I am feeling like really bad at the moment.
I am not too sure if I am coming down with the flu or something else.
But felt really bad all day and really down in the dumps.
This morning went to the gym and did 20 minutes on the bike and 20 minutes on the treadmill then I had to come home because I was not right... just didn't feel right.
Had a long chat to Crusher(trainer) about my food (as I had to bring in my tracking for the last 4 days) and have a couple of goals to achieve and my first is no more V's (which I have tried before but not really succeeded with it maybe cause I didn't want to) but I have not had one today!!! and that isn't why I am feeling bad either.
My youngest son has been looking after me today as he can tell I am not feeling to good. Took the boys out to see their dad today too for lunch. It was nice sitting in the park having lunch and the boys playing.
Cheer me up someone!!!!
I have started a new part of my blog.... check it out here!
I have been doing my computer scrapbook pages lately and it has made me feel like I am on top of the world again. I am going to research digital photography classes here and go to some. I was thinking maybe I might go to the photo society and join that too. I really want to do meet some more people and to try something different than the same old same of exercise, food and family. I will still do that but there is more to life and I am concentrating so much on the exercise and food (and it is not working for me at the moment) that I have to get out of this rut and try something different for a while.
Anyway going now. Might go to bed.
Love Chubbymum
Monday, 23 January 2006
Friday, 20 January 2006
Not giving up!
I am not giving up but you knew that didn't ya.
I know that when you read that I have gained weight you start thinking... was she really tracking and exercising... I DID track and I DID do the exercise... and I think that is what is making me so mad at myself because I don't know why I wouldn't lose.
I do think maybe with this new points system it made me go up to 26 points and not 25 anymore so I am doing a little experiment this week and I am going to only go to 24 points and shock my system!
I had a really busy day today at work it was so busy! Boss was away today and it was a little less stressful but I did miss her too.
After work I picked up Kris and we went to the gym for a spa as we both needed to relax.
I had a phone call from my friend that moved to Hokitika tonight and we were on the phone for like an hour! It was a really funny conversation and I enjoyed chatting to her and OMG my life looks like a million dollars at the moment after talking to her and her BAD BAD week he he he. I wish I was closer to go over and give her a hug and we both laugh together but it is a long long drive he he.
I am so looking forward to my weekend with my family this weekend. We are going to do some bike riding and just enjoy time with each other. I am appreciating them more and more now that we are biking together. I am not too sure where we are going to bike tomorrow but as long as we have fun then that is the main thing. I was thinking that I might see how I can take my camera on the bike so that I can get some pictures. The camera is a little too big etc to take on a back back hmmmmm we shall see what I can do he he he.
I am going to finish reading the CSIRO Wellbeing book this weekend (I think that is what it is called but it is upstairs at the moment he he) and work out all about low GI and see whether that will help my slump.
Keeping my options open I think. Feeling a little more optimistic but still seething about the gain when I dont think I deserved it ho hum.
Anyway I am going now as it is after 10pm and I am really tired!
Love ya
Chubbymum
I know that when you read that I have gained weight you start thinking... was she really tracking and exercising... I DID track and I DID do the exercise... and I think that is what is making me so mad at myself because I don't know why I wouldn't lose.
I do think maybe with this new points system it made me go up to 26 points and not 25 anymore so I am doing a little experiment this week and I am going to only go to 24 points and shock my system!
I had a really busy day today at work it was so busy! Boss was away today and it was a little less stressful but I did miss her too.
After work I picked up Kris and we went to the gym for a spa as we both needed to relax.
I had a phone call from my friend that moved to Hokitika tonight and we were on the phone for like an hour! It was a really funny conversation and I enjoyed chatting to her and OMG my life looks like a million dollars at the moment after talking to her and her BAD BAD week he he he. I wish I was closer to go over and give her a hug and we both laugh together but it is a long long drive he he.
I am so looking forward to my weekend with my family this weekend. We are going to do some bike riding and just enjoy time with each other. I am appreciating them more and more now that we are biking together. I am not too sure where we are going to bike tomorrow but as long as we have fun then that is the main thing. I was thinking that I might see how I can take my camera on the bike so that I can get some pictures. The camera is a little too big etc to take on a back back hmmmmm we shall see what I can do he he he.
