Holiday tomorrow - Wellington

Well I have to warn you all that in the next week I might not have time to update on here as I am off to Wellington tomorrow morning wohoooooo... so excited but nervous and upset at the same time.
Upset because I am leaving my mother and the boys home and my mum doesn't drive and if anything happens to the boys I don't know how she can handle it. I get so paranoid about something happening to my family and one little cold sets me for a nightmare too. My dad died of phneumonia (not cancer but was in recovery after 10 years of fighting GEESH) and so I get this fear that I am 8 hours drive away and if anything happens it is such a long way. Yes I am an overprotective mum but I just don't know if I can handle if anything happens to mum or the boys... anyway that off my chest.
But I meet my wonderful online friends this weekend Woohoooo and so excited but nervous... and yep yep I have mentioned that before but I am...
Also I am really anxious about my friend and her winning this Dream Home competition. I haven't been able to sleep properly the last month because I am hoping that they win... and that is not to say that I won't be jealous but she deserves it... I mean she really does she is a great friend and I can count on her for anything she is always there for me.
Been really niggly with food today. Really want something yummy to eat and in a way really bad for me too but I haven't done that today. I am not going to get caught up in thinking oh well I can make up for it tomorrow... I am not!!! because if I do it once then I will find any excuse to do it again and again.
I see people that have lost 30 to 40 kilos and feel soooo jealous of their achievement. I want to be there and keep seeing the 8.3 kilos as just a little amount. Even though when I am wearing my clothes the 8.3 kilos really does make me feel good. I am not having to pull up my undies thinking they are too small now.. as I don't even know what they feel like on anymore which is fantastic and how it should be.
A person that hasn't seen me for a while came to visit my mum today and when I walked in after picking up my son she said "OMG you look fantastic and patted my tummy and said you have lost some of the tummy and in your face too." it felt so good for her to say that. I did feel good and do!
Really tired now and need to go and pack for the weekend. Yep I am really bad for leaving it till the last moment.
Love ya all and can't wait to meet my friends this weekend and thanks for reading.
Love ChubbyMum Steps: 7,894 posted on 8:08 p.m.

Really down in the dumps today

What is up with me today?
I can't get it together today!
I mean, I like my job but I am sooo bored with it. I get like this after a year in a job I think it is because the challenge has gone and I know what I have to do and it bores me I get bored so easily! I need to be challenged but I can't keep on like this because it is a good job and great people I am just really bored.
I think after having Wednesday off and did the walking thing with TGirl I just feel like I want to do that sort of thing everyday! I know, I know I have it easy compaired to others but I just don't want to be wasting my life in this little office of mine. All by myself and just work work work. I want to walk during the day and spend time with the kids in the afternoon and take my mum out places to fill up the day.
I feel so lonely today! I know I am not alone but that is how I feel. I think I am realizing just how much weight I have to loose and I am not giving up but it has got me down a little I mean I have only lost 8.3 kilos it isn't like I have lost 30 or 40 or something and that is how I am treating it when I have so much more to go. Today is a bit of a low compared to yesterday and I am not liking it one bit.
It is such a shame that we can't do what we want and still live happily. I mean why can't we all just forget money all together and have everything we want or need and be happy with each other. Yes I do know it will never happen and there are reasons why. I also realize I should be happy with what I have as I am a fortunate person to have what I have and the family I have. Just sad today!
ChubbyMum
Steps taken today: 9,281

Parent teacher interview

It felt like Saturday here today.. but it was good not to have the kids around. I felt like I got so much achieved today.
Went to TGirl's to go for a walk and we went for a 4.3 kilometre walk in an hour Woohoooo it was fantastic. I felt really good and then after that I actually did the groceries too and then by that time had to go to school for parent teacher interviews.
OMG OMG I was a proud mother when I got out of there. My son turned 5 in August 2004 and started school (which is the age in New Zealand) anyway they get tested at the start of the year (in NZ it is end of January after summer holidays) and so they do a test on what the children are up to without the teaching so that by they end of the year they have something to compare...
Welllllll my son is at a reading age of a 6 and a half year old now.. wooohooo and she was impressed with his writing and maths too. I was just so happy that I could have done a little jig... but I also told Corbin how proud I am but I didn't want to overdo it because a friend of mine killed himself because he wasn't matching up to what his parents had wanted him to be and by the end had had enough that he shot himself... so I am going to make sure that my sons do what they are capable of and I will not push them to exhaustion but in saying that (dancing a little jig now woohooo) he is doing so well I am sooo proud.
Ok I am off that now.
Feeling exercised! Well fed! and just basically happy today.
Anyway that is me for now...
ChubbyMum
Steps today: 11,246
posted on 10:08 p.m

Woohooooo lost, lost, lost

Woohooo
I did it!!! I dit it!! I lost... can you see the little dance I am doing!!!
2 kilo's, TWO Kilo's, 2, 2, 2, 2.... or 4.4 pounds Wohoooooo.. 2.2.2.2.2.2 love that figure.
With all the walking and kickboxing this week it worked!!! It worked OMG OMG I am so stoked...
Thank you TGirl for pushing me on these walks... yes I was dying at the time but I did it!!! and going again tomorrow!! woohooooo
I don't know what else to say but 8.3 kilos gone!!! and gone forever!!!
Thanks everyone for reading!!!
Woohooooo
Chubby Mum

Great week tracking

OK the day went really fast today.

