29 Dec Saturday and 30 Dec Sunday 2007

Saturday

Ok so I weighed in today:

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Weight last week: 118.9

Weight this week: 119.2 kgs

Loss/Gain: Gain 300 grams

Total loss from WW: 35.5 kgs

Total loss from start: 40.8 kgs

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We were supposed to be going to go Rock Climbing today but it didn't happen because we went for a walk around the lake (what a beautiful day it was) and then the boys had a choice of going Rock Climbing after the walk or going on the water bikes and OMG Corbin has been bugging us about the Water bikes for at least a year that we finally got him on them.

They had so much fun. I didn't go because I was taking the photos chicken aren't I.... (I think it was because I was scared they wouldn't have a life jacket that would fit me.... still in the 160kilo mind frame still I think).

I did 9,860 steps today and felt great for it because my normal steps suck at like 5,000 to 7,000 steps a day.

I am tracking again and I am happy that I have only gained 300 grams over this week but that doesn't mean it isn't going to show up more of a gain next week as my body is a weird thing.

So anyway back to the walk around the lake... it was cool because the boys took their digital cameras and were having fun taking photos with me wohooooo... here are some photos for ya.

We had a great BBQ at home that night... what wonderful weather we have had in the last couple of days.

Sunday

So we went to my MIL birthday thingy and we were expecting to out to lunch in town but the Brother in law's fiancee decided in all her glory that we wouldn't go out to lunch but we would go for a picnic which was fine if I didn't have the boys all dressed up. It was a great idea if they could make up their minds... they changed their minds like you wouldn't believe before deciding 15 minutes before we were to go.

Got to the gardens and it was nice weather and really nice where they picked out where to sit and we got MIL to open the presents and she was showing off the clock I made for her to BIL fiancee and she said "Oh" and that was it... fine I thought.

Then the whole time she was raarking up Quinn so he got in trouble because as a 6 year old he doesn't know when to quit and then Corbin got cake all down his new shirt and she laughed and then the subject of kids came up and I said "I can't wait to see what your kids are like because you hype up mine and then take off" OH dear am I getting brazen he he he and then MIL said "the twins don't you mean" then MIL said "when you babysit you can do the same thing to her kids" I wasn't thinking and said "I won't be babysitting" oops... but they have never babysitted for me... and the only time the BIL has taken the boys was when Jeremy and I were away for the weekend for about 2 hours so why the hell would I be babysitting for them??? tell me that.

OHHHH and then MIL went on about not contacting us in the last couple of days because she was scared that I would guess that they were engaged OMG... and said to me "so what do you think" with a grin on my face (screaming inside) I said "Oh yeah good aye!" my MIL was sooo excited. On the way home in the car I said to Jeremy "bloody hell I got so much crap when we got engaged and she wasn't that happy or excited as she was with your brothers engagement.."

I shouldn't be against them... I shouldn't feel like that but I have been with Jeremy for 18 years and in those 18 years the last 3 have been the only years that I haven't felt like she hated me... and all of a sudden this girl comes on the scene and she is the bees knees... it hurts.. it sooo hurts.. you wouldn't believe what my MIL has done to me over the years (yes I know some of you are going to say Get over it and you can't change it and bla bla bla but this blog is somewhere where I have to get the frustrations out)... anyway.... my MIL asked what Jeremy wanted for his birthday one year and I said that he wanted to go and see this stage show and I was going to go and get him and I tickets to go and see it... she said.. can I get them... I said yes well..... the bitch went and got a ticket for Jeremy and his brother and (KNOWING that they were allocated seats) didn't get me one... so I missed out on it and Jeremy couldn't work out why I was sooo unhappy at the time because I didn't make a scene as we were at someone elses house... but later on I went out to the front of the house and burst out in tears at what this woman had done. Why did she make my life such hell... am I such a nasty bitch?

I have fought the last 18 years to have what I have with my MIL and this bitch comes along and she is extatic... yet she has made her son quit his job to go on a holiday and use all his savings for it and has nothing to his name... yet I put Jeremy through school while I worked as she didn't have enough money to help him and he lived with me free and I am the one that has saved our butts off so we can have a great house and home and family and now am made to feel quilty like I shouldn't be working part time as her poor son is working hard.

I hate the fact that my BIL being the youngest is treated differently and better and worshiped and I don't even think he realises it. I bet he didn't even get her a birthday present stating that they couldn't afford it.... when they went and brought a fucken laptop only a day ago....

This afternoon was great I had 10 minutes out in the sun as I hate my fat sausage legs being so white so I am giving 10 minutes a day in the sun to make them not look so white and pale he he he and then spent the afternoon learning how to make some necklaces (will put a picture up when I finish it) and then doing some scrapbooking brag books while the boys were playing with the hose outside and Jeremy reading outside and mum as usual in bed because she doesn't sleep at night... instead bangs doors and kitchen things while we try to get to sleep.

I am on holiday and feel like I need a holiday away from my family today....

I do love my family but I have only had a week and getting to the stage where I am getting sick of screaming at them to stop fighting or screaming or just STOP!!!! and I am losing my patience...

And for a mother that is moody and slams things down because she can't say what she is thinking... or as she did this morning... blames Corbin because yesterday she gave him her rings to put in her room and today she can't find them but my mother isn't remembering things and so after a half an hour of trying to help her find her rings.

Everytime I went to go in her bag she said she has looked in there.... I went back in to her room and said "have you found the rings?" she said "Yes they were in my bag" and I said (turning Corbin to face her)... "haven't you got something to say to Corbin?" meaning aren't you going to say sorry?? and she said "I didn't blame him" both Corbin and I left the room and I said as I left "what a child" Man that pissed me off because she expects others to say sorry but she can't say it to her grandson.

Need to get out with some friends....

Friends away.....

Friends online are mostly away.....

NOT good!!!!

K... frustrations are out and now I am going to do my Life Journal maybe that will make me feel better.

Chubbymum

Doodling

Paget seems better today but we still haven't received the results from the Vet yet so who knows what is going to happen. He is cuddling up with us and being a little bit more normal than he was a day a go so I will keep you all posted.

So I have been using my drawing tablet to do some tutuing in the last day... been really busy or I would have done more... he he he so here it is. It is hard to get used to drawing on the side and it turning up on the screen instead of where I am drawing.So today we got up and said to ourselves that we have to get back in to it. I did take a sneaky peak at the scales because I know I have gained but didn't know how much... and it wasn't as bad as I thought but it wasn't good either but that is fine as long as Saturday is the start of my tracking and gettting back in to it.

So we got us (as I was saying he he he) and we went to the gym and I ran my big backside off on the treadmill and also did the rower and sit ups and arms... felt good at the time but feeling buggered now he he he. We are also going tomorrow morning as well... gotta do this!! Want to be my hubby's weight by at least my birthday and he is 103 kilos... (assuming I will be around 119.9 he he kilos) then I have about 17 kilos to go.... that is 500 grams a week I have to lose to get there... that is doable... if I stick to the plan and track..

So by Xmas next year I will be under 100 kilos... it has to happen.

Love ya all

OHHHH and finished my MIL clock so will take some photos and post it... sooo much fun being creative.. Also started my Art Journal too... it is sooo way out and isn't pretty but it feels great.

Chubbymum

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Awards!!!

OMG OMG OMG

I have had just a great honour given to me from Lyn it is the following

Thank you Lyn you had me crying with your words and as I said on your comment my hubby was looking at me all concerned on why I was crying. I feel the same way and so wished you lived closer.

I'm passing this onto a couple of friends and if you have already received them well... shows ya that you are special then aye.

Lyn for the emails and for the listening when I have needed it and for the fact that when we do get together it is like we have known each other for years and we can just sit in a room and we don't have to say anything or talk but just know we are there... that is the great thing about our friendship... just being.

Janene... OMG girl you have kept me on track in the last couple of months and being my email buddy has been a life saver because without you I would have eaten us out of house and home. Our chats everyday are great and also the way that you can ALWAYS find the good in everything... You inspire me to keep going.

