Really busy day today at work!! Woohooo for me.
My Manager (who used to own the business but is now Managing it and the other owner isn't there anymore) and I got on really well today.
I was thinking about it tonight and it is fantastic that she is now talking to me more. Before it was like Directors and me the financial administrator and now it is like we are a team. I have been given so much more responsibility today at work it is amazing and she has confided in me more... it feels more relaxed for some reason. They were great people before but felt like it was them and me in a strange way. I have been given the budgets for our new centre and I am going to be looking after them (which is what I thought I was hired for but things were hard for them to delegate before I came to the conclusion).
I lost half of my job as it all goes up to the main centre in Auckland now and so I was so afraid that I was not going to have anything Financial left in my job description (which meant I would be looking for another job or I would get bored) So getting the buget stuff was fantastic today... but I must admit she is not a financial person she is totally inspirational in the Early Childhood teaching part but financial hmmmmm NOT he he he.
Anyway what I am trying to get to is that she left early today and phoned about 15 minutes before I was leaving and I picked up the phone....
and she said "Grumpy person here"
I said "Sorry?"
she said "I just thought I would phone and say sorry for being so Grumpy today and thanks for listening"
I said "If that was Grumpy then I can handle that wohoo"
she said "just thought I was a bit snappy today"
I said "no it was really good that we could chat and I really enjoyed today".
Isn't it funny how we perceive things sometimes that isn't there. It was nice to know that she could confide in me and she knew it goes no further.
The work she gave me today put me on such a high as I DO NOT like being bored not under ANY circumstances, it just makes my day sooooo slow.
I got another compliment today at work OMG OMG maybe I am wearing just the right clothes or something but I haven't lost it on the scales and it isn't like my clothes are falling off but the more compliments the more it encourages me and I miss that. I seem to be always bringing other people's spirits up in my life but nothing in return.
Thank you all for you comments in the last couple of days I appreciate it. It makes me keep going to know that you posted because you cared!! When I stop posting and I stop getting comments that is the time I feel like I am slumping and I don't lose.... isn't it funny how that works. I think that is why I am reading so many weight loss magazines and books that I can get my hand on at the moment.
I feel like I have been good with my eating today but I am still sore from the Kickboxing on Wednesday night... I really really really tried hard and I think maybe I overdid it he he he.
Good nightttttt
Love Chubbymum
Friday, 13 January 2006
Thursday, 12 January 2006
Second day of work for me and I am bored!!! OMG Bored! Because we have changed hands with owners there are new software and new computers and they are not up and running for 2 more weeks and no eftpos either and it is driving me insane. I was forever trying to find something to do...
I went to my kickboxing class last night and thoroughly enjoyed it!!! I met some new people there and they asked what the class was like at the start of the class and I said it was fun and not as hard as you might think but OMG it was so HARD she was out for us tonight he he he and I worked so damn hard and sweated so much that my whole head of hair was wet and my back too OMG my back was sweating he he he. I am wearing the same T-Shirt that I wore last year while doing the kickboxing and I looked in the mirror and felt frumpy in it last night... it was too big woohoooooo it was great!
I was so sore this morning with my arms and legs and a little stiff in my neck as well but it was worth all the exercise that is for sure.
I am been thinking tonight about possesions and how sometimes we strive to get all the things in life and toys but after the time I spent with my family in the last couple of weeks the things didn't make a difference.
Camping in the back yard with them and roasting marshmellows on the fire and riding bikes with them... having all the toys in the world means nothing!! It is only money isn't it! Corbin and I have been spending more time with each other like biking up to the Library and reading and just having fun. And Quinn and I biking and roasting the marshmellows... it has been great. I have enjoyed these holidays with them.
