First Spinning Class Woohooo

I read this on a diary today.... and it really made me think OMG yes... this is what is working for me this time around. I am writing here in my diary and it keeps me accountable and since I had been restricting what I am feeling my weight loss has plateaued. Now that I am saying what I think on my diary I feel more like I am sticking to it. This journey has to be for me... but also it is great knowing that I am (maybe) inspiring others to know that they can do it too. Without the journals that I read when I first started I don't think I would have done it. It was because they could do it that I realised I could do it and that they felt just like me. So read this article... I find it quite interesting.

Diet & Nutrition
Journaling: The Inexpensive Cure for Emotional Eating
by Jeffrey Wilbert, PhD, for iVillage

Q:
I realize I'm an emotional eater, and I've had a weight problem for many years. I'm ready to do something about it, but I don't have the finances to seek counseling. What can I do to help myself?

A:
Let's talk about two of the most powerful self-help tools around: pen and paper.

Research studies show that those who are most likely to succeed at losing weight and keeping it off utilize a technique called self-monitoring. What's self-monitoring? Simply put, it's keeping track of yourself. It means tuning into your thoughts, feelings, goals and strategies. It involves charting your progress and rewarding your successes. It's also a way to engage in healthy self-expression, which is a key ingredient to changing a long-standing emotional relationship with food.

There are many specific ways to self-monitor. One of the oldest (and most frightening!) is to keep a record of daily caloric intake. Almost all traditional dieting strategies involve some form of this technique, so most of us are sick of doing it. Although burdensome, it is a way to become accountable to ourselves, and if we stick with it, it can be a potent method of staying on track with weight loss goals. However, most emotional eaters need to broaden the age-old food log and turn it into a "food and feelings" log, because it's not only important to tally how much you eat, but also why you eat it. Identifying the feelings and issues that trigger and accompany overeating is a crucial step toward developing healthy eating patterns.

Another powerful mode of self-monitoring is to keep a daily journal. Writing is therapeutic! Studies have shown that those who write about their feelings tend to improve not only their emotional health, but their physical health as well. In fact, one study showed that arthritis sufferers who wrote about traumatic life experiences showed a decrease in joint pain! A journal can be a private place to express your innermost thoughts and feelings, a place to get some perspective on what you're dealing with and a place to identify issues that might be in your way. Journaling is also an effective way to keep track of your changing inner self, as progress usually takes place in bits and pieces of insight that accumulate over time. Your journal can be a way to look back at where you were so you can appreciate how far you've come.

If you decide to keep a journal, you're doing yourself a big favor. How should you do it? It's an entirely personal decision. Let it be your own creation. If you want to use a fancy bound book of blank sheets, fine. If you want to use the computer, also fine. It doesn't have to be anything elaborate, though; the important thing is that you allow yourself freedom to express your uncensored thoughts and feelings. Remember, any form of self-monitoring will help you win your war with weight.

I did a spinning class this morning OMG I am sore now. I also did a fitness test with my LEAN trainer before the spinning class and as usual it was poor but my something or rather was up from last time and that was a great sign, because of being 35 and my weight for my age I am going to have a poor for quite some time I reckon but the percentage up is a good sign she said hmmmm not that I understand any of that.

She said that as from Tuesday she is giving us an exercise routine to do other than the LEAN classes on Tuesday and Thursday. Woohooo as I get a little bored when I am not doing it with the girls that is for sure and this way I will keep on track.

I have also got a deal with my trainer in regards to my nutritian and I have to email her every night with the days food and we are going to work on that as well. OMG that is so good of her to help me like this as it could cost heaps with a Dietician etc and Weight Watchers is great but sometimes I really need the extra help with the food too. Not that I am being bad but only because I need other alternatives some times.

You know it is amazing that apart from paying the gym membership the LEAN course is only $15 a week approx and it is sooooo much cheaper than having a one on one trainer but in a way we have that anyway. We get to meet other people as well and if you got a personal trainer they can start from $30 an hour OMG.