I am going to finish reading the CSIRO Wellbeing book this weekend (I think that is what it is called but it is upstairs at the moment he he) and work out all about low GI and see whether that will help my slump.
Keeping my options open I think. Feeling a little more optimistic but still seething about the gain when I dont think I deserved it ho hum.
Anyway I am going now as it is after 10pm and I am really tired!
Love ya
Chubbymum
Thursday, 19 January 2006
Thank you
Thank you for all your support.
I am still finding it rather hard at the moment. I sit thinking... do I want to do this... do I want to keep up with it.
I do but I don't.
I went into one of the rooms at work today and one of the ladies said "you have lost weight" I turned around and said no I have gained. She said it looks like I am slimming down especially around the sides of my backside and one of the other girls said "yes I thought that but didn't want to offend you" OMG I would never be offended that someone thought I had lost weight. So maybe my body is portioning it differently but not losing in weight??? Not sure. hmmm
Not wanting to be thinking about food all the time but lately that is all I am thinking about and getting really tired of it.
Yesterday talking to the trainer just made me feel comfortable and it was easy talking to her... like she wasn't judging but listening. It is hard sometimes as people don't listen anymore... I mean truly listen anymore! I know that really they have their own things to get on with but she listened and is genuinely trying to help me solve my delimma.
There was a suggestion by a friend today saying why not leave the exercise and just do the food and then bring the exercise back in and see if that works. I am just not sure anymore as I do enjoy the exercise but the reason I did the exercise in the first place is to lose the weight ya know?
I have also been thinking about the No Count plan but for me I dont think it will work....
I seem to go through this every year around this time... the time where I wonder where my life is and what I am up to and what I am going to achieve this year and last year was great because I stuck to something for a whole year and I got myself eating healthier and exercising and I didn't think that would happen again.
Anyway I might come on for an update later but have a headache!
Chubbymum
I am still finding it rather hard at the moment. I sit thinking... do I want to do this... do I want to keep up with it.
I do but I don't.
I went into one of the rooms at work today and one of the ladies said "you have lost weight" I turned around and said no I have gained. She said it looks like I am slimming down especially around the sides of my backside and one of the other girls said "yes I thought that but didn't want to offend you" OMG I would never be offended that someone thought I had lost weight. So maybe my body is portioning it differently but not losing in weight??? Not sure. hmmm
Not wanting to be thinking about food all the time but lately that is all I am thinking about and getting really tired of it.
Yesterday talking to the trainer just made me feel comfortable and it was easy talking to her... like she wasn't judging but listening. It is hard sometimes as people don't listen anymore... I mean truly listen anymore! I know that really they have their own things to get on with but she listened and is genuinely trying to help me solve my delimma.
There was a suggestion by a friend today saying why not leave the exercise and just do the food and then bring the exercise back in and see if that works. I am just not sure anymore as I do enjoy the exercise but the reason I did the exercise in the first place is to lose the weight ya know?
I have also been thinking about the No Count plan but for me I dont think it will work....
I seem to go through this every year around this time... the time where I wonder where my life is and what I am up to and what I am going to achieve this year and last year was great because I stuck to something for a whole year and I got myself eating healthier and exercising and I didn't think that would happen again.
Anyway I might come on for an update later but have a headache!
Chubbymum
Wednesday, 18 January 2006
Small post tonight
I was going to give up on posting and ww and the gym today!
Yes you guessed it I gained!! OMG what on earth am I doing wrong. I am doing the exercise! I am tracking yet I gained hmmmmmm depressed is what I am feeling.
I biked to Kris's place today because she was having a bad day too and played Kinetics (what a fantastic game) and biked home and got dressed for the gym and then biked with Kris to the gym and back and did a Kick boxing class at the gym (8.3 kilometres I have biked today).
