.
My husband, mother, Debbie and my friend that knows her realllly well said that I shouldn't answer and to keep right away from her because she isn't worth my friendship... but I hate not answering.. I HATE losing friendship but I don't want anything to do with her.
I don't want to deal with the woman anymore.. is it bad of me not to answer?
She hurt me so much you wouldn't believe.... I feel so angry after this whole thing.. I lost my Lean group... I lost my great PT sessions with my trainer and how relaxed it used to feel, I lost my chubbymum blog that I made so many friends from and could have made more, I lost taking my boys to school and enjoying being with my kids. I don't like going to the gym anymore for fear of bumping in to her as well.... it is so uncomfortable.
I have heard that she has lost over 6 kilos since going on her holiday and that is really good for her so I suppose she is doing something right in her life and that is a great thing for her. That is a great effort on her part and being on holiday while doing it.. not many people can do that.
Ok that is off my chest now.. I would like opinions.... it makes me work it out etc.
Chubbymum
Comments
Chris H wrote:
Jan 24, 2007 at 8:16 PM
Sounds to me like you have done the right thing, changed your blog, etc etc. Don't reply to her text, that would be validating her apology, and sounds to me like you shouldn't! She sounds like a back stabbing f - - kng bitch and you are better off without her "friendship". While it is hard to see her at school etc, just smile and ignore her, you are the better person. She MUST know what she did was terribly wrong, let her stew in it.
Celtic Girl wrote:
Jan 24, 2007 at 9:32 PM
Sorry you haven't been feeling well. I think you are right not to respond to such a coniving and deceitful person like she seems to be. I must admit I was shocked and horrified as I read your post about her changing the words in your blog.Keep well away from her - she's trouble. Chin up hun, in the long run everyone will see her for the person she is and see you as the innocent party.
Rachel's World wrote:
Jan 25, 2007 at 9:54 AM
Hi sweets, congrats on the 500g loss......you are so clever losing everyweek. Obviously not having a certain poisonous person (Kris) in your life is doing you wonders for your happiness and weightloss. I agree with hubby and Deb that you shouldn't reply BUT if it were me I would love to say something like,
"Glad to hear you have realised what a nasty person you are but this friendship isn't reconsilable....your loss"
What a cow to not only copy your blog but CHANGE it, you don't need horrible, nasty, acid people like that in your life when you have Jeremy, Debs and US (bloggers)............hahaha.
Good riddens to useless garbage I say!
janene wrote:
Jan 25, 2007 at 12:45 PM
If you really feel the need to reply, just send her back a brief "this is too little too late" note and not say anything else. There's no point getting caught up in any sort of dialogue with her as no doubt she would find a way down the track to turn it back around on you again somehow.
*hugs*
Lee wrote:
Jan 25, 2007 at 3:37 PM
You are right not to reply - I can't believe she actually changed the words in your blog to make you look bad ...what a bitch...you are much better without that in your life!!
Congrats on your loss...that is fantastic!!!
Ok. Excuse my language on this because I don't usually swear but I want to let all my feelings out and I am not going to hold back. There are some people I am not letting see this post by the way.
Things were going ok today until I got this text!!!
Hey Mandy, I would like to apologise for the email I sent to you before I went away. I let my emotions get the better of me. I know I made mistakes and I hurt you and I am very sorry for that. I did a lot of thinking while I was away and made some changes for the better I hope. I just want to say sorry.
I was angry at the start only because the crap I have had to put up with... with this woman and her vendictive personality, as she almost lost my personal trainer for me because of all the lies she had told them. I found out that she copied my blog and changed things around in word so that it would incriminate me... it caused so much problems for me that I don't feel as happy with my trainer since the situation because she still doesn't know that Kris lied and caused the problem in the first place... and I don't want to stir up all the crap again.
I lost my team of friends that I went to twice a week and it has made me really sad about it because I don't want to look like the bitch causing problems so I didn't tell anyone what she was like... just decided I didn't want to deal with a bitch like her ever again so I left my group and now she has my group.
She made going to school to take my kids an awkward as I don't want to bump into her even though she knows my timetable with work that she is always there at the time I go and drop them off etc.
I know it took a lot of guts for her to apologise but I DID NOT REPLY TO THE TEXT. I WILL NOT REPLY TO THE TEXT but I wanted to vent about it.
My husband, mother, Debbie and my friend that knows her realllly well said that I shouldn't answer and to keep right away from her because she isn't worth my friendship... but I hate not answering.. I HATE losing friendship but I don't want anything to do with her.
I don't want to deal with the woman anymore.. is it bad of me not to answer?