Breakfast
2 plain bread
Boiled egg mashed yummmy

Lunch
2 rolls
Tuna
Tomato
Mushrooms

Snack
WW Savory Snacks

Dinner
WW recipe Bacon Pasta....
Hmmmmm
With a little chiretzo (spelling hmm a little hot sausage but not a lot)
Beans
Carrots

I know today I had a little to much bread and not enough fruit but things were just so hectic and I need to sort out the choices and have a better breakfast. But I am finally looking at my food and thinking about it instead of thinking oh well did bad and that is it.

Anyway enough thinking for me tonight.

Love Chubbymum

Getting back on track woohoo

Woohooo I had a good class tonight.

Last week I met a really nice girl/lady... I think she is around my age but a lot slimmer he he he and we got on like a house on fire. She came tonight and said OMG I am glad you came back this week to the class. She said that she was wondering how my triathlon went on Sunday and when I was talking to her another lady said "I heard you did really well in the weekend at the triathlon" I said OMG am I being talked about and she said yes you are an inspiration. I said well then you should come to the LEAN class with us huh... and smiled. She was giving excuses but I will get her.

It was a great class and sooooo hard. I felt so sore afterwards and my hair is still wet (2 hours later). I worked it baby!!

I want to lose another kilo this week.. OMG I just feel like I have to do this because I am tired of plateauing I AM SICK OF IT!!

SFL is back up and running! Woohoo and I met a lovely lady called HERA on it and she comes from Hamilton it was great to know that someone in my own town was going through the same thing as me. I was heavier than her last year and with her determination she is going to do it that is for sure. What an inspiration she is. I wish her all the luck.

Breakfast
7.15am
2 Toast
1/4 Avocado

(breakfasts are my down pour when working and
starting work at 7.30am I have to find some healthy
alternatives than bread but it is the easiest to
eat in the car).

Snack
10.15am
Banana

Lunch
12.00pm
Rice
Mince (Kaweka new product out in
New Zealand quite nice)

Snack
3.20pm
10 rice crackers
Hummus

Dinner
7.25pm (after class yahoo)
Fish
Tomato pasta penne (homemade)
Beans
and
Peaches

Anyway I am on my way. I am doing this for me FINALLY and I am doing it. I have got my exercise on track... I need to work on my food and for the next month I am going to achieve this!

Love ya all hun!

Chubbymum

On such a high! Feeling loved

I had a so so day at work today but that is ok as it isn't my life it is only a means to have money to have life. I think I have come across that now. I don't live to work I work to live he he.

Anyway got home from work and felt so tired. I think I am feeling it still from Sunday and I haven't been sleeping too well as I am still on a high.

So while my son was watching tv I went for a little snooze on the couch he he he. But he is such a little sweetie that he just watched his cartoons... (don't fear I don't let him watch tv a lot that is for sure).

Hubby came home and we both went out in the cars to the petrol station to fill up with petrol and my husband put petrol in our diesel (GRRRRRR) so I left him there and went to Weight Watchers so he could sort it out IDIOT. He was waiting for his brother to come (as he is a mechanic).

So anyway I went to weigh in... now I wasn't expecting to lose weight as I had done a lot of exercise and I have tracked but not wonderfully so I said to the lady I hadn't lost but I did... I did I LOST 1 KILO now I am hoping that I am back on track and that I keep on with the tracking because that is what is failing me at the moment. Not the exercise I have that down.

So I was really happy with that and my WW leaders came over and gave me a big hug about the triathlon and I just felt teary and then one of my WW friends came over with a bunch of flowers it was so sweet and I felt like overwelmed that is for sure.

So after I had hugged my friend for the lovely flower my WW leaders asked me to come over behind the desk for a while. They had finally made my present. I started crying because they thought about me and what I needed the most and it was a laminated star with their faces on one side and then quotes on the other side the quotes being:

1. Don't give up what you most want for what you want at the moment.
2. You must begin to think of yourself as the person you want to be.
3. Empower yourself and be the person you Dream about.

