CHUBBYMUM Time to "MAKE MYSELF MY HOBBY" - From 2005 to 2008 I lost 42 kgs and things went wrong in my life with my mum and work and went in to major depression. I am trying my hardest to get back in to it and doing it for me. Going to "Make Myself My Hobby".
Sunday, 7 October 2007
Sunday
My mother in law FOR THE SECOND DAY IN A ROW OMG OMG Shock took the boys from 11am to 1pm so we got out groceries done then. We also took advantage of not having them and went shopping for cheap digital cameras and OMG there are NO cheap digital cameras and the cheapest we could find was $165.... I know that is cheap for a camera but was hoping there was one for about $80 because we have to buy 2 and the boys are too young to have a expensive camera but I do know they love taking photos and it would be a great family thing to do as I always take my camera but my camera is too expensive.
So back to the drawing board until I can work out what I want to do.
OMG I am seeing the bloody WW advertisements everytime I turn on the bloody tv lately and it is driving me insane. I know I am still doing well with not going but I do miss the friendships that I had there...sigh but I am not willing to pay all that money anymore and I have a great email buddy that sorts me out he he he.
Got back from the groceries and then biked to my friends place but the wind was terrible on the way home. I felt good today because my friend Tanya when I first started was the one that said I couldn't lose 20 kilos in a year and not to overdo it so I proved her wrong and I did it... but I was watching her today and wanted to ask her why she has gained all her weight back. When I first met her she had lost 30 kilos and then another 10 and when she went down to Hokitika she had managed to gain it all back with more and she just looks so sad and the weight is scaring me... I want to be a friend and see if there is a way that I can help but I don't want to upset her either because as I know you can only lose if you want to and no one (even a well deserving friend) can help. But with her owning her own business and working 6 out of 7 days a week I am worried she is going to have a heart attack or something.
Anyway I will get off that now but it does worry me..
Did some more cards today and quite proud of it... it relaxes me.
I am also doing more and more digital scrapbooking pages and that has made me feel so creative and enjoying it totally.
Chubbymum
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Monday, 1 October 2007
Weekend non stop - I MEAN NON STOP

Corbin was giving Quinn a birthday hug just after he got his box with his go cart in it.
Here are me boys putting the go cart together and they had so much fun with all the spanners etc.
After it was finished they had a go on it and we couldn't make it any smaller to fit Quinn's feet on the peddles but he will grow in to it and he had fun anyway.
They got back at 12.45 and the kids starting arrive at 1pm where we had cake and chips and then took off for ten pin bowling (oops forgot to mention that Corbin didn't come back as he went to the next door neighbours of James and Jonathons as it was Dion's birthday as well. OMG birthday's galore.
The 6 kids for Quinn's party at ten pin bowling were soooo good... I had a great time.
Quinn almost blowing out his candles and Janae was making him laugh in front of him... then he went all shy he he he.
Tahlia Rose in the jeans and Janae in the dress... we had a girls lane and a boys lane because the girls chickened out when we got there and I had to show them what fun it was and so us girls went on one lane together and it was sooo cool... wasn't used to girly screams etc he he he and BOY did they scream.

Janae cheekkkky smile I had to get a photo of it. I just want to pinch those cheeks of hers he he.
Liam and Quinn using the frame to send the balls down. But by the middle of the game they were doing it without the frame... soooo cute seeing them trying to lift these heavy balls.
Left to right: Liam, James, Jack (with ball) and Quinn... these boys get on so well it was great and they are all in the same class at school too.
Tahlia Rose told me in front of Quinn that she was going to marry Quinn and she was going to be Mrs Andrew he he he toooo funny. I said really??
Quinn at the start of the year said he was going to marry Janae and now he likes Tahlia.