I got a compliment today at work from a younger girl (little bit big too) she said "OMG you have had a great holiday haven't you!!" I looked at her and said "why? I haven't told you what I have done" she said "you have lost weight and you are looking so happy" OMG it blew me away. I haven't lost that much over the holidays (I thought) that anyone would notice but she is the sort of person that doesn't give a compliment often THAT IS FOR SURE and for her to say that put me on a high for the rest of the day.... I was walking taller he he he
I have no kids this weekend Wohooo they are going with their granddad camping (I will miss them terribly) but hubby and I are going to do some things together and bike riding is one of them..... A marathon ride is in the plan and I will calculate the km's and when finished will tell you how much. We are going to spend the time together and do things that we can't or can't manage to do when we have the kids.... like sleep in and read books hmmmmm read booookkkkks.
Anyway it is getting late and I am off to bed.
Love Chubbymum
I went to my kickboxing class last night and thoroughly enjoyed it!!! I met some new people there and they asked what the class was like at the start of the class and I said it was fun and not as hard as you might think but OMG it was so HARD she was out for us tonight he he he and I worked so damn hard and sweated so much that my whole head of hair was wet and my back too OMG my back was sweating he he he. I am wearing the same T-Shirt that I wore last year while doing the kickboxing and I looked in the mirror and felt frumpy in it last night... it was too big woohoooooo it was great!
I was so sore this morning with my arms and legs and a little stiff in my neck as well but it was worth all the exercise that is for sure.
I am been thinking tonight about possesions and how sometimes we strive to get all the things in life and toys but after the time I spent with my family in the last couple of weeks the things didn't make a difference.
Camping in the back yard with them and roasting marshmellows on the fire and riding bikes with them... having all the toys in the world means nothing!! It is only money isn't it! Corbin and I have been spending more time with each other like biking up to the Library and reading and just having fun. And Quinn and I biking and roasting the marshmellows... it has been great. I have enjoyed these holidays with them.
I got a compliment today at work from a younger girl (little bit big too) she said "OMG you have had a great holiday haven't you!!" I looked at her and said "why? I haven't told you what I have done" she said "you have lost weight and you are looking so happy" OMG it blew me away. I haven't lost that much over the holidays (I thought) that anyone would notice but she is the sort of person that doesn't give a compliment often THAT IS FOR SURE and for her to say that put me on a high for the rest of the day.... I was walking taller he he he
I have no kids this weekend Wohooo they are going with their granddad camping (I will miss them terribly) but hubby and I are going to do some things together and bike riding is one of them..... A marathon ride is in the plan and I will calculate the km's and when finished will tell you how much. We are going to spend the time together and do things that we can't or can't manage to do when we have the kids.... like sleep in and read books hmmmmm read booookkkkks.
Anyway it is getting late and I am off to bed.
Love Chubbymum
Wednesday, 11 January 2006
Battle
Ok I have been battling with this for 2 months now and I have decided after last nights weigh in (which I lost...but not as much as I really thought warranted with the efforts I put it for 3 weeks solid).
I am not going to put my weight up for a while..... I am going to say I lost or I gained and I am going to keep writing like I have but I have been angry for my loss of interest because of the competitiveness that I have. I don't want to compete because it makes me back off!!! and this is the way that I feel I can stop it in my mind.
I want to lose for me! I don't want to keep thinking why am I not losing as much as others. It is driving me insane and the more I try the less I lose and I cannot handle that at the moment.
I was sooooo angry with my family and with me last night after the weigh in (even though I lost) but I felt with the effort that I put in.... others that I know would lose a lot more. I shouldn't have been angry with my family that is for sure but took it out on them and it was wrong.
OMG I am tired of hearing... 'muscle weighs more than fat' that is for sure... I am not happy with that excuse at all... because I have been doing exercise for a year now not a month or a week and the muscle thing seems to get used for everything ya know.
I have enjoyed the last couple of weeks with the exercise I have done. It has been interesting and I have pushed myself and I have learnt heaps that I need to try different things and do things for me more often as it gives me such a kick and such a thrill of excitment that I did this for me.. he he he he
Ok... enough from me.
Good night everyone
Love Chubbymum
I am not going to put my weight up for a while..... I am going to say I lost or I gained and I am going to keep writing like I have but I have been angry for my loss of interest because of the competitiveness that I have. I don't want to compete because it makes me back off!!! and this is the way that I feel I can stop it in my mind.