Are they amazing or what. At the top they say Chubbymum is a star (obviously using my real name he he)I cried as it was so touching that they thought to make me this to help me on my journey. I have to do this. I have to lose this weight for them to know that they are supporting the right person. A person that wants to do this.

So anyway the other bit of weirdness for the night was that Kris went to weigh in and I heard her say "no that won't do" and then the next minute she took off her top.

People just looked at her and with that she lost 200grams so that meant she had a loss of 100grams. Now I tell you! What does that prove?

The week before she had a top on and does it really justify that she had a good week when she didn't? I was quite disgusted really especially when there were people there that she didn't know and she was taking her top off and some men were walking in just as she was getting her top on. She thought it was a big joke and afterwards people were talking about like 'how could she do such a thing' with scoully faces. Even her mum said that it didn't show anything because she didn't lose correctly.

I suppose in our minds if we have a loss we have a loss but sometimes you have to wonder if the loss on the scales was true and will it make a difference to lose from week to week.

So anyway got home and the car wasn't home. Apparently it had to stay there and tomorrow the mechanics will have to drain the tank so that we can put petrol in it GRRRR if it's not one thing its another. So hubby is taking the day off tomorrow to sort it all out.

Anyway I have blabbed enough he he he I am going up to my beddy byes.

Love ya all and thank you for your support... it is greatly appreciated.

Love Chubbymum

Triathalon

Just to let you all know.

OMG OMG OMG I did it!! I did it!!

I was so nervous today!

I couldn't sleep last night I woke up every hour on the hour and I was getting so frustrated.

I got up at 5.30 and took a shower and then got myself ready for the triathalon.

I had porridge for breakfast as I felt like I should have a great start to the day.

When we got there the girls were all pumped and we went on the bikes to warm up for 10 minutes.

I went first as I was walking and the others were running. Plus one other lady started at the same time because she was doing 2km more than the rest of us...

Got hubby to walk the first part with me as it was down at the river so we dropped off the car at the end of the river part of the walk.

Hubby kept saying slow down slow down but the music I had chosen was making me walk faster and hey that was ok I was feeling really good about it.

I did the 10km in 1 hour and 35 minutes (in my practice I did it in 1 hour 55 minutes) OMG OMG 20 minutes off my time!!!

Woohoooo I was smiling for the last 10 minutes of the walk because I knew that I was beating my time. I was sore but I was pumped that is for sure.

I got back and the receptionist at the gym was outside screaming and waving her hands around saying woohooo way to go and then I went to cross the street to come over and she said keep coming keep coming or your time will be longer. I said "I am not going to keep coming when the car is coming my way he he he"

Got upstairs at the gym and the girls were flabagasted that I was there earlier than I said I would have been. I got up there and one of the ladies came out saying "you are too early... too early I had 400metres to go on the rower and I had to go really fast just so that I could come and see you he he he you are too early he" so I asked our trainer if she would phone my hubby to say I was early and could he come down and she came back after phoning him and said that he said "OMG what is wrong with her she is too early" he he he so I shocked everyone.

I did the 8km Bike ride in 23 minutes and the girls were all there giving me support and finally my family turned up he he he.. hubby was smiling at me like I was OH I don't know.

Then I got on the rower and half way through I was thinking OMG I want to beat my 12 minutes that I did last week. Then I heard my mother in law at the back of me saying OMG I thought you would have just gotten back now and here you are almost finished. 5 minutes in to my rowing the last person was finishing and I still had more time to go. I did the row in 10 minutes and 9 seconds OMG OMG I shaved off so much but I was now all wobbly and tired like you couldn't believe.

We went and sat at the reception area with bananas and champagne and orange juice... it was like soooooo exciting. I was on such a high!! such a high! I had done it!

EVERYONE I HAVE DONE IT!! IT STILL DOESN'T SEEM REAL BUT I DID IT I DID IT I DID IT WOOHOOOOO.