This photo of Quinn with this present was cute. Tahlia's mum said that she had to make the wrapping paper so here is the wrapping paper for Tahlia it was pretty and Quinn wanted me to take a photo... he also wanted to keep the paper but Nana didn't know and she threw it away geesh... but I got this photo so that is great.
So once we dropped them all off at home it was off to Dion's birthday party to get Corbin but we were asked by the parents (who I go to coffee with) to stay for dinner and the magician and to also go for a swim in their heated pool and spa pool. The boys enjoyed themselves. The food was fabulous and the company was great too.
Sunday
This day was our day to sort out our back yard. So we went and borrowed the trailer from our friends and we started putting the soil, rock, and MORE clay from our side of our house and put it in a trailer to take to the tip... We did 3 trailor loads of this and OMG I was soo soo soo sore afterwards.
In the photo below you can see where the soil was up to and I suppose it doesn't look like much but when the clay was wet and there were rocks etc in it IT WAS BLOODY HORRIBLE.... so I did a lot of exercise that day. So as you can see it is nice and flat now and I can finish painting the fence (on a nice sunny day that is for sure).
Had a lovely hot hot spa bath after doing all that because I was sore. The boys helped out heaps and it was fun. I thought they would have been a pain. We didn't finish it all with the 3 trailor loads.

Monday
Got up at 9am and had breakfast and then took the boys indoor rock climbing. I had sore arms from the 3 trailer loads of dirt and so it was even worse after 2 hours rock climbing with the kids. They had so much fun and Corbin was like a little spider monkey he just enjoyed it so much. I find it quite amazing how I always thought that he wouldn't be a very physical child and wouldn't like that sort of thing because he loved reading but he just loved it. He is liking touch rugby at school and soccer and sporty things and it amazes me how he does... especially with glasses but he is soooo a boy and also yesterday helping us with the dirt and digging a lot and putting it in the wheelbarrow to put on the trailer. Quite amazing.
Whereas Quinn liked organising the trailer and making sure that it would be top heavy etc... such cool boys today.
Ok so we got back after that and had another trailer load done for the tip. Took Corbin to YET ANOTHER birthday party of his best friend Cathans and Quinn, Jeremy and I took the dirt to the tip and brought a trailer load of river stones for our retaining wall. It didn't quite finish the retaining wall but I am happy with the result... as you can see below. But mind you the retaining wall is LONGGGGG and just half of it was a trailer load. We have another trailer load to go I would say.
Next week I am seriously going to keep still and make some more cards.