I talked to my gym trainer and she is going to look at my food intake and times of the day I am eating it and going to suggest some things for me. I have also decided to stop the Personal training for 6 weeks. I asked about their L.E.A.N course at the gym. For $89 you go through this course for 6 weeks to learn about Lifestyle, Exercise, Attitude and Nutrician and it was really good to talk to the trainer about the things they do on the course and it sounds really good. You actually do exercise and sort out what is best for your individual lifestyle etc. I am going to try it. Talked to hubby and he agrees he doesn't understand what I am doing wrong and maybe this will be the kick start for this year that I need and some more support re my food as my family sees what I am doing and needed someone to talk to about it that would listen and help.
Anyway little bit sore from the exercise and angry still about the weight gain.... so I am going to bed.
Chubbymum :-(
Yes you guessed it I gained!! OMG what on earth am I doing wrong. I am doing the exercise! I am tracking yet I gained hmmmmmm depressed is what I am feeling.
I biked to Kris's place today because she was having a bad day too and played Kinetics (what a fantastic game) and biked home and got dressed for the gym and then biked with Kris to the gym and back and did a Kick boxing class at the gym (8.3 kilometres I have biked today).
I talked to my gym trainer and she is going to look at my food intake and times of the day I am eating it and going to suggest some things for me. I have also decided to stop the Personal training for 6 weeks. I asked about their L.E.A.N course at the gym. For $89 you go through this course for 6 weeks to learn about Lifestyle, Exercise, Attitude and Nutrician and it was really good to talk to the trainer about the things they do on the course and it sounds really good. You actually do exercise and sort out what is best for your individual lifestyle etc. I am going to try it. Talked to hubby and he agrees he doesn't understand what I am doing wrong and maybe this will be the kick start for this year that I need and some more support re my food as my family sees what I am doing and needed someone to talk to about it that would listen and help.
Anyway little bit sore from the exercise and angry still about the weight gain.... so I am going to bed.
Chubbymum :-(
Tuesday, 17 January 2006
Exercise Machine am I
Hey everyone.
What a full on day it has been today.
Phoned Kris at 8.30 this morning and she picked up the phone (she has caller ID) and said "and what the bloody time do you call this?" he he he I said "you have bloody kids I know you wouldn't be asleep" he he we laughed. After a long chat we decided that we would bike ride to the gym. I rode 2km to get her from her place and we went to the gym and did an hour of Total Tone (which was harder than the kickboxing class the other week) We had our trainer do it with us today as we were supposed to have a one on one but thought it would be better to do the cardio class so we could get the benefit of her today.... and I found we worked harder today and sweated more and laughed so much. The music was fantastic I was singing so loud with all the songs he he he he. I do enjoy the Tuesday morning classes.
After the Total Tone class we rode our bikes home he he he.... so my total kilometres were 7.4 woohoooo for this exercise machine.
We had a chat on the way back and decided to take the kids to the lake park and have a picnic. It was a load of fun because all our kids seem to get on really well and they enjoyed it for a while but started to get bored. I will attach some photos at the end here. He he Kris and I decided to get on the swings and have my son take some photos. Now I know I have lost weight this year but I felt like a big whale sitting on the swing and I cannot CANNOT believe that I am putting this photo up here he he he he.
We went to go and get some iceblocks at the Lake shop and then while we were waiting the girl said "I am having my Tea break" and just took off. I was disgusted as she left about 10 of us standing there. So I said to Kris I am not staying and waiting and so we went to a dairy and got some iceblocks from there instead. What a nerve that woman had!!!
What a full on day it has been today.
Phoned Kris at 8.30 this morning and she picked up the phone (she has caller ID) and said "and what the bloody time do you call this?" he he he I said "you have bloody kids I know you wouldn't be asleep" he he we laughed. After a long chat we decided that we would bike ride to the gym. I rode 2km to get her from her place and we went to the gym and did an hour of Total Tone (which was harder than the kickboxing class the other week) We had our trainer do it with us today as we were supposed to have a one on one but thought it would be better to do the cardio class so we could get the benefit of her today.... and I found we worked harder today and sweated more and laughed so much. The music was fantastic I was singing so loud with all the songs he he he he. I do enjoy the Tuesday morning classes.
After the Total Tone class we rode our bikes home he he he.... so my total kilometres were 7.4 woohoooo for this exercise machine.
