Well I have been good this week with my eating and all my exercise and I am fretting about the weigh in tonight. I want to lose that is for sure but everytime I think I have done really well I end up gaining. I just don't want to gain... it feels like all the work I have been putting in to it is for nothing. Yeah I know on to a more healthier lifestyle etc but still dissapointing.
So anyway... I have decided to put my weight up again and see how it goes for the next couple of weeks. If I don't like it then I will take it off again he he he. Since Kris is going to my WW meeting now it seems silly to not put it up there.
I was doing it because I was competing with her and getting upset because I can't lose as fast as her. Yes my problem... but with me and weight it is not logical and I am not logical. I do the same as Kris with exercise and I am REALLY good with my food but I lose like 300 grams and she loses 2 to 3 kilos and it was doing my head it (I have talked to her about this as she is my friend). So today I thought what they hey she is going to know what I lose every week because at my meeting sooo many people ask each week how I have done and I don't want to be restricted anymore. It was helping for the last 3 months to not tell her (in my mind) but now I have to just be!!!
So I am looking forward to the WW meeting tonight with my friend there... it will be good to have someone I know from my normal day to day life to be there and we can bounce ideas off each other.. it will be fantastic.
On Sunday we were driving home from shopping and Corbin said "can we have popcorn when we get home?" his Dad said "yes we can" Corbin said "Mum you can have popcorn it is fat free" I said thank you son I will have some. Then he proceeded to say "it is so cool that it is fat free and there is only 2 meters of fat in it" Hubby and I burst out laughing because it sounded so cute. He was looking at us as if to say what are you laughing at but I just said "it is nice you are looking after me" sooooo cute.
I am feeling so much fitter now than I have ever been.
Work is going ok... I am a little lonely in my office all alone but the girls leave nice little notes on my pin board and they come in now and then. My old boss phones me from her office asking if I am ok... so that is really nice.
For the past two weeks I have been doing the Paul McKenna "I can make you slim" book and have been totally enjoying it. I was a little skeptical when in the slimming magazine a lady swore that it was the reason she lost weight... but after reading the book and listening to the tape I am a little more positive towards myself each day.
Reading the book it is so simple... I thought he would give all this mumbo jumbo stuff and make it hard to learn to lose weight because you have to remember rule after rule but it is simple... There are only 4 rules and the cd is fantastic. So I am trying the 90 day plan with him and seeing how it goes. But of course I am still doing WW as I think it is a great plan and more people have lost with it than any other diet/healthy lifestyle change he he.
I have been overwelmed by the comments I have had lately and thank you very much for caring enough about me. I suppose it was a little uncharacteristic of me to just sign off like that but so many things happening in my life and trying to keep up with the journal was making me feel like I was out of control. The confusion in my head about how much weight I lose a week was getting to me as well.
I have realised that I am achieving this weight loss because of a whole lot of things and one of them being that I write in here and get so much feedback and encouragment. I honestly didn't think that anyone would be too worried if I didn't write again. Hubby said that if I can motivate just one person to get some weight off then I am achieving something and that when I first started this I was googling galore to find someone in my situation that had to lose this much weight to read their journal so I would get some inspiration... and I still do that.. I still read as many journals as I can so I can keep my motivation up.
I find that the Weight Watcher magazines are ok but there is never enough in them and I would rather that they came out once a month so that I can keep my motivation going... I never understood why it isn't a monthly magazine there must be heaps out there for them to inform us on.
I do read the slimming magazine and love it but would love to have other inspirational magazines to read instead of the Womens weekly CRAP that has who left whom and who is having a baby and what the royals are doing now... it is so not what I want to spend my money on.
So I have 15 minutes and I am due for the dreaded weigh in it is soooo scary...... I have done all my exercise and I have pointed so I am thinking it will be a loss but I have been proven wrong before! Especially after Christmas when I was doing all that exercise and bike riding and I lost 200 grams in 3 weeks 200 grams.... it just doesn't make sense. I can get it when I am bad with the tracking and the exercise and only lose that but when I try and don't lose it is just not right.
Anyway I will be back later with an update.