I want to lose for me! I don't want to keep thinking why am I not losing as much as others. It is driving me insane and the more I try the less I lose and I cannot handle that at the moment.
I was sooooo angry with my family and with me last night after the weigh in (even though I lost) but I felt with the effort that I put in.... others that I know would lose a lot more. I shouldn't have been angry with my family that is for sure but took it out on them and it was wrong.
OMG I am tired of hearing... 'muscle weighs more than fat' that is for sure... I am not happy with that excuse at all... because I have been doing exercise for a year now not a month or a week and the muscle thing seems to get used for everything ya know.
I have enjoyed the last couple of weeks with the exercise I have done. It has been interesting and I have pushed myself and I have learnt heaps that I need to try different things and do things for me more often as it gives me such a kick and such a thrill of excitment that I did this for me.. he he he he
Ok... enough from me.
Good night everyone
Love Chubbymum
Monday, 9 January 2006
Upset and Angry
Upset today because we went to take my bike in to get the tire looked at as they are leaking from the valve and have to pump it up every night.
We were sent here from the place we brought our bikes from and the young guy fixed it really quickly but when I walked in there was a guy there (probably in his late 30's) and he looked at me when I walked in as if to say "what the hell are you doing here with raised eyebrows etc" I gave him the worst look and pursed my lips and put my eyebrows up because he made me feel soooo small you wouldn't believe. I really hated that and was soooo angry inside my tummy.
I know I am a big person but it does not mean that I cannot get out there and get some exercise to get the weight off. I wanted to do a voodoo ritual on the guy that is for sure. Then we went to buy something else for the bike and my husband was standing at the counter and the guy ignored us.... I looked at him and said "do you mind" he said "oh sorry" GRRRRR arsehole. It was the worst customer service I have had in my whole entire life. What a rude ARSEHOLE. I know it doesn't sound like much but the look was what got me and my hubby.
It is people like that that make me wonder if there are other people out there disgusted with the way I look. My husband as we were walking out the door said in a loud voice "it is the last time we will come here the guy behind the counter was rude and the customer service sucked" but he added that the young guy was nice. I am sure they heard that is for sure.
So CYCLE TIME SUCKS big time with customer service... I am one of those people that believes in customer service and if it sucks then I will tell 10 people and they will tell 10 people and so they get a bad reputation. So I will not buy anything from them and I will tell everyone I know not to as well.... woohooo for the internet.
Other than that I am feeling quite positive. I didn't go to the gym today but Tania phoned about 10 minutes ago and we are going to bike over there to visit her. I am going to miss her when she goes to Hokitika for a year. I spend afternoons there chatting and it is great. Hopefully this year with Corbin's class I can meet someone and do some things as I am getting a little bored and wanting to get out and about. I miss my friend from Wellington and wished that she was up here..... it is really hard to find someone that you like spending time with and I get so bored!!!
So hopefully this afternoon doesn't rain...
Will update later as it is only 1.20pm..
Love CM
UPDATE:
I have been thinking this afternoon and maybe I was a little bit oversensitive when I went in to the bike shop. Hubby doesn't seem to think so as was there too and I cannot really blame cycletime for one guy and maybe he was having a bad day. BUT I did feel really uncomfortable that is for sure.
Anyway Tina has made me realise today how much I have been missing doing my digital scrapbooking so here is a page I did today. Just a quickie but I am going through my photos month by month and doing some pages wohoooooo. ..... had a bit of trouble uploading but it is now below this post woohoo.
We were sent here from the place we brought our bikes from and the young guy fixed it really quickly but when I walked in there was a guy there (probably in his late 30's) and he looked at me when I walked in as if to say "what the hell are you doing here with raised eyebrows etc" I gave him the worst look and pursed my lips and put my eyebrows up because he made me feel soooo small you wouldn't believe. I really hated that and was soooo angry inside my tummy.
I know I am a big person but it does not mean that I cannot get out there and get some exercise to get the weight off. I wanted to do a voodoo ritual on the guy that is for sure. Then we went to buy something else for the bike and my husband was standing at the counter and the guy ignored us.... I looked at him and said "do you mind" he said "oh sorry" GRRRRR arsehole. It was the worst customer service I have had in my whole entire life. What a rude ARSEHOLE. I know it doesn't sound like much but the look was what got me and my hubby.
