Ok I have been battling with this for 2 months now and I have decided after last nights weigh in (which I lost...but not as much as I really thought warranted with the efforts I put it for 3 weeks solid).
I am not going to put my weight up for a while..... I am going to say I lost or I gained and I am going to keep writing like I have but I have been angry for my loss of interest because of the competitiveness that I have. I don't want to compete because it makes me back off!!! and this is the way that I feel I can stop it in my mind.
I want to lose for me! I don't want to keep thinking why am I not losing as much as others. It is driving me insane and the more I try the less I lose and I cannot handle that at the moment.
I was sooooo angry with my family and with me last night after the weigh in (even though I lost) but I felt with the effort that I put in.... others that I know would lose a lot more. I shouldn't have been angry with my family that is for sure but took it out on them and it was wrong.
OMG I am tired of hearing... 'muscle weighs more than fat' that is for sure... I am not happy with that excuse at all... because I have been doing exercise for a year now not a month or a week and the muscle thing seems to get used for everything ya know.
I have enjoyed the last couple of weeks with the exercise I have done. It has been interesting and I have pushed myself and I have learnt heaps that I need to try different things and do things for me more often as it gives me such a kick and such a thrill of excitment that I did this for me.. he he he he
Ok... enough from me.
Good night everyone
Love Chubbymum
6 comments:
You just do whatever works for you!
I have to agree with the others - do what works for you. While I know that we aren't supposed to compare ourselves to others - it is hard not to so if this is what is going to keep you going - good for you for doing it !!!
Take care and hang in there - you have done such an amazing job already and I am pleased to have been able to share this journey with you !
Have a great week - Me
Yeap you just do what works for you hun! I too compare myself to others frequently and get myself down when I do that as I see how well they have done in a shorter time frame to me... but I have to remember we are all different and I also tell myself well at least with losing it slowly (like I am) I will be more inclined to keep it off! I am not saying the others won't keep it off either... but thats just my way of thinking.
Sorry for rambling - we are all here for you hun!
*hugs*
Yeah I agree with the above comments....you need to do what works for you hun...it IS hard not to get competitive. I find that at times when I feel like that, I need to refocus and remember what I'm doing, why I'm doing it and for who! You're going so well....You should be so proud of yourself!
I'm with the others - do what feels good for you!
If you know you are eating right and exercising, who cares about the numbers!
It's the way you feel that counts:)
Totally agree with the others - I know I used to get so fed up with not getting the results I wanted, the scales can vary so much - up heaps one day, then back down - I sort of think the main thing is just to keep on going, maybe look at the loss over a fortnightly or even monthly period - you are giving it your best shot. We all want to get there in a hurry but I've realised the main thing is as long as you work at it - you will get where you want, doesn't really matter how long it may take. I reckon you have done so well!!! Keep smiling:)
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