Leenie... Girl without reading your blog 3 years ago I wouldn't be here today... without your calm approach to life and weight loss I think I would have gone insane... you are sooo funny too and amazing.. words can't explain how you inspire me to keep going because if you can do it so can I. Your generosity is beyond what I have come across too... and we have the same taste in clothes... lucky for me but not so much for you he he he.. Thank you!!

Rachel... Feels like you have my life sometimes..... meaning I read your blog about your boys and I feel as if you know me... or you are me with our families. I enjoy reading your blog and I am really glad that I met you... but he he he still don't think I will let you drink when we go out anymore he he MWAHH girl...

Lee-Anne... You hun are amazingly caring, funny, sweet, and so so so many things I can't even start here or I will be here forever. Thank you... thank you for being there for my birthday... Thank you for being you!! Thank you for our dinners out... can't wait to see how beautiful you are at your wedding next year... you are just adorable.

There are many many many more of you who inspire me too and I am sorry if I didn't mention you but you all know that if I am reading you YOU mean the world to me.

Went to the gym this morning YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

I have been avoiding the gym... a little bored I think maybe or that I don't like going by myself on a Friday morning.... I do miss going with Kris... not that I miss her but it didn't seem like such a chore when I had someone to go with and someone that I didn't have to compete with exercise wise ya know... sigh... but I don't wanna go back there but it is a little lonely.

Was proud of myself getting back there and felt better for it that is for sure.

The rest of the morning was making some Xmas cards and then had a lovely pampering shower did the face mask etc etc and then dropped mum off in town to shop while Jero and I went to the bank... I always feel that I am some naughty school girl when we go to the bank he he he to borrow... but anyway.. it was fantastic.

Got money for the caravan and the concrete and extra to pay off the credit card and NEVER have a bigger limit again he he he..

Feeling great as it was approved on the spot he he he and then went over some insurance things because I keep telling Jero that we are paying too much for things... so we have a lot of quotes to look over tonight and I think we are going to save some money woohooooooo soooo pleased.

So went in at 12 and came out at 2.15 arghhhhh and had enough time to go to the sushi place (oops after I picked up my mum an hour later oops) and then ate my sushi in the car while waiting for school to finish...

Decided tonight we would drop off mum at bingo and do the groceries with the boys so that our whole weekend wasn't taken up by grocery shopping (as I hate it with a passion). It was great to get it finished.

Plan for this weekend is to go to the gym both Saturday and Sunday morning to get back in to the routine of exercise... I get soooo moody when I haven't had enough exercise and so I have to stop putting it off.

OMG OMG OMG I have to stop pissing around with this weight loss.... I have to get back in to the exercise as I am in the swing of tracking.... just need to get to it now...

Chubbymum

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Roller Skating

Just came back from my 15 minute walk in my morning tea break and I have sweat on my chest OMG OMG... as you guys know I don't sweat much and if I do woohooooo means I worked really really hard.

What beautiful weather it is out there.. ho hum to be stuck in this office apart from breaks though aye.

I did another page of scrapbooking yesterday to show you what we did Sunday morning.

See Helena... I know it has taken me a while to go again but I told ya I would he he he.

Tahlia Rose's (Quinn's girlfriend) mother Tracey Lark asked me if Quinn and also the rest of us would like to go Roller Skating so we did. Corbin didn't go as he was at Lachlan's and went to the park etc with him (boy from down the road that visits his Grandparents).We had a lot of fun. It was fantastic!!! Sweated so much. Quinn was soo wiggly and was having fun and said he wants to come back again and again. I think we will go back again he he.

I am sooo happy with my loss this week.. going to try and do the same thing this week and keep to it and track and drink that bloody water that I hate so much.

I know I lost 1.2 but as I have always said it isn't realistic for me to expect that every week so I am aiming for 500grams this week and if I lose more woohooo and if I don't loose enough woohoo as well because I am not going to gain all my weight back and it will take me time.

So this week.... gonna lose some more he he.

Only 5 weeks till XMAS OMG... roll on I say. Only 1 present to get for J's Dad and Step mum and that will be it.

Chubbymum

Great loss this week

I have been feeling soooo much better since going away this weekend.

Weighed in on Saturday and was 120.7 (ouch) because in the last couple of weeks I have been in a funk... as you all know because I stopped blogging once again...

So I have been tracking properly since Monday and I think by Saturday I will have a good loss woohooo.

Back on track. I think after a couple of months of tracking I just tend to go in to this funk and as long as I get back on the horse as they say then that is fine with me... afterall it isn't a race.

I want to fit in to a nice outfit for Lee-Anne's wedding and I refuse to look like a frump.... so that is my goal for now. Not sure of a size just that I will be smaller than 120.7... so there you have it.

Bloody raining here today so didn't go for my walk at morning tea... can't sit at desk being wet today... will try and go to the gym tonight.

The boys have milo cricket today after school... I am going for the first 10 minutes then I am going to leave and have a coffee at the coffee shop to have some time for me I think... and then go and pick them up. A lot of the parents seem to just leave them and come back... but will see how I feel at the time.

I am really getting in to my digital scrapbooking at the moment and Kate and I have got a website that we are doing quickpages and other things that we design put on the site so others can download and have a go... so if you wanna try go to www.kiwiscraps.blogspot.com and see what we have done so far... I am enjoying it. Also I have done a couple more pages on my own digital scrapbook site too if ya wanna have a look.

My mums birthday is on the 26th November so I am also in the process of doing a little digital scrapbook for her to carry around to show people too... it is going to be about the family and I am going to print them and put them in this lovely little album I brought a couple of years ago but haven't used it as it is soooo pretty I just have it on show he he he silly aye.

The boys are getting invested tomorrow night at keas (scouts) and so I have to go and get their shirts for the night... OMG it costs $90 (EACH) a year for scouts that is $180 a year for me and then on top of that the shirts and then the outings bloody hell..... expensive or what. I am excited for them to be doing it but bloody hell that is a lot of money.

Anyway better get some work done.

Chubbymum

Too fast!!

It went too fast!!!

Today went too fast!!!

Walked the boys to school and did the spelling with the 5 year olds and before school started I started playing a game with about 4 kids called Chinese Whispers and the next time I looked the whole 25 kids were there playing he he he and the mothers asked if I wanted to look after their kids after school he he he he NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I enjoy not having the responsibility just like having fun.

After doing the spelling I went for a walk and got some sushi on the way home and then took mum out to get a present for Quinn for his 6th birthday in 2 weeks. She got him a go cart he he he and it was $150 but was marked down to $49 woohooooo so why not aye and the both boys would get the benefit out of it.

Got home and it was time to pick up the boys OMG did the time go fast or what.

Didn't do too much other than the chores and the homework with the kids... how boring is that.

I am feeling much happier with aiming for the 500 grams a week at the moment. I still have something to aim for but not feeling like it is overbearing.

Worked out that I could be at 111 by the end of the year and that suits me fine.... I would LOVE to lose more and if that happens woohooo but I want to be realistic for my track record and not be unrealistic and ruin it for me.

Brought myself some new short trackies for the gym and I also brought a singlet arghhhhh (not for the gym as I don't like my bingo wings he he he).

Going out in the weekend to buy myself some new sneakers and they are going to be running and walking sneakers because I am going to start slowly training to run. I have been enjoying the jogging (now and then that I do) and I really want to work out how I can do this. I am not sure how to start or what techniques or where but I think I have to try it out for my sake. The only problem I have is people watching me. I wasn't so bad when I was jogging at the park where I knew people weren't around so I might go there and do that too.

I applied for my leave yesterday and got approved. I have a week in October, 3 weeks in December and 2 weeks Jan/Feb woohoooo looking forward to it.

Chubbymum

Thursday, Friday and Saturday

Not been feeling well in the last two days.

Tired of the kids... had enough of their fighting and moaning... want them to go back to school.