We had a chat on the way back and decided to take the kids to the lake park and have a picnic. It was a load of fun because all our kids seem to get on really well and they enjoyed it for a while but started to get bored. I will attach some photos at the end here. He he Kris and I decided to get on the swings and have my son take some photos. Now I know I have lost weight this year but I felt like a big whale sitting on the swing and I cannot CANNOT believe that I am putting this photo up here he he he he.
We went to go and get some iceblocks at the Lake shop and then while we were waiting the girl said "I am having my Tea break" and just took off. I was disgusted as she left about 10 of us standing there. So I said to Kris I am not staying and waiting and so we went to a dairy and got some iceblocks from there instead. What a nerve that woman had!!!
As you can see Quinn was laughing a lot while we were at the park he he he
Corbin and Kris's daughter were playing with the frisbee
Yep here we are Kris and I.... both of us thinking TAKE THE DAMN PHOTO he he he he
MORE PHOTOS BELOW HAVE A LOOK :-)
More photos
I like this next photo the most he he he he he
I have more photos of Kris's kids but I thought I would let her put them on her website tonight if she wants. I enjoyed taking the photos of them. Something new to photograph... he he he I will leave you with this last photo to laugh your head off with he he he
ARRRGHHH I hate this photo he he he.
Good night everyone
I will update later as I have my weigh in tonight to tell you if I lost or gained.... hmmm not too sure anymore because it never goes the way I think...
LOOOOVEEEE ya all
Chubbymum
Monday, 16 January 2006
Weekend!!! Where to start
Weekend without the boys and it went so fast and I don't feel like it was long enough or that we achieved all that we wanted to.
Saturday:
Took the boys to their granddads place and five minutes later they were all off. So we came back home but on the way did some shopping at a couple of the country shops on the way home. It was just good to spend time with each other and not have to worry. In the afternoon we spent time over at hubby's mothers place (joy of joys) as a cousin of his was up for a couple of days. It was fun chatting and talking about things. Came home had dinner and then hubby and I went on a long bike ride 9km that evening. It was cooler and we just went around all the little tiny streets looking at the gardens and houses and seeing if there was anything out there that we could try on our garden in the back yard.
Sunday:
Was a little bit of a nightmare time wise and we still didn't achieve much... but we did the grocery shopping. Sold a couple of big things of the baby things of ours woohooooo money money money and got them out of the garage. After the groceries we got the dinner ready for when a friend came over. We did a big huge ham with lots of salad things and watermelon and strawberries for dessert. We had so much fun and in the end did singstar and my friends kids started at 7pm and then at 7.45 her hubby took the kids home and we got into the singstar again... it was so much fun we laughed and sang so much that both of us were losing our voices by 12pm he he he he he I can't believe she was there until then. I took her home and she started crying when I left as I won't see her for a year as she is going away with her family. I am going to miss her! I enjoy going and spending time with her and Sunday night made me realise that we do have so much fun together... I am glad I met her that is for sure, when I left she was crying and I was trying not to because I know we are going to keep in touch and see each other again but I will miss her! But she isn't going forever.
Monday:
Today hmmmm. Got up this morning at 9am (it was fantastic not having to get up for kids) and then I got a shower (hmmm no kids again all relaxing) and got dressed to go into my old job and see everyone.
Well I walked in an there were gasps and they kept saying how great I was looking (I hadn't seen them since September 2005) and they were all talk talk talk about how fantastic I was looking. OMG it was a weird feeling and like it at the start but then felt weird like I was skyting or something.... weird. I was wearing my jeans and a black top and felt like a million dollars when I was going to morning tea with them. It was fantastic to hear the great compliments and it was great to catch up with everyone too but still weird.
I am going to do the kickboxing class tonight since I missed it this morning. I am not going to do this every week but it suited my schedule today. This year I am going to do my exercise but I am also going to have a life too ya know. After reading the WW books I am changing my habits... I am doing what it says and "Realise that you have needs, Learn to say No, Bin the Guilt, Consider what you want to do"... so this year I am going to do that. I am going to Learn to say No and I am going to do what I want to do and if I don't want to change my schedule then I won't but I am going to do things to benefit me and for me only.... I have to learn to be a little selfish I think he he he. It felt really good not having to rush today. I sometimes feel going to the gym in the morning that my hole day is rushed from the gym right till I go to bed and I haven't sat down and smelled the roses.
