Weigh in tonight

I will get it over and done with: Weigh in tonight I lost Wohooooo and a bloody good loss too. I am chuffed! To bits. I have been working hard this week and I think I am back to the flow of things.

Today was a good one. I went to my kickboxing class and it didn't feel as hard as it has in the past. Yes it was hot but I so enjoyed it today. I think I am getting used to it now and my body isn't feeling like it is heavy anymore. Also the time went really fast. Kris wasn't feeling too well today. I don't know if she thinks this but I think she is overdoing the exercise maybe. She was feeling a little dizzy in class but she rode her bike to the class as well. Maybe it was her body saying she was doing too much??? I hope she is feeling better now. The heat wouldn't be helping things that is for sure.

Came home and played some eye toy with my eldest son and some playstation as it was just too hot to be outside in the heat. It was an enjoyable morning and then my best friend from Wellington came over for a visit with her kids and other half. It was great to see them. I opened the door and she screamed at me OMG OMG my friend you look fantastic! She squeezed me around my waist twice and her other half (who doesn't say much usually) said "you are looking good girl" so that was a huge compliment. It was great seeing them again. I showed them our new eye toy and they got hooked and my friends partner is trying to convince her to get one woohooo that would be nice for them that is for sure.

I am so happy with my loss this week. I am hoping that I can do that next week as well but I am going to try but not push myself. I am on my way to losing this year and I am in a good mode and I have been happy about the fact that I am not saying what I am losing or how much I have lost. I am going to do this for about 6 months and then I will go back to posting. I just feel that I compete when I do it.. for my mind it has been working well for the past couple of weeks and might try it out for a while. I find that when I am competing (I AM) I do the opposite and start to gain and I don't want that. I want to change my mindset!!

I am feeling in a positive mode and I really enjoyed my meeting tonight. Our leaders were back from holiday and the last month hasn't been the same without them. The whole meeting was different and they are the type of ladies that care and really try and help. OMG there was soooo many people starting WW tonight. The group lost 36 kilos! and there were a lot of men. I know that it is going to be only for a month or two and then it will dwindle again as it did last year but it was good to see some males there tonight as well.

Anyway I am babbling now.

Have a good night
Love CM

Feels like a Sunday

Today has been quite a relaxing day. We didn't do much at all except for play for eye toy and we went for a bike ride to Corbin's school as he wanted to play on the playground... but needless to say they were soooo hot that we came straight back home as the poor little buggers were sweating so much and their water was really warm that they took.

What a scorcher of a day!

I HATE SUMMER WITH A PASSION. I love Autumn and Winter and Spring. If I could I would spend Winter in New Zealand and then go on the other side of the world and have another winter. I loath Summer... being sticky and sweaty and constantly feeling grumpy.

We put up the paddling pool in the back yard and all of us went for a nice paddle in the cold water this afternoon. It was fantastic to cool down but it took some time to actually get in the pool because it was BLOODY cold he he he

We had a surpremo salad for lunch with everything you can think of in it... We also sat outside eating cold watermelon.... and the golfers going past looked jealous he he he.

The boys are playing playstation at the moment. I cannot say I like the playstation games that much but I do LOVE the eye toy games like eye toy 3 and Kinestic.... I feel when they are playing with the controls that it could be quite addictive so I am giving them a half an hour then they are going to go and play or read for a while as they are not going to get hooked. It is a good time for me to update my blog though he he.

I must admit I am missing my friend Tania since she moved to Hokitika.... I miss chatting and just being able to go over her place without phoning and spending time with her. I cannot say that we did much but just hang out but it just felt right ya know. I am spending more time with my boys since she has gone but I am feeling the strain of not having her around lately.

I might give her a phone call tonight and see how she is doing. ;-(

I had a phone call from a lady that takes her children to a creche I go to asking if I would make some thank you cards and she will pay me for them. Also she was asking if I could do her daughters birthday invitations and she would pay me for them. I was so chuffed so I am going to sit down at the table tonight and get them over and done with. I haven't been wanting to do much of my creative things lately as it has been too hot.

Tell you what there are some sick golfers out there today. Scorching weather and they are wearing the hottest clothes and drinking beer.... just doesn't seem sane to me that is for sure.

Anyway it is my weigh in tomorrow night and I am a little worried but I think I have been good. I haven't tracked this weekend but hey I have enjoyed myself. I have been off the V for 7 days now Wohoooo so that might make a little difference.