I think the cold that is going around all of you and my family is now creeping up on me... grrrr.... have a sore throat and headache and feeling really heavy ya know...

Even though I haven't been feeling well I did have a good day yesterday. My friend and her kids and my kids went indoor rock climbing and the boys had sooo much fun. We were there for about 2 hours and it was worth the $11 each.

It was a lot of un. My mum came with us and took some of the photos and I wasn't upset about this photo like I would normally be. I don't think I look as bad as I used to think... so that was a positive just there.

Wow how the time went really fast. The kids enjoyed it and I would take them again and it got them some exercise.

We then went back to my friends place for coffee and took look at the photos we took.

Friday was a lost day for me as I haven't been feeling well and had huge headaches and sore throats. My mum let me sleep in in the morning till 9am but it wasn't long enough and at 9am the boys were bouncing up the stairs wanting to play OMG OMG wish that the school holidays would hurry up and finish. So they watched a DVD up in our room while I tried my hardest to get some sleep.

My aunt that had the stroke phoned mum at 9.30 and they were talking and I got on the phone and she burst into tears. Her words were slurred and she was crying because it was soooo hard to try and talk. She was really good when talking to mum as she didn't want her to know how she was feeling. My cousin got on the phone and said that she was taking it better than expect and that they found a clot in her brain. I didn't know what to say and tears started to well up in my eyes. We are so far away and couldn't help at all... it is just not right. But at least she phoned so my mum could relax a little.

So about 11am I got out of bed and went downstairs and decided to have my lunch before we went out to the library to take the books back. It was the only place I could think of that we could go and the boys would be quiet and I could just sit because I was feeling like crap.... well they got restless and so when we got home I got them on their bikes and we went and got some apple muffins (little ones) and took it over to a friends place to have coffee... I didn't have any of them but I needed to get out and apparently she needed someone to talk to. Her name is Sherryl and things have been getting on top of her lately. OMG I seem to be attracting people with problems lately. Hubby said that it is because I am a good listener... maybe I should have done the lifestyle course like I said at the start of the year. Hmmm still thinking about it.

I have been really slack with my blogging lately... I don't really know what to say on my blog lately...

I have been on this website called www.walkingwithattitude.com and I have been on another website to get more support as I am needing more support than my blog lately because I don't want to go back to the fat person. But I am not happy all the time and I used to be able to say on here but haven't felt like I could in the last couple of weeks...

I know I haven't been losing lots each week but I am losing and in 5 weeks since leaving Weight Watchers I have only gained once and that was only 100 grams. I have lost 1.3kilos in 5 weeks and others can loose that in 1 week but for me... that is still a loss and I am not gaining... it is all good. I get frustrated sometimes when others loose more than me and I have to cope with that... it is the hardest thing I have ever done in my life but I can't go back to the old ways.

Saturday

Got up at 8.30 and had breakfast with the kids... I love weekends where we sit and have breakfast together it is nice to chat. Then we got the car ready for going grocery shopping and on the way decided to take the boys to the lake so I could walk around it. What a glorious day weather wise out there. I had my head phones on and it took me 35 minutes to get around it. When I first started walking around the lake it took me 55 minutes so I have improved soooo much.

While I was doing that hubby and the kids were at the playground. We then went and got our groceries and then came home to make homemade nachos for lunch yummmmmmy...

Hubby took me out to get a basket for my bike and then we went for a bike ride to my friend Tania's and around exploring little paths... it was great we went 8.5 kilometres it was a great ride.

Tonight I am spending most of my time on invitations for the expo... it is only one week till I will be there and I am sooo nervous and not really wanting to do it but I know I have to... he he he

Tomorrow mornign I am taking the boys to the gardens where What Now is going to be... so we have to get up at 7am and it is on till 10am OMG that is soooo early.. am I a sucker or what... ??? he he he

Anyway

Good night
Chubbymum

Big day

Was nervous all weekend about Monday at work. I was meeting my new bosses for the first time.... not too sure if you all know what I do..... but here goes.

I am a financial administrator for 10 creches in the Waikato and I do it from one creche in Hamilton... anyway I have had in the last 2 years 4 bosses and I have only ever met one of them and that was the first one OMG... and they all reside up in Auckland...

So paranoid me was worried when the big big boss said her and my new boss were coming down on the Monday and are we ok with that... so my mind started thinking OMG they are going to make my job redundant bla bla bla but no it was really informative and I was quite bossy he he he well maybe not bossy but I said what I thought (in a diplomatic way he he) said I haven't had a pay rise and I went from doing the accounts for one creche to 7 and I always get my job done and no complaints so she is looking in to that WOHOOOOO.

Also said that I haven't been on any courses and she said well they are organising for all of the adminstrators from the whole of NZ to get together for a couple of nights down in Wellington or Auckland Woohooo bloody woohooo and she said it isn't all about the work but going out for dinner and having some fun so that is fantastic. I felt soooo much more relaxed after that.

So finally after two years I meet a boss instead of chatting over the phone or on email.

So my day was pretty good and then.......

I went to pick up the kids from school and I was driving in and I saw this lady sitting in her car and I thought to myself I know her (it was pissing down with rain) and so I shouted out Tracy and she looked at me strange and then she looked at her mother sitting in the other seat and said something and then just kept looking at me.... and then she clicked. I sat in the back seat talking and about 10 minutes later she said OMG I have to tell you when you shouted my name I couldn't work out who the hell you were and it took me until you sat in the car to realise who you were you have lost a lot of weight and look fantastic... OMG you could have pushed me with your little finger and I would have flown he he he it was great to have someone that hasn't seen me in a while to give me a compliment like that.

So I was on high...... until I got to my son's class and he was under the table hiding while everyone was in a circle doing their reflection at the end of the day. I didn't know what was happening so at the end when the bell went the teacher came over to me (and Corbin ran out the door) and said that he has been acting quite strange in the last week and he hasn't been his bubbly self and doesn't want to do things in reflection time and is acting not himself and she was worried (as she really likes Corbin).... so I said I would try and find out. So I had a good chat to him (took a while for him to tell me) and he said he was feeling pressured to get his literature done and he is struggling and that if he doesn't get it done then he isn't allowed to do some of the fun things on the last day of term... he said it was hard and sometimes people think I can do something but he finds it difficult...

So I will have to see what we can do to ask the teacher if we as parents can help him get back on track with the literature at home or something as he isn't liking the pressure of it.... (I know he isn't a child that mucks around so it can't be that he wasn't foccussed).

Then when we got home he wouldn't get out of the car and said he wanted to sit and think... so I let him and then a few minutes later I went back and he was crying and so I asked him what was the problem and he said that his friend Cathan is being mean to him and not wanting to sit with him and making him feel terrible. I said to him did he ask him why? he said no.... I said that friends don't treat friends like that and that if he wasn't going to be nice then he needs to go and find someone that will treat him with respect (and he said I don't understand that word) I said that someone that treats you like you would treat them and is nice to you. He looked at me and said yes. I said that you have plenty of friends and that Cathan is missing out on a wonderful friendship and that is his loss.

I mean what else do you say aye?

I hate seeing him go through this... it isn't fair that some kids can make friends and stay with them and my son wants so much to be friends and can't manage to find a nice friend that treats him right. My heart went out to him. I want him to have a best friend but Cathan isn't the one.... he can be a nasty child and goes with the people that can get him something or that is rich with lots of toys etc... it isn't something I want my child being like that is for sure.

So I said to Corbin that in the school holidays we will get some different boys from his class over and do some fun things with them... so he said he would get some phone numbers today so I can talk to the parents.

Anyway I better get on with my work.

P.S I am feeling really good about this weigh in tomorrow morning... wohoooo

Love Chubbymum

Weekend....

Well things are going well for the Wedding Expo... I am still stressing heaps but I am getting there.

I did a really really nice elegant invitation set in the weekend and was sooo proud of it. I am going more for the black and white invites and have to get out of that and try some funky ones but for now I am enjoying the designing he he he.