Came home and felt so hungry that hubby made me a bagel with tomato and lettuce etc it was sooo great to eat yummy food. Then I went up for a LONG spa bath with bubbles hmmmmmmm.

I am going out for dinner with the ladies tonight and I can't wait... It is going to be so much fun.

OH I forgot to mention that one of the ladies gave us all a present. It was a key ring with a little sneaker and tennis ball on it to remind us of our Triathalon.

This is a photo of all of us before we start the Triathalon (the lady in pink is our trainer.


This is us 2 hours later woohooo we have finished and we all look buggered he he he. These ladies are a wonderful bunch of ladies and I am so previledged to have them as friends. I have achieved so much in this LEAN class and I am happy I did it. I did it! I did it! and I met some great friends along with it Woohoooo.


Thanks everyone for reading. Love you all.

Love Chubbymum

Finished on blogspot

Hi Anonymous.

I am now posting somewhere else privately and since I have been doing that I have been doing so much better with my weight loss and tracking, and feeling more content because I can freely write what I am truly thinking about things in my life, and that was the whole point of my diary when I first started this.

When I feel right about making it public I will tell you (if you email me at the address below) and I will put you on my email list to tell you when it is open to others. Would be nice to know who you are anonymous... I don't bite he he.

Anyone else that reads my diary please email me. I promise to send you the new address when I am sorted :-)

Thank you all for all your support I truly appreciate it.

I don't think it will be a long time but I just need to do this right now.

Love CM

Thursday and Friday

It is Friday Wohooooo!

Yesterday was so full on that by the time I got to do my entry I didn't have the energy to write in it.

I went to my final LEAN before the Triathalon on Sunday. She worked us so hard that is for sure and said to us that today (thurs) was the last day of exercise before the event. OMG not doing exercise on Friday was doing my head in that is for sure... how did I get to be so addicted to exercise... hmmm just don't know.

So I took Corbin to school and then took mum to get her hair cut and we did some shopping. Quinn was such a good little man while we were shopping and so we gave him $2 so he could buy what he wanted at the $2 shop... now I thought he would go for those dreaded toys (which are mainly guns or swords etc grrrr) but he chose to buy a little bag of lollies.... now that wasn't good either but I don't give him lollies much so hey once in a while isn't going to hurt him and at least he didn't have a toy that he could hit his brother with he he.

We were heading back home when mum said she wanted to go to Chartwell for a while so I took her there and she asked Quinn if he wanted to go and he did Wohooooo I got some time to myself so yep I went for a walk he he... I wanted to check out my new back pack with teh water bladder in it so I can have on the triathalon on Sunday. Wow it took a little while to get used to sucking at the straw for the water to come up but it was great to be walking free with my hands free. I think I smiling the whole way... some of the way I felt like I was being a little bit like a nerd he he he but lately I don't care what anyone thinks because I am getting healthy.

I went to pick up Corbin from school and a parent came up to me (now I only just met her this year) but she came to me and said "I don't know if I will upset you but you have lost so much weight and I thought I would tell you how great you are looking" Wow I just smiled and said thank you... I was a little embarrased but I was happy that she had the guts to tell me... it was great.

I am getting a lot of compliments lately and it is really boosting me that is for sure.

Today Friday I went to visit my old work mates at the University and when I walked in there were gasps... I was a little stunned but they said that I was looking fantastic. They hadn't seen me since October last year and they were giving me compliments left right and centre. I was telling Jeremy and said that I had only lost 5 kilos since then but he said my shape has changed because of the fat changing to muscle and that is what they are seeing. One of my friends there said that I have more of a waist now and a neck and that my face is more defined. Wow... what a high compliments give you.

I have been good since Wednesday and tracking as I had gotten off track with the tracking he he he but now I am back up and running.

It feels great to have my two days off again... as the last couple of weeks I have been working that extra day and it is taking it's tole on me now.

I am so nervous about Sunday triathalon. I don't know how it is going to go but I have to do it so I am going to do it.