So I will update to tell ya how the class went today..... Chubbymum
UPDATE
Well I had all intentions to go to the gym tonight but my friend that we went over to her place on New Year's Eve came over unexpectantly and we ended up chatting and there wasn't enough time to get to my class but that is ok as soon as she left hubby and I went for a 8.7 km bike ride in 40 minutes woohoooo I felt exhilerated afterwards as there was a beautiful sunset and it is a fantastic special time with hubby. I enjoyed riding my bike with him tonight.
Anyway that is my update.
Chubbymum
Saturday:
Took the boys to their granddads place and five minutes later they were all off. So we came back home but on the way did some shopping at a couple of the country shops on the way home. It was just good to spend time with each other and not have to worry. In the afternoon we spent time over at hubby's mothers place (joy of joys) as a cousin of his was up for a couple of days. It was fun chatting and talking about things. Came home had dinner and then hubby and I went on a long bike ride 9km that evening. It was cooler and we just went around all the little tiny streets looking at the gardens and houses and seeing if there was anything out there that we could try on our garden in the back yard.
Sunday:
Was a little bit of a nightmare time wise and we still didn't achieve much... but we did the grocery shopping. Sold a couple of big things of the baby things of ours woohooooo money money money and got them out of the garage. After the groceries we got the dinner ready for when a friend came over. We did a big huge ham with lots of salad things and watermelon and strawberries for dessert. We had so much fun and in the end did singstar and my friends kids started at 7pm and then at 7.45 her hubby took the kids home and we got into the singstar again... it was so much fun we laughed and sang so much that both of us were losing our voices by 12pm he he he he he I can't believe she was there until then. I took her home and she started crying when I left as I won't see her for a year as she is going away with her family. I am going to miss her! I enjoy going and spending time with her and Sunday night made me realise that we do have so much fun together... I am glad I met her that is for sure, when I left she was crying and I was trying not to because I know we are going to keep in touch and see each other again but I will miss her! But she isn't going forever.
Monday:
Today hmmmm. Got up this morning at 9am (it was fantastic not having to get up for kids) and then I got a shower (hmmm no kids again all relaxing) and got dressed to go into my old job and see everyone.
Well I walked in an there were gasps and they kept saying how great I was looking (I hadn't seen them since September 2005) and they were all talk talk talk about how fantastic I was looking. OMG it was a weird feeling and like it at the start but then felt weird like I was skyting or something.... weird. I was wearing my jeans and a black top and felt like a million dollars when I was going to morning tea with them. It was fantastic to hear the great compliments and it was great to catch up with everyone too but still weird.
I am going to do the kickboxing class tonight since I missed it this morning. I am not going to do this every week but it suited my schedule today. This year I am going to do my exercise but I am also going to have a life too ya know. After reading the WW books I am changing my habits... I am doing what it says and "Realise that you have needs, Learn to say No, Bin the Guilt, Consider what you want to do"... so this year I am going to do that. I am going to Learn to say No and I am going to do what I want to do and if I don't want to change my schedule then I won't but I am going to do things to benefit me and for me only.... I have to learn to be a little selfish I think he he he. It felt really good not having to rush today. I sometimes feel going to the gym in the morning that my hole day is rushed from the gym right till I go to bed and I haven't sat down and smelled the roses.
So I will update to tell ya how the class went today..... Chubbymum
UPDATE
Well I had all intentions to go to the gym tonight but my friend that we went over to her place on New Year's Eve came over unexpectantly and we ended up chatting and there wasn't enough time to get to my class but that is ok as soon as she left hubby and I went for a 8.7 km bike ride in 40 minutes woohoooo I felt exhilerated afterwards as there was a beautiful sunset and it is a fantastic special time with hubby. I enjoyed riding my bike with him tonight.
Anyway that is my update.
Chubbymum
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