She hurt me so much you wouldn't believe.... I feel so angry after this whole thing.. I lost my Lean group... I lost my great PT sessions with my trainer and how relaxed it used to feel, I lost my chubbymum blog that I made so many friends from and could have made more, I lost taking my boys to school and enjoying being with my kids. I don't like going to the gym anymore for fear of bumping in to her as well.... it is so uncomfortable.
I have heard that she has lost over 6 kilos since going on her holiday and that is really good for her so I suppose she is doing something right in her life and that is a great thing for her. That is a great effort on her part and being on holiday while doing it.. not many people can do that.
Ok that is off my chest now.. I would like opinions.... it makes me work it out etc.
Chubbymum
Comments
Chris H wrote:
Jan 24, 2007 at 8:16 PM
Sounds to me like you have done the right thing, changed your blog, etc etc. Don't reply to her text, that would be validating her apology, and sounds to me like you shouldn't! She sounds like a back stabbing f - - kng bitch and you are better off without her "friendship". While it is hard to see her at school etc, just smile and ignore her, you are the better person. She MUST know what she did was terribly wrong, let her stew in it.
Celtic Girl wrote:
Jan 24, 2007 at 9:32 PM
Sorry you haven't been feeling well. I think you are right not to respond to such a coniving and deceitful person like she seems to be. I must admit I was shocked and horrified as I read your post about her changing the words in your blog.Keep well away from her - she's trouble. Chin up hun, in the long run everyone will see her for the person she is and see you as the innocent party.
Rachel's World wrote:
Jan 25, 2007 at 9:54 AM
Hi sweets, congrats on the 500g loss......you are so clever losing everyweek. Obviously not having a certain poisonous person (Kris) in your life is doing you wonders for your happiness and weightloss. I agree with hubby and Deb that you shouldn't reply BUT if it were me I would love to say something like,
"Glad to hear you have realised what a nasty person you are but this friendship isn't reconsilable....your loss"
What a cow to not only copy your blog but CHANGE it, you don't need horrible, nasty, acid people like that in your life when you have Jeremy, Debs and US (bloggers)............hahaha.
Good riddens to useless garbage I say!
janene wrote:
Jan 25, 2007 at 12:45 PM
If you really feel the need to reply, just send her back a brief "this is too little too late" note and not say anything else. There's no point getting caught up in any sort of dialogue with her as no doubt she would find a way down the track to turn it back around on you again somehow.
*hugs*
Lee wrote:
Jan 25, 2007 at 3:37 PM
You are right not to reply - I can't believe she actually changed the words in your blog to make you look bad ...what a bitch...you are much better without that in your life!!
Congrats on your loss...that is fantastic!!!
Hey everyone
Jan 24, 2007 at 1:19 PM
Not been feeling well for about 4 days now.
Not wanting to post... no reason but laziness as well as not feeling well.
I lost 500 grams last night and I am happy with that. I am averaging around 600 grams a week (since start of year) so I am happy with that too.
I would like it to be more but hey that is life.
I want to be to the 35 kilos by 27th February which will be 119.7 kilos woohoooo so hopefully that will happen.
Then I will vow never never never to go back to the 20's, 30's, 40's and 50's ever ever ever again.
So I have 2.2 to get to that... (that is like 400 grams a week) I think I can achieve that what do you think?
I have made a little promise to myself that I will not gain for 6 weeks... so 2 weeks down and 4 to go he he he
Chubbymum
Comments
Hippygal wrote:
Jan 24, 2007 at 1:44 PM
Congrats on your loss - Hope you are feeling better soon :)
Sue wrote:
Jan 24, 2007 at 1:45 PM
Well done on another loss.
Kateypie wrote:
Jan 24, 2007 at 9:37 PM
Well done on your fantastic loss!
Not been feeling well for about 4 days now.
Not wanting to post... no reason but laziness as well as not feeling well.
I lost 500 grams last night and I am happy with that. I am averaging around 600 grams a week (since start of year) so I am happy with that too.
I would like it to be more but hey that is life.
I want to be to the 35 kilos by 27th February which will be 119.7 kilos woohoooo so hopefully that will happen.
Then I will vow never never never to go back to the 20's, 30's, 40's and 50's ever ever ever again.
So I have 2.2 to get to that... (that is like 400 grams a week) I think I can achieve that what do you think?
I have made a little promise to myself that I will not gain for 6 weeks... so 2 weeks down and 4 to go he he he
Chubbymum
Comments
Hippygal wrote:
Jan 24, 2007 at 1:44 PM
Congrats on your loss - Hope you are feeling better soon :)
Sue wrote:
Jan 24, 2007 at 1:45 PM
Well done on another loss.
Kateypie wrote:
Jan 24, 2007 at 9:37 PM
Well done on your fantastic loss!
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