So that is why I have been missing in action this weekend and ho hum I have to go back to work (took today off)... don't wanna go back to work tomorrow that is for sure.
The funniest thing was that Jeremy and I were putting the rocks in the retaining wall in the pouring down with rain and the neighbours must have thought that we were nuts. There was thunder and the rain was coming down so hard that I had drips coming down my face he he he but I refused to stop because I don't want to drag this out every weekend. I want to enjoy it and have fun in the sun on my days off ya know. There was thunder and lightening out too he he he and everytime we thought the lightening was coming we would put the spades down and stand there he he he...tooooo funny... and my mum and Quinn were looking out the window laughing at us.
Good night everyone.
Not sure about my food choices this week but I have done a lot of exercise but if I don't lose weight I don't. I have lost 2 weeks in a row so hey if I stay the same or gain it is all good.
Love ya all
Chubbymum
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Sunday, 17 December 2006
Enjoy the vital energy of the present - 17 December 2006 Sunday
Had a sleep in this morning and to be quite honest I have felt really really lazy in the last week. I don't want to do any exercise.. is that bad? Sometimes I feel really naughty that I don't want to do any exercise.
Slept in this morning till 9.30 and then read my book for a while and then hubby brought breakfast up it was soo nice to have breaky in bed. Even if the kids came jumping up on the bed.
I think having Sunday as a lay in morning is a great tradition he he he and quite happy that the boys are old enough now to know.
After breakfast we got our helmets on and biked up to the Library and my youngest is getting so good at keeping up with us and it doesn't take us a year to get there. It is 6 kms round trip so that is a long way for the boys. It was really nice going to the library and sitting on the couch while my youngest read me a book and he sounded out the words and didn't always get it right but he has only been going to school for 6 weeks so I was really proud. My oldest went on the library computers to find just the right books for him. He is only 7 and he is reading books like Harry Potter and The Hardy boys etc...
I found some books to sort me out.. because I don't know what I want to do when I grow up and apart from concentrating on the weight loss this year I want to find out what I want to do with my life. I have been in two minds about what I want to do. I want to own a business and preferbly a craft business or I want to be a life coach. I want to help people losing weight to get past all the emotional stuff as I wish I could have had someone to do that. I don't know what to do!! and at this time of year I find myself thinking of what if this and what if that... maybe a life coach is someone that I need to go to he he he but I can't afford it at the moment. Everything is always about money grrr I hate that. The emotional part of losing weight is the hardest part I reckon.
The books I chose were "Finding true north by Micheal Henderson" " Set and achieve your goals by Des Moss" and Choosing Happiness by Sandra Stoddard. I am not too sure if any of them will help but if I decide to be a Life Coach the books can't harm at all I suppose.
I am sooooo liking Vox at the moment. I am glad that I have a different blog name and that I can still write but I am taking time to invite people because I can't seem to trust again. Thanks Kate for being here! I love reading your blog and how you really think about things in your life and how you can improve them...
Went to D's (Friend) place for dinner with the boys (where she is house sitting) and it was really relaxing and we had Apricot curried Chicken and Veges it was sooo yummy. It felt good to be there and we watched a little bit of sky food channel while the boys played with the toys. We then played kids Charades and it was such a hoot. My youngest could play too as there were pictures showing what to do and he was putting up his right hand (finger pointing) in the air and we kept saying sky or helicopter etc and he kept saying no and we gave up and then he looked at us and said "It is a Fire Engine of course" and we just laughed and laughed because he was right he wasn't allowed to make a sound so that was the most logical thing was the lights going round and round and D laughed her head off and so did I.
After Charades we played Jenga and once again laughed our heads off.
Before going out tonight (I was in a bad mood beforehand) I read the book Choosing Happiness and found this excerpt
"Many people are preoccupied with the past or dream of the future, discounting now, the only place where they can enjoy the vital energy of the present"
What a great thing!! So I decided I wasn't going to be in a grumpy mood and I was going to let this new friend D in my life and enjoy being around her because I am not going to let one psycho ex friend ruin it for others when others won't nesecarilly do the same to me.
I got a lovely Xmas card from D saying "Just a short note so that I can try and express how much I appreciate all that you have done for me. Good friends are so special and I thank you all for being my friend. You have welcomed me into your home, listen to me sing (badly he he), feed me, and supported me more than many others have. I look forward to next year and all the adventures, laughs, fun and good times we will share"
I was soooo touched by this card! I would love her to know my new blog but I am not going to let her or anyone in my town know about this blog as I need to have it so I can say what I feel.
So now I am back to blogging I feel soooo happy! It wasn't that I didn't want to blog anymore but for two years I felt like I was finally getting it all out of my mind and on paper (or cyberspace he he) and not keeping it in and the thought of not having it was scaring me.
3 days of work to go till Xmas holidays woohooo.
I should post a picture of my office (or my dungeon like I call it) I just got a new cupboard and re did the room and the kids painted pictures for my walls it is sooo cute.
I am going to take one day at a time and I am going to live a happy one.
I have to chose what I want to do next year..study or buy a business!! Right now while I am writing this I am thinking study! I might check it all out this week.
Thanks for listening Diary
Love Chubbymum
Comments
janene wrote:
Dec 18, 2006 at 2:04 PM
Thanks for inviting me to continue reading your blog, L. I promise to stick to the rules and shall never ever mention the existence of this blog to another living soul... hehehe
I'm glad you decided to carry on blogging, it was a shame that that trollop got the last word in, but this way she doesn't, you can start fresh and chose your readers very carefully this time around.
It sounds like you are in a really good headspace at the moment, despite all that has been happening, so good on you for making the choice to not let it get you down and hold you back, which was no doubt the trollop's intentions!
*hugs*