Anyway I might update later... got to go and take mum out to New World ho hum... I hate grocery shopping.

Love CM

Telling it how I feel it!

I must say thank you TRIXIE!!! I miss you heaps. I wish you didn't live in Australia. I can't believe after 20 years of being friends that we are still in contact over the sea etc. Thank you for still reading and supporting me. I do appreciate it. Now I will publicly say 'Come on girl start a blog so I can read about you ;-)'

Thank you all for comments I do appreciate it. I was wondering for a minute there if you all had gotten pissed off that I had changed (once again)and you had decided not to read me anymore.

I went to the gym tonight and THOROUHLY enjoyed it. I was speaking with the receptionist there when I got there and she said "do you mind if I say something" OHHH I got worried then. She said we have been worried about you until a couple of weeks ago. I said why were you worried? She said because for the last 6 months you have been more in to helping Kris out with herself than you are with yourself and that we were worried that it was bringing you down. I didn't think that it had and when she said that I sort of thought... how could they see it and I only just see it.

I suppose I was for quite some time continually telling Kris that she can do it and she can push herself and for the receptionist to say that they were all worried but didn't know how to approach me made me wonder how come I didn't see it before. I suppose I like encouraging people because it makes me think that if I can encourage them I can do it myself... but I haven't been. I have been slacking and not concentrating on myself like I had at the start of last year.

It is going to stop from now on... the receptionist was in the class tonight and she buddied me and said that she finds I am such an inspiration and in the last couple of weeks been watching me doing this for myself and glad that I am finally concentrating on me. Wow she put me on a high and made me think about me...

Why can't I find someone to go to the gym with that motivates me and listens to me about my day? I do find that I need someone to push me and said that to my trainer.. especially food wise... so my trainer said she would check my food diary for me and talk to me about my choices.

So I now have both my WW leader and my trainer helping me. OMG that is fantastic because I need to work out how I am doing with my food.

I think I am doing well but I am not losing in the way I would like.. I don't think that I am chosing the right things honestly. I know I am keeping within my points and trying to do the right amount of carbs and fruit etc but those choices can be better... but maybe in my mind those choices aren't what I want he he he ya know what I mean... like I am giving up??? maybe that is it? Not giving up on food just that I don't want to give up the things I like...hmmmm.

I am thinking more about my food lately. I am reading that book I mentioned about in my post the other night and it certainly makes me think about my whole weight loss.

I must say I am please with Weight Watchers subscriptions at the moment. I subscribed to their magazine while I had the 2 years for 1 year price and I didn't get my first one when I thought I should have... but thought well I just subscribed I will give them the benefit of the doubt but when a friend received the latest magazine and I still hadn't gotten mine and it was a week later... I started to worry. So I emailed them and she sent me the latest one and added an extra magazine on my subscription. I was totally pleased with how fast they replied.

OH God I am babbling on again aren't I. I really feel like I am back to writing about me and not fearing about how I am feeling, or what anyone thinks. At the start of my journey I wasn't afraid of saying what I thought and through getting it out on here I was not dwelling about it in my mind anymore.

A great friend of mine (Leonnie) phoned me last night and she said that she doesn't know how I can be so candid about my life and what I am doing on my blog.... and maybe I can do it because people on here (apart from Leonnie and Trixie) don't know me (as such)... don't know my past and so this is a way to get it out and not to fear because it isn't going to hurt anyone here and in the long run it is about getting it off my chest so I don't brew about it.

I know when I was younger I used to fear everything and didn't want to try anything and never did exercise etc.. and tried everything under the sun to not do any exercise but now I wonder why? what was the problem in doing exercise... I am enjoying it so much now and if I would have opened my mind when I was a kid then maybe I wouldn't be as big as I am now (or was he he). I want to instill that in my boys... that exercise is fantastic and fun and don't fear it or fear that anyone else thinks it is silly because it is good for them. I hope it works and I hope they take heed.

Anyway I have babbled too much.

Love ya all
Chubbymum