Jog Jog Jogging....

I enjoyed getting back to the gym today.....

Started my training for jogging... OMG was I excited.. Ok so I was excited but nervous at the same time because being a big person I fear what other people will think.

Thought I was going to start slowly with my jogging and get used to it and went in to the gym thinking I will walk on the treadmill for 10 minutes at 5.5 (usually 5) so I upped the speed... and then after 10 minutes I was going to do 30 secs run (at 7 speed) and then a minute walk and then 30 sec run and do that 3 times (was going to take it slowly for the first day) but I did 10 minute warm up and then 1 minute run, 1 minute walk, x 3 OMG I was sooo happy with myself.

When I finished that I did my triceps, biceps, leg raisers, stepper, shoulder pull downs, situps and the water bike... and then went by myself down to the sauna it was bliss... sat there sweating like a pig and just thinking about my life and how I have to sort it out and stop yoyoing... well try anyway. But also realised that I am not going to be really stingee with my food because I know it doesn't work for me.

I can't wait till tomorow when I am going to by some running shoes he he he giggle.

I think the thing I have missed in all this is my exercise and I know I didn't lose that much when I was exercising but the main thing is that I enjoyed it and felt healthier with exercise.

So Sunday is the next day at the gym with hubby and I am going to try and do some more running and do combat with him so I can get the sweat up.

Roll on the 500 grams this week.

I have worked it out that by my Easter camp next March that if I keep up with the 500 grams a week average then I will be at around 105... and that would make me sooo happy. I know I would like to be less and maybe I might, but to be at 105 Kilos by Easter would be fantastic.

Went out for lunch with hubby and mum today and it was nice to go while the kids were at the school.

In regards to the 6 weeks leave I have worked it around long weekends and also I only work 3 days a week so 2 days off is included it that. So if there is a Monday holiday I take the Tuesday and Wednesday and I finish work on the Wednesday before so it gives me a week ya know.... so it isn't as great as you think but it is still great he he he still don't get a full weeks pay he he he.

I am having my friend Pam and her kids over tonight for dinner and looking forward to it because we are going to have a family game night woohooo... I am addicted to uno spin at the moment with the kids such fun.

My friend Pam that I have mentioned before that is going through hell with the breakup and found out last night that her ex's step dad and grandmother and his sister aren't speaking to him and are angry with him so that made Pam feel so much better because now she knows that it is isn't her and that others are thinking that how he dealt with this is bad... so maybe if we can get them together we can make Pam's ex realise that he is harming the kids and he needs to sort things out so that the kids are suffering... fair enough he is getting on with his new life and the slut Oops that was a slip.. (the new girlfriend) but to make his kids scared of him etc and that they are really upset well that isn't on.

Why do people do that? Why do the kids always suffer. I totally understand that he met another lady and that is fair enough because obviously she makes him happy but it is the kids that I get angry at. I am all for being happy but if it is at the expense of the kids then I get sooo angry.

He is not paying his half of the mortgage or the other committments and Pam is struggling to pay on her part time wage and to also feed the kids and their sports stuff etc and now Xmas coming up she is really finding it hard.

Sorry I don't mean to harp on about it but I sit here crying sometimes as I hate seeing what is happening to this family and I hate seeing what he kids are going through especially the 9 year old girl when even her school is worried about her as she was an A student and now she doesn't want to go to school and is constantly playing with her brother at lunch times as she is scared that her Dad is going to come and take him and she won't see him again. It is sad.. and I get to the stage that I want to help so much and I don't know how other than to support Pam and the kids.

I got an email from the 9 year old girl the other day and it said "Hi Aunty Mandy, How is your day? I am really sad today..." I didn't know what to say apart from the "how are you? Why are you sad? Is there anything that I can help you with?... I mean what do you say to a 9 year old going through this?

Thanks for listening everyone..

Woohooo me for getting the jogging training going woohooo.

Chubbymum

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