Second post for the day

Went in to Chartwell to meet my step mother in law for a coffee and for her to get our drivers licence so that she can transfer the caravan over to us. Wohooo and she hugged us and said she was happy that the caravan was staying in the family and also that she knew we would treat it right so that was great.

She sensed that I was not happy that we were going back home to have Jeremy's brother visit... I think she feels the same way about them.

So anyway..... got home to have Brother in law and his girlfriend Annabelle come over. It was the first day we had seen them since they got back in the country on boxing day... FUCK FUCK I was pissed the whole time they were here... they went away for 6 weeks and they are my kids only uncle that they will ever have and they didn't even bring a FUCKEN bring a souvenier for the kids... not Xmas present not even a fucken $2 present or anything... absolutly nothing... what an arse..

So they were here at home and all they came over for was for Jeremy to tell them what sort of fucken computer to buy CAN YOU TELL I AM PISSED they can afford to buy a fucken laptop but can't afford a Xmas present for their own family. So the stuff we brought for them stayed upstairs and we are keeping it and my mum brought them a big tray of Ferriero Rocher Chocolates so we gave them to the kids he he he... bastards...

So we have spent the last hour talking about how wonderful their fucken trip was and how they were buying this laptop etc and then... GET THISSSS

Just as they were leaving his BIL went to Jeremy and said "Well I suppose it is time to say that you better congratulate me"????? WTF for?? He looked at Jeremy (who was sitting down) well you better congratulate me and my fiancee OMG really... I stayed still... wasn't going to jump up and down to people that were as selfish as them... and the only thing I said was "I suppose miracles happen huh" and that was it... didn't give him a hug or anything. was still seething how he could be so shit to our kids yet wanted us to say how wonderful to him.

All I can say is that he will find out when his kids grow (if they have any) that I am going to do exactly what they have done to ours... no birthday or Xmas presents from their only uncle.

Man I am seething....

What the Fuck is wrong with this family... even when we couldn't afford it we always brought something for them ALWAYS... not again... EVER it is not happening.

While they were going out the door the Vet rang and our cat has Thyroid problems and will be on tablets for the rest of his life morning and night... so there is more expense for us.. OMG I feel like we are forking out so much money at the moment and money we don't have.

$250 for the Vet yesterday

$50 today for the tablets

$100 for Registration for Vehicle

Jeremy's mum birthday on Sunday and him and his brother organising a lunch out as well as presents for her birthday.

I am feeling really low and depressed today and I just want to scream.

I am back tracking today as I feel like I want to eat that whole box of chocolates with the mood I am in today.

I need my tracking buddies today.... really need the

FUCKEN ANGRY

OMG

I am shaking like a leaf right now.

Just had the bitch down the road (mother of Jack) fucken little shit of a child that took toys and is a right little nightmare..

Anyway she came to my door shouting at me and telling me that Quinn was pointing his finger at Jack (fat little sod) telling him off about something... his mother came to my door shouting saying that Quinn had done this and that he is not to talk to her child like that.

I said in a quiet tone voice.. that is fine and he will be dealt with and then on the way out she started again... then my blood boiled... and if anyone knows me I don't go at people I am a nice person... and so that was it...

I shouted (and the new family up the road heard me) I said REALLY LOUDLY "DON'T YOU DARE SHOUT AT ME.... I have said to you that my son will be talked to but I am not a little child that you talk to... I am an adult and I did not disagree with you and I told you that my son will be talked to. I DO NOT appreciate that you are shouting at me and talking to me like a child and do NOT do it again..." OMG I am shaking... OMG I am soooo shaking putting this on here.

I said to her do not fear our children WILL not play with him again.

I have told my kids that they are not to talk to Jack, they are not to play with him, and if he turns up then they are to walk away and not to say a word....

I am fuming right.... fucken angry and fucken shaking and I had to put it down.

The poor new people up the street were in their garage and looking down wondering what the hell was happening.... all they would have heard was me screaming at this woman telling her NEVER to speak to me like again.

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

Chubbymum

Fuming

OMG went to school this morning and Quinn's teacher pulled me aside (out in the rain I might add)

She said "I was supposed to talk to you on Friday but didn't get a chance"..

..........ok will give you a background of Sunday first before I say what teacher said ..............

Sunday Corbin came rushing back from two house down (where Jack (little shit)) lives...

Corbin said that the grandmother said that they can't play with Jack as they were lying...

So we said "what did you say Quinn and Corbin said "Quinn said that Jack took his clothes off in the toilets at school" so we asked Quinn if he was lying and he said "No" and so we badgered him a bit more and he said "yes he was lying" so then I didn't know if I had badgered him too much and he just said "yes" to get us off his back or what.

Later that day I said to Quinn "you know you won't go to heaven with your family if you lie and that you will go where the bad people go"... now I know harsh silly mum I am but I wanted him to know the consequences and maybe scare him a little and he said "I didn't lie" so now I am not sure aye..

.............Ok back to the Teacher.....................

We were out in the rain and the teacher said I was supposed to talk to you on Friday but things got away with me and Jack's mother (or grandmother) can't quite remember which one.... has asked his teacher to ask our teacher to have a word with Quinn and us OMG I WAS FUMING.....