On Saturday took the boys to soccer and it poured down with rain... Corbin's team lost and Quinn's team won but they were both close games and Corbin's team didn't have subs for the day as a couple of kids didn't turn up... not suprising really as those parents always wimp out on the rainy days and it bugs the hell out of me because when you go in to a team you should teach your children that you stick to it because you made a committment... grrrr hate parents like that.

Came home and my mother in law was over for lunch and we had a really nice chicken soup with hot bread and it was soooo yummmy.

I went to Tania's florist shop to help her out from 2pm till 5.30 to dress up the window. It looks sooo beautiful. We have a round table in the window with the table settings with my wine bottle, menu's, place names and little chocolate boxes and it looks soooo beautiful and flowy... the colour scheme was mainly white and a pale green... sooo beautiful... I was sooo proud of my table settings. Got a little tired of how bossy Tania was and the other lady helping us said to me when Tania wasn't there "take 10 deep breaths" OMG I could have strangled her but hey that is life aye...

Hubby was really good with the kids this weekend and letting me be in my study with the heater to get these invites done and I was sooo happy with him for helping me out like that.

Took a computer over to my friend that has been going through hell because other half left them and set up broadband for them... I got a wonderful email later to thank me because it really lifted the kids spirits... I was happy to do it for them that is for sure.

The ex moved out like 5 weeks ago and now he is living with the woman he left her for and she has 2 kids, 10 year old and a 12 year old and the 12 year old is a child in his class OMG I thought that was against the law or frowned on anyway. He brought a house with this lady and has brought a brand new car OMG it really pisses me off that he did this so fast and was fighting with my friend to have the kids over for the day on Saturday to meet the new woman OMG 5 week relationship and he is going to fast for these kids... ASS... ok so I have that off my chest.

Corbin went to a birthday party on Sunday and they all went to see Shrek 3 the boys birthday party had 4 girls and 3 boys he he he that is soooo funny... he is a little bit of a ladies boy I think he he he.

I have been really relaxed with my food and how I am dealing with it in the last 2 weeks and last week I lost 200 grams and this week I think I am going to have the 400-500 gram loss... the scales are looking that way anyway. I am really happy with that.

I haven't been to a PT for 2 weeks now and I haven't missed them to tell the truth because everytime I see my trainer it makes me think of Kris and how she took Kris's word over mine (until she found out the truth that is). I have been talking to hubby and I said to him that I am giving up the PT's with Joy as I would rather have the money to go for our gym membership that is due this month coming so that I don't have to fork out 2 memberships all at once....

My main concern is losing the weight at the moment and not how fit I can be. I know there needs to be a balance and I am out walking and going to my kickboxing classes and that is enough for me at the moment. I did so much with the gym last year as you all know 9 things accomplished but it didn't help me lose the weight and I have to consider the weight first this year as I have to get this weight off. I do not want to go another year and only loose 5 kilos...

I do know that you are all going to say I need a balance of weight and cardio and I am going to achieve that but I don't have to pay $50 a week for a PT it is too expensive and I only work part time and we suffer with doing other things.

Anyway I better get some work done

What the F**K is wrong with me

A wake up call today...

Kris asked me to go to morning tea with her this morning and sitting across from the table it made me even more aware that I am glad I am not totally in her life anymore but ok with going to morning tea with her. She has finally got her shit together with her life but it made me anry too only because she now goes to my lean and has my trainer and it still pisses me off that she took over my trainer and my team (and I know I could go back but I don't want to spend any more time with her than a cup of coffee).

Also she has no way to cause trouble for me like she did over this blog... it felt great that my life is a mystery in that aspect. Plus I can still blog and she doesn't have a clue what I am writing it is great.

It is good that her life is going well and she is feeling better but looking at her she has lost 45 kilos and looks sick... she is gaunt and look too skinny (not sure that that is the way to say it but not in a healthy way).... but it has made me aware that I am piss assing around and I am doing the right thing and not having nasty food but I have not in the last week worried about portions or food at all. I am happy that I am not obsessing but I am not happy that I am not losing it either... and really it is my own fault.

I gained 500 grams this week and to be fair we went out for lunch and I have had a little too much bread (which is my downfall) I haven't gone overboard but I could have had other options.

My portions suck... I am having the same as I have had since I started but I have lost 34 kilos so realistically I should be going down in size too as my stomach is not as big anymore ya know... and I haven't realised that until watching Downsize me last night. Too much of a good thing is not good.

I am sorry I haven't been around posting much lately but with trying to get everything up and running with the Wedding Expo (which is scaring me no end because I don't feel like my invites are good enough) and with also finishing a wedding at the moment for a customer I have been a little bit preoccupied. And Lee-Anne I am doing your invites at the moment too just want to have a couple of different options for you to look at ok.... I HAVE NOT FORGOTTEN YOU!!! MWAHHH.

Also looking forward to getting together at ChrisH house in August that is going to be soooo exciting and to be getting away for a weekend without kids is a good thing too Woohoooo... hopefully by then I will be able to afford to go down as well arghhhh.

Seeing Kris today has put the shit up me (sorry for the language today) and made me realise I can do both but I HAVE TO WANT TO... and ok I am not gaining as such because every second week I am losing etc but it has to stop!!!

So far my food today is:

Breakfast: Hubbards Fejoia Cereal, Mandarins, Bottle of water

Lunch: Chicken Salad

I am going out tonight with one of the kids friends parents to a show about How to raise boys and that will be great... can't wait... it will be good to go out with them without kids being around and just being us and they have two boys as well. OH an exciting I lead huh NOT he he he.

I need to have Leanne (from Downsize me) at my house telling me to stop being a silly bitch!!!

Anyway I will come on later but right now I have to go and do some more invites.

Love ya

Chubbymum

Tuesday... day off with hubby and no kids woohoo

Why is time going so fast.

I don't go back to work till Monday and my week off is going to fast already. I don't go back till Monday but I don't want to go back at all. I have been enjoying doing my Papaya business in the last couple of days.

Today got up (didn't wanna he he he too cold and raining) and Jeremy and I took the boys to school and went in their classrooms and saw their work and did things together until the bell went.

Then we took off for the gym and to be quite honest we got to the door and I said "don't really wanna be here" and so hubby smiled and turned to go out and I said "No we are here now" we went towards the main room and OMG you could feel the enthusiasm NOT and so I said to him let's go and do the tone class OMG OMG WHY DID I SAY THAT.... Liz was doing the class and OMG she worked us like a dog and I did running and weights and sit ups and thighs and butts and calves and tummies ACTUALLY everything in my body hurts big time..... arghhhhhh.

Went shopping afterwards for food and then shopping for papers for more invitations to make for the wedding expo (which is getting toooooooo close) and then came home and painted my picture frames for the expo while hubby made such a yummy lunch. We made pasta bows with the kids yesterday so there was some left and we cooked it with shredded chicken and mushrooms and hmmmm what a lovely dinner.

Another recipe we tried today was the Weight Watchers Chilli con-carne from the Really Contented Tummy cookbook and it was done with gravy beef instead of mince and it was the yummiest chilli ever and the boys loved it too.

Picked up the kids from school and took them out for a fluffy and we had a coffee for lunch today it was nice relaxing and talking with them and Corbin was reading his book for a while soooo cute.

I have been good with food this week but with my monthly things don't look good for the scales. I am not quite getting it... and have been talking with Jeremy about it because I can't understand why I am not losing as I am not eating anything that I shouldn't and I have been having ok portions and not as big as normal and I have also been doing exercise.

Maybe my body is sooo used to what I am doing that I am not losing weight.. or maybe it is because I am contented at the moment and I like spending time on my business and not totally focussing on the food. I can't quite understand where I want to be focussing at the moment. I want to loose weight and I want to do my business but I can't seem to focus on them both... quite upset about it...

Quite a good day but went too fast aye....

