On a roll and doing it for me

I have been focussed again today and still tracking it is great

Exercise is done for the day. Walked the 3.8 km in 45 minutes and it was up and down hills with the kids racing up in front of me.

Was going to go to the gym but decided that I had 3 days in a row at the gym and I should do something else.

I am going to get to 99.9 kilos by the end of the year.

I am tracking

I am exercising

I am reading heaps of forums and meeting lots of people to get me focussed. I am going to do this... and I have to keep repeating that to myself and I have to know that I can do this for me and that no one can do it for me but me.

Plan for tomorrow for my food and for my exercise is already sorted so I know what I am going to eat and how many points it is and my exercise tomorrow is a walk at 7.30 am around the block and then go to the gym for 45 minutes and home. Woohoooo. Going to take the boys to the movies tomorrow.

While I was at work today Jeremy's brother phoned and was talking with Corbin and said to him that he was coming over tomorrow. Mum phoned me to tell me but said that Corbin didn't pass the phone over for her to say that I was busy. I said to mum he probably wanted something out of me because that doesn't normally happen.

So I phoned Jeremy to tell him to phone his bro and tell him I wasn't going to be around tomorrow.. I am not having my day off doing something for him when he neglects his nephews.

So anyway he phoned his brother and asked why he phoned and apparently NOW GET THIS that he wants to come over and give me my birthday present... OK so any of you know when my birthday is.... SEPTEMBER 9th. Why? Why would he worry about getting me a present that was 4 months ago TODAY... Jeremy seems to think that they picked up my pissed off attitude (about the kids not getting a present not me not getting a present)..

For Fuck Sake.. I don't want a birthday present... I would rather they spent money on my boys than me... a bloody $2 Christmas present each would have been enough and Quinn to actually have his uncle buy him a birthday present (because he brought one for Corbin and not him)... I am not happy about this... I don't want a present... I want respect for my kids because I don't have brothers or sisters and he is the only uncle they will ever have.... man I am fuming about that.

Don't think that he should come over until I am cooled off because I don't want this... I want to tell him straight to his face that he is an arse and doesn't fucken think.... and that the only time he comes over is when he wants something.... or us to do something.

Am I back with it or what!!

Since Saturday I have been feeling better and better each day.

I don't normally do it but have been weighing myself everyday this week because I need to get back on track then I will go back to normal weighing but I am on track and I feel soooo much better. I have lost 1.2 since Saturday and feeling sooooooo happy about it. I am down to 119.6 kilos.

Been conversing with the yahoo group and another group that I have joined because I read back on my blog and I was doing better when I was chatting with people in the same situation and then I dwindled off and wasn't so... that is my aim to get back to it as it motivates me and keeps me going.

I have been tracking with hubby at home and it is going really well too..

I am going to do this.

40.4 kilos (1.2 kilos this week) down 19.7 kilos to get to my goal of double digits.

Was thinking this morning that my wrist is going to be full of charms he he he. I have the two charms so far and if I have to loose 19 kilos just to get to the double digits then I am going to have 19 more charms woohoooooo will just have to put on another bracelet and have two of them he he he.

I have to experience what it is like being 99 kilos... I just have to and I need to keep my motivation going. No more excuses and I am going to help me first!!! Encourage me FIRST and not put me second anymore.

Putting my exercise on the sidebar too and what I have done and what I have planned for the coming week. Working within my weigh in weeks and then start again for the next week.

Had a fanbloodytastic chat on the yahoo group with Libra last night and in the end we went on a chat line because we were going back and forth he he he... it was fantastic because there were soooo many things that we have done similar and books we have read and I felt really relaxed talking to her.. it was nice Libra thank you. I really appreciated it last night... believe me you have given me the get up and go to get off my backside and keep on this. Thank you... Thank you...

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