Wasn't feeling that good this afternoon I am thinking that maybe the V's are doing it to me... I am feeling quite shaky and it has been happening since Wednesday last week. I was thinking it was the amount of k's I walked last Wednesday which was way too much for my first time but then I was getting better towards Sunday and today I had a V and was not feeling good at all.
Anyway so I went to my kickboxing class tonight and it was good. BLONDE was asking so many question about the walking with TGirl and in the end I ended up saying I went for two walks and enjoyed it. I can't believe how many times she kept asking and I wasn't giving her enough information so kept at me.

TGirl phoned before the kickboxing and we had a good old chat... quite a lot about the new American Idol. OMG are there some really BAD singers in that lot he he he this time... well the ones that we heard tonight already.

I really enjoyed the kickboxing tonight. I thought that after a week of not going because they didn't have the classes that I would have been puffing so much but no I was sweating woohooo which I like now because I know that I am working but I wasn't puffed and exhausted at all.
Only 5 days till I am in Wellington and I am looking forward to it. Can't say I am looking for the drive but hey.

Weigh in tomorrow night... I am really nervous about it. I am nervous because I have been working hard with the walking and tracking this week and past times when I have done so well I haven't lost but gained!

So I am really nervous... yeah I know wait till tomorrow to find out but hey!!! I want to loose this bloody 10 kilos for the 11th April... that was my first big goal. Roll on that 10 kilos he he he
Chubbymum posted on 10:16 p.m

TGirl

What a busy weekend. My new found friend and I just get on like a house on fire and it is still really freaky to know that someone else has the same interests as me and we got on like a house on fire.

Went for another walk today around the Hamilton Lake (not a small lake) took us just under an hour of walking with her dog today... I felt so much better after doing it as I needed to get some exercise... but did feel it in my calf muscles.

Spent yesterday with my new friend and it was soooo relaxing and like we had known each other for years and as you can tell I can still not get over the fact that I have found a friend that I have so much in common with. Found out today that her hubby works at a job that really he should be doing from the town (which is like is a LONG way away) and they might move there for a year. OMG OMG I always have this happen. All my friends move away... what is it? Am I jinxed or what? Am I going to go through my whole life with friends that I like going to another part of the country or world?

I love my hubby so much and he is my best friend but there is nothing like another woman to talk to... I miss being able to say whatever I feel like at the time with my friends... I can't do that with BLONDE I have tried but she like looks past me like she is saying "Yeah I know you are talking and I know I have to pretend that I am listening for you to say something so that you will listen to me" but with my new friend hmmm what shall I give her for a nickname..... hmmmm I think TGirl... yep that is fitting.

So anyway TGirl yayyyy for our new friendship.

Been doing a little more cross stitch lately too. I don't do much in the summer as it is too hot to sit around and do it plus I have OOS problems so doing it for too long is not good.

This weekend has gone so fast it is unbelieveable and it won't be long till I am in Wellington WOOOHOOOOO I am going to meet my online friends Woohooo.

Anyway enough from me.

Love ChubbyMum posted on 5:12 p.m

ANGERED

I had a comment on my diary yesterday and I have deleted it!!! I am a little concerned about why someone would be so mean as to attack another person on someone else's diary.

This is a short entry but I have to say I don't like it!!

If you have something to tell me please do as I will read it... but I am not going to condone attacks of others here, as this is not a forum, this is about my weight loss and for me to meet some people in the same boat as me, and to get the days problems or joy out.

I didn't want to ever have to write an entry like this because I can't understand how people would be like that! It is gutless and I do think they have to look at themselves first. If you have a problem with a certain person then you need to confront that person and not spread attacks on another diary.

Anyway! still confused and have to say I don't understand what type of person would be like this!! WHAT IS THE POINT? did it make them feel good? if so then I pity the friendships you have.

I know that I write about BLONDE in here but I have never said who that person is! And never will! But the diary is for me to get my frustrations of the day out! It isn't because I have this diary to attack people... and I admit I do attack BLONDE here but not so that others know who she is or that I am making her feel bad because I couldn't do that! I couldn't purposefully do that to someone that you know will read it! and if I knew she read it then I would go to her and tell her everything and sort it out or move on from the friendship

Anyway
That is my point of view!!

ChubbyMum posted on 11:33 a.m.