I said "this woman lives 2 doors down from us and she couldn't be an adult and come and talk to us... I don't let Quinn get away with things and if he has done wrong then he gets punished" and the teacher said "I understand" I said I talked to Quinn about it and told her about Sunday and what the grandmother said and then I said to her she needs to be an adult and talk to us... because this going through two teachers instead of talking to us is ridiculous... she has coffee with my mum for christ sake....

I said "fine if she wants it to go like this then to be honest I don't want Quinn playing with Jack anymore as I have caught him stealing toys from our house before and he took his pants down and mooned my boys before (as my mum caught him and told him to go home).

I can't believe that they couldn't be grown up about it. The teacher said it would be a shame as Jack doesn't make friends easily and I said well do you wonder why.... she said she will go back to the teacher about it... and was smiling because she knows what Quinn is like as she has him in his class and she said she can understand my point of view... now this teacher says it how she sees it so hey.

So I got down to Quinn's level (after teacher left) and said to him "please tell me the truth as this is getting out of hand and I will not punish you for telling me the truth" he said "I didn't lie" so now I am totally confused and I am going to stick up for my son. I said to him that he isn't allowed to play with Jack anymore and that at home he is to stay away from Jack too.

To be quite honest I am glad as Quinn is not a nice child when around Jack at all. Plus not having Jack ring the door bell 15 times a day would be a blessing too.

I am still angry about it and it is an hour later grrrrrr.

Told my husband and he said he thinks that my decision for them not to play with Jack is fine. The house next door to Jacks, their kids aren't allowed to play with him either so that tells you aye... Jack's parents need to sort him out or he is going to be a very very sad little boy.

I am sooooo not saying that Quinn is perfect... he isn't by any means but he knows right from wrong and they are kids after all.

The thing I am pissed off the most is that they couldn't come to us.... I told my mum and she said that they drove past the other day and usually they wave but they purposely looked down... guilty or what...

Weigh in

I went to bed angry and woke up angry....

Why do I have these days.. it isn't my monthly and I am not due for another 2 weeks.

I lost weight!!! 700 grams tonight.

I am not happy with it.. I do know that I should be but I wasn't. I wanted 1 kilo!! Yes I am a silly COW!!

I can't work out what I want with life!! We are in the process of looking at a franchise business at home but I am scared I won't be able to cope as I have never been in a business before. It is a good business and something I know we could do but totally scared.

The other thing I can't work out is if I want to be a lifecoach or do the franchise? So many decisions and I can't work out what is best. I don't know what to do!!!

I know I am not that interesting tonight but I am tired of my life feeling like it is all about weight loss and now I have choices instead of weight loss I can't work out what I want to choose.

I know I lost 700grams and I want it to keep going down but I can't guarantee that it will because to be honest I am tracking and when I am really good I don't lose and then when I am bad I lose. It doesn't match my tracking....

I have felt better in the last week not worrying about the food and not having morning or afternoon tea and feeling like life was normal and going by how my tummy was feeling as I was eating because I was told to and not because I felt I needed to by my hunger.

I hate water as most of you know by now and I have made a huge effort this week to have at least 2 bottles of water a day and most days made it to 3 bottles.

My challenges for this week coming

1. Keep up with the water
2. Get up and go for a walk every morning
3. Cut down the size of my meals for dinner

Three challenges a week for me is enough because if I try for more I loose motivation.

I am 123.8 and I have 600 grams to get to my 5th stone! That is what is going to happen next week. I am going to get to my 5th stone!!!

I want to be in the teens by the end of the year. I want to start 2007 off with a bang and not ever ever ever get to the 120 or above ever ever again.

I have to keep up on here as I am slacking in the last couple of weeks. Why aren't I wanting to write in here I don't know?

Anyway enough thinking for now

Love Chubbymum

UPDATE
OMG I got a text this morning from Crusher to say that Kris will be joining my Lean and I replied back saying then she won't be seeing me anymore.

OMG I finally got that woman out of my life in every way and I have been losing and my life has been great and then the fucken woman comes in to my fucking LEAN... and I can understand that Crusher is doing a business etc and couldn't take sides. So I texted her back saying that I will not be in anymore if she is going to join. So once again the fucken bitch has stalked my fucken life...

Can you tell I am angry? Well I am she just can't leave me alone to get on with my life she has to be in every situation.... she is even taking her kids to school so that I see her every morning and before hand she wouldn't get off her lazy arse to take the kids to school....

I didn't want to write about her anymore as life was getting so much better and now this...

I am not going to go to Lean anymore to have her making me feel like a complete utter idiot and to remind me that she is smaller than me and can go faster etc... I HATE her and I know that is a strong word but I do!!

Debbie and I will be going to the gym instead and another lady that isn't going to Lean anymore will be getting together.

Kris would complain about the early morning etc and now she is doing this... and I do think it was all because of Friday night when Debbie and I were having so much fun with our team and dancing and she was sitting on the side line in her sulky little mood.

I am soooo ANGRY!!!!! That my life could be turned upside down like this! I love my team!! I love being with Crusher but I cannot see this woman again! My self esteem is shot when she is around and once again I am the one that misses out.

It hurts that ONCE AGAIN she wins!!! and I lose out on the best team!

Everytime I see the BITCH I want to throttle her!! that is how bad I feel around her.