Love ya all
Chubbymum

Missing in action.

Wow I am slack this week aren't I..

Now why didn't any of you say Oi CM where the hell are ya huh!!!!

I haven't updated since Thursday.

I have been doing a wedding at the moment and sorting out things for the business.

I am also reading a book called "The Secret" and OMG it is an amazing book. Jaxx was thinking you might like this book heaps. Not sure why I thought that but if you ever get the chance to read do it aye.

I have been more relaxed with not going to WW in the last 2 weeks too and feeling like I am doing ok. I am not doing anything different really and I am not gaining... and I know for the first couple of weeks it is going to be interesting because I am trying to realise that I can do this without going to WW and that I know all I need to know just that I have to have the confidence to realise that I can do this....

I thought by now that the ladies at WW would have emailed as they usually do if I miss one session but I haven't heard anything in two weeks... which is upsetting in a way because... oh I don't know why just thought maybe they would care hmmmm.

We had visitors for the weekend and I have been on the phone to my friend that her other half left her and last night she talked for 2 hours and 15 minutes and I just let her because she is finding this really hard.

I have been feeling a little bad for siding with her and not with her other half... but he hasn't had the decency to even come over to tell us. She said that his mother turned up in the weekend and had a present and some broccili for her (late but she is always late) and then as she was going to the car my friend said his mother said "can you get G to phone me when he gets home" now my friend thought that things seemed a bit weird and she had to say 'look did you know that G moved out 2 weeks ago" OMG he didn't even tell his mum what was happening...

His kids are still crying themselves to sleep wondering why their dad doesn't love them. I can't believe he would do this... he has always made sure his kids came first always... I mean he really is a nice guy... it is like he has been hit over the head and his whole personality has changed ya know. My hubby can't work out what the problem is but is going to wait for G to contact him but he is not happy with how his friend is treating his kids at all...

It has been good for us though because we talk more about their situation and we are making sure that it doesn't happen to us and we are talking more and I am really happy with how things with us are going because of it. It makes you appreciate your life when you have friends go through this aye.

Well I have been sticking to the 2 V's a week and I thought it would kill me but so far it has been ok.

I am having smaller portions.... but I am doing more exercise and more weights so I think I will stay the same this week but that is ok... I am not gaining while I sort out what is best for me. I am really happy about this... because I am going to do this.

Busy busy day.

My day went tooooo fast!!!!

OMG I can't believe how fast my day went.... and I don't even think I did that much.

As usual on a Thursday morning I help out in Quinn's class and do their spelling for them all and that takes from 9am till 10.30am... and that is fun. I find it quite cute that 5 year olds say "Oh that is easy" when I give them a word and they get it completely wrong he he he too funny.

Quinn thinks he is sooo important when his mum is doing this for the class and the other kids talk about it... OMG small things amuse small minds he he he he.

I have been slack in the last week getting around to everyones blogs AND I AM TOTALLY SORRY FOR THAT so if I haven't commented it isn't because I don't love ya all just that I have not had a lot of time to read them but don't fear I will be catching up tonight.

So after that I got a phone call when I got home from Tania asking where the hell I was because I was supposed to be coming over to her florist shop to go over some magazines she had of invitations etc and having a coffee with her... OMG I forgot... but then again sometimes Tania thinks she asks me something and in the end she hasn't but it was in her mind he he he...

So I took my mum to the shopping mall and dropped her off there for a couple of hours while I ran around like a blue arsed fly he he he.

Went to Tania's shop and got there and she was sooo busy I ended up answering the phone and helping customers which was funny when I don't have a clue about floristry he he he but that is life... and then fixed a computer problem she had and had about 10 minutes looking at magazines with her before I had to go. Well that seemed like a waste of time he he.

Went to pay for my banner for the expo (Tania got us a really good deal... it usually costs $250 because I phoned and asked how much a couple of weeks ago) and since Tania has made an impression on the guy he is charging us $50 so I can't say no to that. So anyway I got there and he looked quite grumpy and I thought OMG what have I got myself in to.

He took my disk that the designer did for me and then this guys said "OMG this guy is a fucken idiot" I just took a breath thinking OMG guy you have a customer here but in the end I could understand what he meant when he explained to me... the designer charged me $565 dollars and it took him 2 weeks to get it to me and the guy said I was jipped and he proceeded to show me that he did it in 10 minutes and then showed me other problems with what he did OMG I felt like an idiot but how am I supposed to know ya know. So he said to me "since you are Tania's friend I am going to redo all of these for no charge and give you a disk copy of it all" OMG I said Thank you Thank you and I will make sure I tell everyone I know that has a business how wonderful you are... and then after that we joked and teased and his wife is lovely too so it was quite a wonderful time to find a true wonderful businessman that isn't just after money ya know.

Then went to get my money off the lady I am doing the wedding invites on and hopefully I will finish that this weekend yayyyyyy...

Went and picked up mum from shopping and then we went out for coffee and finally lunch with the school ladies.

Picked up the boys and got their hair cuts and now back home... so my day has been really busy.

Lyn mentioned that she hasn't seen any before and now photos so I will endeavour to get hubby to do some photos over the weekend to show you guys the difference but...... if you guys go to my links on the side and go to chubbymum pictures you will find comparisions I have had in the past there. I must admit that last one taken there was September 2005 naughty naughty me he he he.

I am going to be getting on with the wedding invites tonight so I don't have the whole weekend doing this wedding but going to totally enjoy doing it. Plus I need to get that sample down to you Lee-Anne (smack hand).

I checked my weight this morning he he he and I know I shouldn't but it was 120.8 wohoooo bloody woohoooo... now I have to keep going this week and get more weight off. I am feeling less scared about the week knowing I don't go for weigh in on Tuesdays at WW... but if I start to feel lazy I am going to get my backside back to WW whether it be online or to a meeting because I am not giving up on the weight loss either ya know.

Anyway if I think of anything else later

Papaya ARGGHHHHHHHHHH

First day of 10 week challenge....
I haven't done too bad and I am feeling good about it and I am soooo greatfull that Celtic girl and I are doing it together and do you want to know the MOST WEIRDEST THING EVER... we both weighed in for the challenge and we both have a start weight of 121.6 he he he DO YOU NOT FIND THAT THE WEIRDEST THING EVERRRRRR??? Woohooo Celtic girl we are going to do it!!!

I must say that I had a tear in my eye reading Celtic Girls blog here today re the awards and what she wrote about me... I never knew I was one of the first blogs she ever read and OMG how she described me Nahhhh he he he I can't be that person.. I don't see myself as that person he he he... WOW (tear coming down my cheek)

Welcome Abba and I am sooo glad you are doing the 10 week challenge with Celtic girl and I... maybe us three should get our heads together on how we can keep each other motivated aye!!
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Yesterday...

Work was ok yesterday... it seemed more relaxed or something and I had plenty of time left to do little bits and pieces.

Went to the garden centre in the afternoon after work to see if they had any swamp plants because my mother in law gave us 2 caterpillars and a little branch of swamp plant but they had eaten it all and she didn't have more.... but they didn't have any and the boys had pocket money of $2 and they wanted to spend spend spend so I suppose it was better than spending it on lollies and they both brought a punnet of flowers each he he he cute aye.

After we saw Tania driving down the road so I texted her to see if she had an swamp plant and OMG she did so she gave me the whole tree as her caterpillars were getting eaten by praying mantis grrr so I took the plant and put our two caterpillars on it and now they are living happily ever after he he he can't wait till they go into a chrysllis.

Tania phoned me at work and said "are you doing anything on the 22nd July?" I said "ummmm No I don't think so" and she said "good I hope you have $250 as well" OMG I took a breath and said "What the hell for?".

She said "I have booked you and me in for the Wedding expo and we are going to share a stall" OMG OMG OMG that is when I freaked and said "I don't know if I can do that" she said "well too bad!!!"