Ok have a good night

Love CM

Scariest Day of My Life

Had a sleep in this morning and then after breakfast the boys all played eye toy again and then at 1pm we were due at my mum's friends house for a suprise birthday party for her. Friends of ours asked us to come around for a swim and we thought it was a good idea and thought we would take shae with us (mum's friends granddaughter)....

So anyway we went to our friends place and they have a pool that my 6 year old can stand in but my 4 year old couldn't and we told him he wasn't allowed in the pool without the arm bands and he knows that he would get in trouble if he didn't have the arm bands on...

Well I was talking to my friend (we were like on the other side of the pool gate) and we looked in and Quinn was drowning... OMG it was like slow motion and there was a 5 year old in the pool and I was screaming at this little boy to grab Quinn and he looked at me like I was nuts.... we were trying to get the F*&(en gate open and finally we got in there and got him out and he was just looking at me all white and hugging me soooooo tight and crying.

I thought we had lost him... I am still shaking and it has been 3 hours later and I cannot stop crying... It was all in slow motion and I was screaming at the other boy to grab him and I just wanted to shake the F(**&n little bleep bleep bleep (I know he is only little but OMG). I can't believe he was in there!!!! I don't ever want a pool at my place EVER!!!! I know it was our responsiblity to make sure he was safe and honestly I didn't think he would go near the pool as he is usually so scared of water... and I told him in not certain terms he was not allowed near the pool without his arm bands on. I am crying just writing this and I just don't know how to calm down. It was like only seconds that we were having the conversation with him about not going near the way.

Anyway I am going now... just still really upset!

CM

Tapdancing

I want to learn how to tap dance... is there anyone out there in blogger land in the Waikato want to go with me. There is a night course on but I don't think I can go by myself. I know what you are all going to say... go for it go do it by yourself. I can't! The first time at doing things like that I just can't do it...

Come on!!! Someone come with me! Good exercise and we can feel silly together he he he... and meet some new friends.

My day has been a relaxing one going and doing the groceries and then just relaxing at home... OMG was it a scorcher of a day here.... This afternoon the boys had the slip'n slide up and the pool and were having fun. I sat on the swing and read my magazine and then on the banana lounger and just watched them. By 5pm though I was soooo hot that I went upstairs (while hubby looked after them) and filled up the spa bath with cold water and relaxed it was soooo nice.. BLOODY cold but really nice.

Well it has been six day's without a V and my headache has gone woohoooo. I have beaten the V habit. After 6 years of drinking V I am not suprised I had a major headache for a couple of days.

The nice thing was.... I got home on Friday after work and Crusher from the gym phoned me (trainer I have been talking with about food etc) to find out how kicking the V habit was going and I said that I hadn't had any since talking to her. She said she was proud of me! I must admit I am proud of myself too. I did feel quite lethargic and with less zoom in me when I quit but I think I feel better for it now. Someone asked me if I tried the sugarless V and yes I had but wasn't impressed with the after taste so never had one again yukkkkky.

I think I am back on track now... I don't know how the weight loss is going to go this Tuesday but I am not going to fear about it anymore as it was getting me depressed and to tell the truth I am getting a little tired of always talking about it. I am actually happier not posting exactly how much I have lost or gained and just posting that I have lost or gained on here..... it has put me into some sort of ease that I know I am doing what is right for me and it shouldn't be a competing thing... in my mind that is. The fact that I have changed my lifestyle and I am now chosing the right foods and if I don't I know I am not going to fall off the wagon. Over Xmas I was worried that I would go off the wagon and do the wrong thing. I know that I didn't lose but I know in my mind that I didn't eat badly.... I just have to change my thoughts...... The scales didn't show all the work I had done but my hubby in the Xmas break looked at me and said "I am proud of you" I broke down and cried because he is a person that keeps a lot to himself and for him to say that made me so happy. I had been waiting a long time for him to actually say it to me.

I was in the tea room at work the other day and someone was eating a Pizza Hutt pizza and they looked at me and said "sorry".... it got me thinking maybe I talk too much about weight loss and points and WW and I don't want people thinking they can't eat their lunch in front of me or for them to fear what I am thinking of them. It is just not right!!! It has to be their decision what they do and most of the girls are skinny anyway and they do a lot of exercise.

Anyway.... it is time for me to go and spend time with hubby.

Love ya all
Chubbymum

A non day today

A non day today...