It is people like that that make me wonder if there are other people out there disgusted with the way I look. My husband as we were walking out the door said in a loud voice "it is the last time we will come here the guy behind the counter was rude and the customer service sucked" but he added that the young guy was nice. I am sure they heard that is for sure.
So CYCLE TIME SUCKS big time with customer service... I am one of those people that believes in customer service and if it sucks then I will tell 10 people and they will tell 10 people and so they get a bad reputation. So I will not buy anything from them and I will tell everyone I know not to as well.... woohooo for the internet.
Other than that I am feeling quite positive. I didn't go to the gym today but Tania phoned about 10 minutes ago and we are going to bike over there to visit her. I am going to miss her when she goes to Hokitika for a year. I spend afternoons there chatting and it is great. Hopefully this year with Corbin's class I can meet someone and do some things as I am getting a little bored and wanting to get out and about. I miss my friend from Wellington and wished that she was up here..... it is really hard to find someone that you like spending time with and I get so bored!!!
So hopefully this afternoon doesn't rain...
Will update later as it is only 1.20pm..
Love CM
UPDATE:
I have been thinking this afternoon and maybe I was a little bit oversensitive when I went in to the bike shop. Hubby doesn't seem to think so as was there too and I cannot really blame cycletime for one guy and maybe he was having a bad day. BUT I did feel really uncomfortable that is for sure.
Anyway Tina has made me realise today how much I have been missing doing my digital scrapbooking so here is a page I did today. Just a quickie but I am going through my photos month by month and doing some pages wohoooooo. ..... had a bit of trouble uploading but it is now below this post woohoo.
Sunday, 8 January 2006
It started out to be a.....
It started out to be a lazy day where we weren't going to do anything but it ended up where we had another busy day.
Went back to where I brought my bike to say that the tire is leaking from the valve from the day we got it and we have to pump it up everyday and it stays up but over night it goes down.... so the place was excellant and has given us a place to get it fixed and they will pay for it... so woohooo when I have a tyre that doesn't have the air come out overnight.
We had lunch and then after lunch we rode our bikes over to a friend of Corbin's from his class and went in their pool and had a couple of drinks. We seemed to get on really well with them both and think we might do it again. It feels so nice to go out where the parents and kids get on really well. Thought we might do it again!
So I got another bike ride in today Wohooo. I have 2 days to go until my first weigh in for this year and I am REALLY nervous. Usually when I feel like I have lost weight the scales say different so I am hoping like anything that the scales tell me what I want this week coming?????? oh hope I hope.
I am started to feel the problem with all the exercise I have been doing lately. I am tired and just want to go blah and it hasn't happened in almost 2 weeks. I need some time off! But I have not wanted not do the exercise which is a miracle for me that is for sure.
It is really good to see so many of my blogging friends coming back to posting (I have missed you all). I am back to work this week and sort of looking forward to it.
Anyway I am going now.
Love ya all
Chubbymum
Went back to where I brought my bike to say that the tire is leaking from the valve from the day we got it and we have to pump it up everyday and it stays up but over night it goes down.... so the place was excellant and has given us a place to get it fixed and they will pay for it... so woohooo when I have a tyre that doesn't have the air come out overnight.
We had lunch and then after lunch we rode our bikes over to a friend of Corbin's from his class and went in their pool and had a couple of drinks. We seemed to get on really well with them both and think we might do it again. It feels so nice to go out where the parents and kids get on really well. Thought we might do it again!
So I got another bike ride in today Wohooo. I have 2 days to go until my first weigh in for this year and I am REALLY nervous. Usually when I feel like I have lost weight the scales say different so I am hoping like anything that the scales tell me what I want this week coming?????? oh hope I hope.
I am started to feel the problem with all the exercise I have been doing lately. I am tired and just want to go blah and it hasn't happened in almost 2 weeks. I need some time off! But I have not wanted not do the exercise which is a miracle for me that is for sure.