I think I am too scared to do it!
I know I can do the invites just that it is like being judged and what if no one books me or wants to visit me?
Also how do I do a stall with my invites (or half a stall?)
How do I present my stuff and how do I present the stall???
OMG only 13 weeks until I have to have prices and sets of Wedding stuff.

So I called my friend that has just finished her studies in accounting and she came over last night and we went through all the stuff about GST and if it was worth registering for GST etc but really in the long run until I earn $40,000 or over it isn't worth it just yet. But she has shown me ways to claim for things and to do my tax returns.

So I went this morning and got a business bank account and a business manager that will help me with anything I need.

I got a record book for my mileage and a Calendar for my wall.

I felt empowered and sooooo happy that finally I think this is going to BE THE RIGHT thing for me and this is the business I am going to succeed in and if it takes years I don't care because it is something creative and I am happy doing it.

So I have worked out a 13 week plan to get things done for the Wedding Expo woohooooo, and I have to keep to it so I can get this right. I am a Virgo can anyone tell he he he?

I weighed myself again this morning (ok I am not addicted just wanting to keep myself on track) and I weighed at home at 121.1 kilos (equivelant to WW 120.3 kilos) woohooooo. Now I have to just keep going down in the right direction because I don't want to go back to feeling bad about myself.

Took the boys to a 2 hour holiday program at the gym this morning so that I could go and get all my stuff done like business bank account and stuff and they just enjoy it and it doesn't cost me anything because hubby and I are members so 2 hours a week in the holiday's is fanbloodytastic.

Last night when my friend Denise came over to talk about GST we asked her for dinner and the boys were on their best behaviour and then didn't have to be asked and they got their showers (remembering that they are 5 and 7 years old) and they cleaned their teeth and cleared the table and set the table and went to bed and read their books before lights out and they didn't disturb us by getting out of the bed OMG I was soooo proud of them (and was wondering where my boys were he he he)

So this morning hubby and I said to the boys that we were really happy with how wonderful they were last night and how they made us proud and I treated them today. Ice Age 2 was on sale for $19 so I went and brought that and brought a cake mix so that they could cook a cake and have for afternoon tea and watch the DVD... (which is what they are doing now while I update my blog he he he).

Kris phoned me while I was on my computer yesterday and OMG she talked for 45 minutes on the phone and I just said ah yes ah and by the end of it OMG what was I thinking why didn't I just say piss off? Whooppeee she has gotten her life together and worked out this and that... well if she would have listened to her friends a year ago then there wouldn't be a problem.... yep yep yep finally over her... yep yep yep sad sad sad person.

Love ya
Chubbymum
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Today's Food:

Breakfast: English Muffin, Chicken Bacon, Egg
Lunch: English Muffin, Chicken Bacon
(hmmmm just wanted another one for lunch sue me he he)
Dinner: Corned beef, Potatoe, Carrot, Cauliflour, String Beans
Snack: 5 Marshmellows
Exercise: Walked 40 minutes with boys around the block

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Yesterday's Food:

Breakfast: 2 Sandwich Bread, Chicken
Lunch: Vogel Bread, Chicken, Pickle, Lettuce
Dinner: Chicken Tikka (homemade), Rice, Beans
Snack: Chocolate Brownie, V (went out for morning tea and this is my one treat this week).
I am going to let myself have one treat a week as I need to have a treat.
Exercise: Walked 40 minutes with boys around the block

Monday - Thinking a lot

I have been thinking a lot this weekend and reading more weight loss stuff so that I can get my motivation back up and running.

I so want Helena's book and I am going to save up to get it because I need the lots of motivation.

So anyway my 10 week challenge is now me and Celtic Girl woohoooo I am not alone doing this and I think that motivates me more because I have to be accountable now.

As you all know I gained like 2 kilos (unofficially over Easter OMG ) My homes scales last week said 124.4 OMG I was sooo upset with that.. and so I set myself this challenge to get my new wardrobe in 10 weeks and this morning I weighed myself and I DRUM ROLL PLEASE... 121.7 OMG that is soooooooo fantastic. I have watched what I ate and just ate when I wanted to and not that I have to have this and that and snacks etc... it has been better with food.

I suppose in a way having a sore back I wasn't concentrating on food all the time and wanting wanting wanting food so that made a huge difference.

My rings are starting to annoy me too... so maybe I was holding a lot of water or something because now I think I might have to go and get my rings taken in... for fear that they are going to fall off... grrrr more money.

My old boss Nikki came in to work this morning and I told her about Papaya and she is going to get me to do her Dad's 60th birthday invites and she also wants me to do her invites for her 10th Anniversary with her other half for next year so I have two more to do OMG I think I can do this!

I brought The New Zealand Bride magazine too and once I have done a couple of jobs on Papaya and got the website up and running then I am going to put an advertisement in the magazine to get more work because I think I am going to do this... I think it is going to work. It might get to the stage that I hire someone to help me do them he he he now I am getting ahead of myself aye.

Thanks Anne for your advice... I am meeting with a friend this week as she is an accountant and seeing what we she suggests.

Thanks Leenie I had looked at the website before I wrote my post yesterday but I wanted it to be a little more indept because I didn't know what to choose for a couple of things as I have never set up a business etc and if I make the wrong choice re invoicing etc then I have to apply to change and I want to get it right the first time.

Got a compliment from a girl at work today asking if I had lost weight as I am looking fantastic and she wanted to tell me last week (now this girl doesn't say boo to me at work she is really quiet). I felt fantastic. I think I need those compliments to keep me going sometimes (just like Anne had mentioned a couple of posts ago and when it stops then you wonder if what you are doing is noticeable.)

I have my appointment with my physio tonight so I hope it goes just as well as last week as my back has been better since then.. not 100% but much better.

Today's Food:

Breakfast: 3 Weetbix and 2 Vogel
(decided to put more food into my breakfast and see how it goes this week)
Lunch: Left over casserole
Dinner: 4 Burgen Bread, snitzel, tomato, lettuce
Water: 2 Bottles Water
Too much bread today.. at least it was Burgen etc but still no excuse.

What a day and it is only 1.30 in the avo

What a day already....

It is only 1.30 and I have had a full on morning.

Got up early and met Debbie at the storage units to help her move to her new house that she brought.... I couldn't lift anything but hubby could but I did unpack the kitchen so I felt useful and I got EXERCISE wohhooooo how frustrating to not be able to bend and walk and do normal things. I dropped a blanket and I couldn't even pick it up because bending with a sore calf, hamstring and back is impossible grrrr.

I was sweating like a pig though undoing boxes and putting dishes in the cupboards woohooo I found a way to exercise. I must admit though the standing was bad and sore but hey!!! I took a voltaren before going and had a V so I was happy. I am resting now but did do some shopping after helping Debbie.

I have my first wedding this year to do and so I went out to get the paper to do the invitations wohooooo. I am not making much on it but it is something and it is my business aye. I am quite proud of these invites because I designed them myself. I had another one in mind for her but she didn't want to go that way but it was different and I suppose I like different and out of the square.

OMG I want more weddings to do... going in to the stationery shops and buying paper and things was sooo much fun this morning. With the little extra I am making on this wedding I went and already spent it he he he only because I needed a way to display my invitations that I went and brought a lovely photo album that I can display them in.

I thought I might do it like a scrapbook so that they are presented well. I can't wait to have a go at doing it. I might take it camping next week and do it because with Tania there I am sure that she will be taking some form of craft with her. Or I might take my knitting he he he I am making a really nice autumn colour scarf for me (nice a fluffy) he he he.

I will take a photo of the album once I finish it.

OMG I can't believe my first wedding is happening. Even though this woman doesn't get married till October he he he.

I was thinking that I might get some sort of little present to put with the invitations when finished and paid for so that I tell the person how much I appreciate them using me for the wedding invite creator.... hmmmm so if anyone can think of any suggestions I would appreciate it. I was sort of going with something small like a little box with two heart chocolates in it all done up with ribbon or something. I don't want anything too big just a token of my appreciation ya know?