Went to work told the boss I wasn't happy to sit around being bored anymore and told her that if I get put in that situation again I will be going into the children's area and helping out there instead of waiting and waiting for something to do. The reason I say this is because the computer that has the financial stuff on it is in another office and there are meetings in there and I cannot get to it... until our new computer is up and running again. She said she could tell I was upset about sitting there bored and not being able to get my work done. I said yes... she said I could do that if I wanted.

I also said that we have to have a chat about my work and what I am doing now....because I cannot sit around waiting for work. I want to know that I have duties and get on with it and not be a little girl in a school ground waiting for the teacher to tell her what to do. In my previous jobs I knew what my job was and I got on with it and I hate this not delegating business where she is too scared to let things go.

I am doing the budget for the whole centre and controlling that so... for now that is good.

Got home and sat outside watching the boys on their bikes and then had dinner and played with the eye toy with the boys again.....

Then hubby and I played Kinetics after the boys were in bed and wow it was a work out he he he I just couldn't stop laughing at hubby doing the kickboxing stuff because he was too lazy to get his legs up and kick and used his hands instead but it was fantastic..... He was a Amateur and I was a professional... now that would have been the first time that I was better than him in a sporty exercise thingy he he he so I will cherish that forever.

Anyway I still have a massive headache... I would say mainly to looking at the eye toy stuff but I had it at work too so maybe it is time to go to bed..

4 days without a V... wohoooo me!

Love Chubbymum

Can't stop laughing my head off

Ok... I will start with I have a splitting headache (had it all day from no V ho hum he he).

But today has been the most agrevating but the most funny as well.

Went to work today and it was another boring crappy day.... boss was in a mood and took it out on one of the companies on the phone in the end she said "I don't understand your computer speak" and the lady on the other end was saying "you are making things worse than they are" but the boss was right but was sick and tired of them not listening... well they listened to me and it seems to be getting sorted now I had a calm talk to the person on the other end. Wanted to slap my boss for getting upset over something so trivial and she needs to chill out.

Anyway....

Got home from work and the cat was all lethargic and wanting to get on my chest to cuddle (which isn't that weird usually) but he just seemed sad. Well he had an absess on his head so I took him to the vet and $87 later OUCH... but apparently he had a fever above normal for a cat so it was good that we took him in and now he is on antibiotics too poor wee kitty....

After that hubby and I went out and brought eye toy and playstation 2 and kinetic (which I have heard Kris speak about so much he he) and Eye toy groove and eye toy play 3 and we have been laughing since 6pm for 2 hours... The boys are going to be their bed now.... such sweaty little monkeys and my mother has been laughing non stop too.

We decided not to get the singstar as these games would be better as you stand in front of the tv waving your arms around to it. The Eye Toy Groove we had the most fun with as it is a dancing one and I was shaking my little bootie. You put your weight in and it tells you at the end hour many calories you burnt and in a 2 minute dance routine I burnt 78 calories he he he soooo much fun.

There is an embarrasing little part at the end where it shows you what you were dancing like he he he and now hubby is putting the boys in bed it is repeating me dancing..... oh my god my tummy was wobbling everywhere but then again it doesn't make me look as big as I thought I looked that is for sure.

The kitty has been hiding from us ever since we got home but has just come to say hello.

Kris and I were supposed to be going to kickboxing tonight but I think I am doing enough exercise here he he he but the headache is still there. I can't wait till I have been off the V for a while so I don't get them.

Anyway I am going to go and do Kinetics now byyyyeee

Love Chubbymum

Weigh in day today

Still wasn't feeling good this morning but didn't want to not got to my class. I wanted to ride my bike but it was pooring down with rain grrr... wasn't in the best of mood when I got to the gym but things got a little better after the class. Was a little annoyed that we had to go up the front though.... because when you are a big person looking at yourself in a mirror up the front is really off putting. Plus the speaker was right next to me and it was TOOOO loud.

Got home and took mum and corbin out shopping it was nice just to go out and not worry that you have to say no to this and no to that.

Corbin went to his school friends house this afternoon and we got to chatting and the friends mum wants to join WW with me and we also got into dancing as I really would like to go to a dance class and her and her husband are going to a rock in roll class tonight (hubby and I did it before our wedding and enjoyed it). I want to go to a tap dancing class or Ceroc class and hubby said he would do the ceroc class with me so we are going to explore classes and do it... wohoooo having fun with hubby and exercising at the same time.

Well I went to the weigh in tonight and I lost.... really weird considering I got my monthly this afternoon (and I have heavy ones he he) and I haven't been that wonderful this past week. GO FIGURE... I just don't know.!!!!

Anyway gotto go have dinner now.

Love ya all
Chubbymum