It is really good to see so many of my blogging friends coming back to posting (I have missed you all). I am back to work this week and sort of looking forward to it.
Anyway I am going now.
Love ya all
Chubbymum
Saturday, 7 January 2006
Bet it is getting sickening
I bet it is getting boring listening to me about my biking.
I went on two rides today TWO TWO TWO. First one was with the boys to the dairy to get milk (instead of using that naughty car) saves us money on petrol too woohoooo. Then the next one was going to Chartwell with my 6 year old to the library where we rode there and read our magazines and books and got some to bring back with us and then came home and my lovely lovely hubby made us tomato tartlets from the WW recipe book woohooo!! they were pastry and tomato and a little bit of cheese with salami and basil pesto OMG OMG they were sooooo yummy I was impressed.
So my exercise was fantastic today and I haven't gotten bored with it yet because it is bringing me closer to my boys.
Back to the routine on Monday with going back to the gym and the youngest is back at creche on Tuesday and I am back at work on Wednesday but I am going to still keep up with my riding that is for sure.
Put up the pool this afternoon and we were relaxing in it this afternoon about 4pm... got a little bit sunburnt I think (feeling it but can't see it being burnt).... felt a little bit adventurous out there in my togs and before getting them off I was in shorts and a singlet (shock horror to me that is for sure) I haven't worn shorts and a singlet in years as I have never ever ever liked ither of them as it showed too much skin and I know for a while longer I will not be out in public like it until I am feeling better. But... it was a big step for me to do it at home first.
I can tell you that I wouldn't want to be a full time at home mum because it is great for these two weeks but I would go insane if it was any longer than that.... how do you full time mums do it? I feel like a vegetable and I haven't had a lot of contact with others to get out of my square..... certainly doesn't feel like it could be a good thing forever.... yes it is nice being at home with the kids part time but I have felt that when I am here full time I don't want to spend as much time with them as I do when I am part time (if that makes sense).
BTW Helena glad to see you are putting yourself out there girl!!! You are an inspiration to me! You are a rock!! I am glad others can get to know you and benefit too! ;-)
Anyway I might come along later to update more if I can
BYEEEE
Love Chubbymum
I went on two rides today TWO TWO TWO. First one was with the boys to the dairy to get milk (instead of using that naughty car) saves us money on petrol too woohoooo. Then the next one was going to Chartwell with my 6 year old to the library where we rode there and read our magazines and books and got some to bring back with us and then came home and my lovely lovely hubby made us tomato tartlets from the WW recipe book woohooo!! they were pastry and tomato and a little bit of cheese with salami and basil pesto OMG OMG they were sooooo yummy I was impressed.
So my exercise was fantastic today and I haven't gotten bored with it yet because it is bringing me closer to my boys.
Back to the routine on Monday with going back to the gym and the youngest is back at creche on Tuesday and I am back at work on Wednesday but I am going to still keep up with my riding that is for sure.
Put up the pool this afternoon and we were relaxing in it this afternoon about 4pm... got a little bit sunburnt I think (feeling it but can't see it being burnt).... felt a little bit adventurous out there in my togs and before getting them off I was in shorts and a singlet (shock horror to me that is for sure) I haven't worn shorts and a singlet in years as I have never ever ever liked ither of them as it showed too much skin and I know for a while longer I will not be out in public like it until I am feeling better. But... it was a big step for me to do it at home first.
I can tell you that I wouldn't want to be a full time at home mum because it is great for these two weeks but I would go insane if it was any longer than that.... how do you full time mums do it? I feel like a vegetable and I haven't had a lot of contact with others to get out of my square..... certainly doesn't feel like it could be a good thing forever.... yes it is nice being at home with the kids part time but I have felt that when I am here full time I don't want to spend as much time with them as I do when I am part time (if that makes sense).
BTW Helena glad to see you are putting yourself out there girl!!! You are an inspiration to me! You are a rock!! I am glad others can get to know you and benefit too! ;-)
Anyway I might come along later to update more if I can
BYEEEE
Love Chubbymum
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