On the weight front I am not doing too bad... I have 1.2 (as mentioned soooo many times he he he) but with not doing exercise I am sooo hoping that I lose that this week I really really want to be at the 35 kilos and when I do hubby is going to do something romantic. I told him it didn't have to cost money but something nice for me and him to do etc on a date night. I mean I don't care if it is get a cooked chicken and go to the river ya know.

Anyway I am having my lunch now... will update later.

Love ya all
Chubbymum

Internet at home a dog

I have broad band and it is still a DOG!!!

OMG having major problems with it at the moment and it is driving me insane. It is faster to read blogs etc at work GEESH.

Today was an ok day... worked and nothing much else.

I did get a compliment today from a lady at school (who incidentally is a friend of Kris.. the one that Kris has been leaning on). Well anyway this lady said that she has been meaning to tell me for weeks... she said "you look fantastic! I bet you are feeling great!" OMG that was so nice of her I couldn't get over it.

She said that she had been over at Kris's all day and she is still depressed. I said "the woman needs a job and have said that all along" and she said the same thing to Kris today... so at least this other friend of Kris's isn't falling for it and telling her exactly what I have been saying.
Enough on that subject.. I was just soooo happy to get a compliment from someone I have only said hi to and not really had anything to do with it was nice.

Work was good. Got my new printer today and that was fantastic.

Had a long talk to my boss in Auckland and asked how flexible she was with the hours and she said she understands how hard it is with kids and with in reason we can negotiate my times so that is soooo good. So I am going to swap my Monday and Tuesday times so I can take Quinn to soccer so I am rapt with that.

There was a big email that came around to all of us today saying that the Directors of the creches didn't know but there will be a couple of changes and then she said "Don't panic" OMG who wouldn't panic when you put that word in there. I said to her I am panicking... she said that it just means the order that I do my work in will change and nothing much else so I am happy with that.. woohoooo. I thought the 1st of April would come and they would say well thanks but we don't need you anymore.. but after thinking on that.. they wouldn't give me a new printer (BRAND NEW HE HE) if they were going to get rid of me would they aye... woohooo.

Been so so so so good with my food today.

I have only eaten 19 points out of my 24 and feeling really full because I had lots of fruit and I had a chicken salad for lunch and I had a salady dinner with roast beef and lots of tomatoes and coleslaw and lettuce and beetroot... it was sooo healthy.

I have a feeling that tomorrow I will gain because to tell you the truth I have been slack.. I haven't felt like there was any motivation in me and people aren't talking about weight loss too much on the blogs so I wasn't getting much motivation to keep me going.

I have only got 21 kilos (that is if I haven't gained tomorrow) but anyway... 21.4 until I get under that 100 kilo mark... and I want that to happen this year everyone.. I really do!! The food is my problem! Exercise isn't the problem what so ever.

OHHHH I forgot to mention there is a huge ho ha going on at the gym now too. The guy that owns the gym doesn't want a lot of different trainers working there under different business names and so in all his glory has decided that there will only be one business and it won't be Joy's or Daniels or the other two trainers there but a couple that are there... so if Joy and the rest of them want to stay then they have to work under this other couples business.. WHAT AN ARSE the owner is... so Joy is finding another place to rent so she can start her personal training business. She can't poach us at all and has told that to us in no certain terms. But if we are to move in our own accord she can't do anything about that either. I can't wait till it is official and then I am going to give the owner a piece of my mind!!! because some good trainers are going and that isn't fair.

I don't want to give up Joy... I know there has been trouble in the last 4 months but I really feel like I achieve a lot in our personal training so we are going to see what happens and if she starts a gym with these other people then Jeremy and I are thinking of moving to it because finding someone that you connect with on the personal trainer front is really hard. So the Lean that was supposed to start tomorrow night has been put off for a couple of weeks until things settle down and she knows what is happening and she said if all else fails then she will be doing it from her garage.. and that is fine with me.

OHHHH am I feeling talkative tonight.

When Jeremy got home the kids, Jeremy and I went for a long bike ride and I chose a route that had lots of hills and then we went and played soccer in the field and then rode back... it was great because Corbin and I were trying to get the ball off each other and my heart rate was going up and Quinn was soooo enjoying kicking the ball and learning how to stop it. I enjoyed it so much and the boys asked if we could do it again tomorrow so obviously they enjoyed it too. Quinn used to hate going for bike rides with us until he got his training wheels off and now we can't keep him off it is great.

Lynise has put me on to a lovely lady that is doing Optifast and has been videoing it and so I got chatting by email to her today and she is lovely. So if you are reading Genelle welcome... I am not too sure if she wants me to put her link but if you do Genelle then please leave a comment and I will link it.

Ok.. so I am off to do some more invites he he he creative stuff again woohoo.

Love ya all

Mandz

P.S I have been thinking about moving all my stuff back to blogger? but private what do you guys think?

Kate does it cost to be with your blogging??? I need to find somewhere that I can be happy and it is ok here but I cannot seem to work out how to get a template that I like... and it be me... hmmm and there are some features I miss from blogger.

BYYYEEEEE

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Chris H wrote:
Mar 19, 2007 at 8:43 PM
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Phew girl, when you wanna yak you can! Now, as for Mike's hair... it's on Saturday's blog post I reckon...

Kateypie wrote:
Mar 19, 2007 at 9:01 PM
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Yeah it does cost, but for me it's well worth it. I've tried about 6 different blogging websites and by far it's the best one. I love it! We justified the cost by thinking about how it is my hobby & support - every day! So the cost isn't that much compared with some hobbies. You can do a free trial, and have a play around :-)

First Weigh In for Year

Jan 9, 2007 at 9:09 PM

My first weigh in for the year tonight.

I am pretty happy with it considering I set myself a limit of 2 kilo gain. I didn't want to gain but if I did then anything under 2 kilos is ok.

So I gained 1.7 kilos taking me to 123.5 OUCH but I am still over my 30 kilos lost so that is fanbloodytastic.

Debbie went with me tonight for her first night and she gained 3.3 kilos OMG she was pissed!! She knew she was going to gain but 3.3 just killed her.

To be quite honest she could loose that in a week or 3 where as if I gained that much it would take me months because I only lose an average of 500 grams a week.... so didn't feel too much sympathy for her tonight.. I know that sounds harsh but I get sooo frustrated when she can lose so much when we do exactly the same thing in exercise and food... and that is making me sound like a bitch!

I am not trying to sound like a bitch but I hate the way I really try and I get minimal and that isn't against Debbie at all as I adore her as my friend and love spending time with her just that I get frustrated as I try just as hard or even more and I can imagine you all have been in the same situation. It is so not against her as a person...it has taken me 2 years to lose 33 kilos and it took her 16 weeks to lose 15 kilos so I get a little frustrated even though she totally deserved to lose the weight!! TOTALLY.

Work today drove me insane and I worked from 7.30am to 5pm tonight as well as yesterday and I usually finish at 2.30 as idiots interferred with my job and now I am fixing the errors for about 400 children GOD that pisses me off! No communication just they decided to do something without consulting... I should make them sort out the problem but in the end they might stuff it up more than it is worth. I suppose I am getting overtime paid so hey!

I am getting SOOOOO much out of the Biggest Loser that is on everynight at the moment. It is motivating me like you wouldn't believe... wish things like that would be on more instead of all the crap on at the moment.

So my goal:::::::
By the end of February I want to be at 119 kilos!! I want to be out of the 120's FOREVER!!!!!!
So that is 3.6 in 7 weeks so that is 500 grams a week and if I lose more than 500 grams then that is a bonus.
I am going to do this!!
I am back to being FEISTY!!!

Good night everyone
LoveCM

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Rachel's wrote:
Jan 10, 2007 at 9:07 AM
1.7kgs is under your 2kgs you gave yourself over Xmas so GOOD GIRL.........LOL

That certainly is 2 long days at work for the start of a new year, I tried to sneak off early to go to the gym on Monday and got snapped by the Director (the big boy) of the bloody company.............typical!!!!
Oh well, at least it was for a good cause....hahaha.

I am also loving the Biggest Loser, what a hoot. I have missed a couple unfortunately but Mum has already seen it in Oz, so she is filling me in. Don't ya just wish someone would come and take us away to do the same thing and then we could just get on with living a happy, normal life?
Isn't Bob a lot shittier in this series? I always thought he was Mr Nice Guy and Jillian was the bitch but Bob hasn't been his lovely self this time.

Janine wrote:
Jan 10, 2007 at 10:51 AM
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Hey L,
Nice to read that you are motivated and going to kick butt this year. I always admre how much exercise you get in, youa re a gym machine.
Janine

Fat Queen wrote:
Jan 10, 2007 at 5:00 PM
Nothing wrong with being feisty! MOTIVATED is good :) Sorry your day at work was a hassle, but I guess that's why they CALL it work ;) Baby steps -- and NO comparing -- work at your OWN pace. Everyone's metabolism works differently...

Lee wrote:
Jan 11, 2007 at 1:45 AM
Is biggest loser on there already???...I can't wait till it starts here!!

Hippygal wrote:
Jan 11, 2007 at 8:01 AM
Very doable goals - I feel a bit guilty, because I am like Debbie, if I stick to the points properly and exercise 3-4 times a week, I can lose 1 kilo a week on average. I suppose I should count myself as lucky in that respect.

Chris H wrote:
Jan 11, 2007 at 10:46 AM
I know how you must be feeling about the slow loss, but remember, a loss is just that, A LOSS. I am sure you can get outta the 120's, so go for it. I have been thinking.... maybe in order to lose faster you need to try changing something in your routine... like change what you are eating, when you are eating it, have your main meal at lunchtime, don't eat a thing after say... 7pm, do a different exercise (our bodies get used to what we do all the time), try dropping the carbs a bit more, CHANGE AS MUCH AS YOU CAN.... and maybe that will help. It has for me and heaps of others.... good luck!

Celtic Girl wrote:
Jan 11, 2007 at 2:48 PM
You'll get to the teens, I know you will. You have the drive to accomplish anything you want to.

Ngatea Water Gardens

Jan 5, 2007 at 9:41 PM

Hey!!!

I had a full on day yesterday and totally enjoyed it!

Maybe that is my New Year's Resolution to get out and go for it no matter what it is we only have one life to live so let's live it.

Got up had breakfast (in bed I might add from hubby he he he) then phoned MIL and we all went to Ngatea Water Gardens and it was a lot of fun. They have jokes all the way around the gardens and the kids get to do a quiz along the way so that they keep occupied.

What a beautiful place it is and they have so many funny things as you can see in the photo below. They have bird houses with sky digital on the top and a sign on it saying "For Lease". Sign saying Caution Falling rocks and then some gumboots under a rock. Also a gate saying please keep closed and there is only a gate and nothing else he he he. The flowers were georgeous and the whole place was enjoyed by all of us. The plague that said Do Not Stand Here was so funny. My oldest decided to stand on it and he got soaking wet he he he he too funny he should have done what it said he he he.

We then went out for lunch and I had a panini with mushrooms and bacon and really really enjoyed that.

Celtic girl in response to your comment yes I am feeling much happier and to be honest I shouldn't have told Kris about my blog because seeing her so much at my son's school and gym I couldn't talk on my blog anymore.

After driving there (which took an hour each way) we got home and went swimming with Debbie. Debbie and I swam lengths and the boys played (with my hubby) in the kids pool. I did 40 lengths but Debbie decided after 28 that she would go and play with the boys. I didn't swim the whole 40 as 15 of them I aqua jogged back and forth... it felt good and felt like I had achieved something. OMG it is sooo hard to swim after not doing it for years. I found doing the freestyle that I didn't want to put my face down in the water as I was always out of breath... I am sure I will get better and I am determined to go every Thursday night with Debbie and get my heart pumping. I have to get out of my square and the gym is good and I am not going to give up but I think I need to try something different.

Food is my problem!! How do I sort it out?

I am going to make sure I point every day but I am wanting bad food so much in these holidays and no matter how much exercise I do won't help me at all if I don't get it under control.
I suppose when I get back to work things will get back to normal.

I am really trying with the water and when I go for my hour walk every day I am trying my hardest to make sure I am sweating enough so that I am working hard... hmmmm it is going to happen I just have to keep to my points and stop being so bad and convincing myself that I need to eat more when I don't need to eat anymore at all. I do feel it is all in my head.

Hubby took me out for lunch today to an Italian Cafe and we enjoyed our time away from the kids. We went to find out about doing a Life Coach Diploma but when we got there the guy that answered the door said he was there to paint and they wouldn't be back until the 16th January so I suppose I have to wait till then.

I have really thought about my future in these past holidays. I have wanted to do training as a Life Coach for about a year now and have been too chicken to go for it because of money and because of part of it I have to be interviewed to get in to the course and I think I was thinking that because I am big that they wouldn't accept me because if I can't loose weight how can I help others in their life choices.... but then I have two years part time study to do before I will be coaching anyone and I want to specialise in helping people with weight issues and that is what I am going to concentrate on. I know that there is more to losing weight than just eating and exercising and some skinny people don't know about the head stuff that goes on and I want to help as many people in my situation as possible.

So when I lose the weight by the time I finish my 2 year studies then I WILL be in a position to help others just like I wished I had had from someone.

I want to do this!! I hope that I am not too late to get in to the course because after much thought I know I want to do this.

Anyway... tired and need to get some sleep
Love CM

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janene wrote:
Jan 5, 2007 at 9:55 PM
Hey girl, you definately should go for it with the Life Coach training. Even if you start off with one paper (or module or whatever), you can at least dip your toes in the water (so to speak), and see if it is really what you want to do. From the little I know about Life Coaching there's more to it than just coaching people who are overweight, so you shouldn't let that stop you, not for one second!! For ages I was put off midwifery because I thought I would be turned down because of the "health screening" tests, which I was assumed was weight/fitness related, but it turns out it's just bloodtests for diseases that you don't want to pass onto patients and immunization levels. Anyway, I think you get what I mean. Just GO FOR IT! And doing the studies yourself will no doubt help you in your own journey... and you can use us as guinea pigs hehehe :)
*hugs*

Fat Queen wrote:
Jan 6, 2007 at 4:22 AM
I love the photos! It looks like you had a wonderful time -- you're looking FAB-U-Lous and the boys are getting soooooooooooooo big!! They grow so fast, don't they?
Love the Diet utensils. Made me laugh :)
To answer your question -- I never HAD a partner. I just did it myself. I don't know how I stayed focused... I guess it was my MISSION or something. Now Mom/I are working together and that seems to work well. She's got arthritis and the docs told her it would be good for her to do water therapy -- so we go together!
From what I understand from my Physical Therapist and trainers, a day of rest is good. Just so that you don't let it be too many days in a row -- then you're outta sync. Or don't want to continue. I try to schedule everything in my life -- including days of rest :)

Lynise wrote:
Jan 6, 2007 at 10:49 PM
Ohhhh,,, I love Ngatea Water Gardens. (as most garden freaks probably do) Its such a well established garden and I also love all those funny quirky little things they have included in the design. I was actually suppose to have that venue for my wedding reception but here we are,, still not married and know that I won't be. (thats another long story, I should blog about it sometime soon) Roger, the guy that made the gardens gave me a lot of tips when I was setting up our garden.
Know what you mean about the food. Since my wisdom tooth infection, (and stitches) have all finally healed up I seem to be inhaling enough food to feed a small nation. I am certainly making up for not eating over Christmas/New Years. (grrrrrrr, at myself). I HAVE to get back on track.
Ciao for now

Celtic Girl wrote:
Jan 8, 2007 at 4:05 PM
This place look really pretty from your pictures. You also look so happy and vibrant.