Second post for the day

This is my second post for the day and I really did think that my day couldn't get bad... nope nope nope I was wrong. Hubby's brother decided he would phone and say he needed us to take him to his work (he went back to his old job as they offered it to him) to take his tools there, as he only has a motor bike. (He is a mechanic). That is fine and I didn't mind that, but then we had to wait for him to arrive, which was not until 11am (3 hours later) when we had made plans to do stuff today and then when he arrived hubby and him made plans to do a couple more things so the stuff we were going to do as a family was stuffed up. I can tell you ever since he has come home I just want to strangle both him and his mother.

She NEVER in the two years that her son was away asked us over for dinner and basically the only time she ever took our boys out is if we asked her to and as soon as her precious son came home from Europe she has been all smiley and talkative and doing lots with him... which in a way I can understand as he has been away for two years but when the kids phoned to say they want to do something with her she always has the excuse of she has lots of school marking to do or her study or other things. Especially this holiday she was saying that she was overloaded yet she went out with my brother in law lots and the kids suffered. Sometimes I just feel like packing up and leaving town and moving because then maybe my boys will get to see their grandmother more. I get so annoyed because my Dad would have spent time with them and did stuff with them if he was still alive yet she is and can't be bothered...

I got so angry you wouldn't believe with my hubby that he was breaking our plans to go and do this and yet he went anyway. I said to him that if he went I wouldn't be back when he got back and I wasn't. I went out from 11.30 to 5pm and did things for me. I even went to the library and went and parked by the lake and read my book and had a snooze. Thought that since I am the one looking after the boys all the time that I was going to leave him to take the oldest to a birthday party and look after everything else. I didn't want to be angry today I wanted to spend time with my family.

But with all that stress I kept thinking that I want to get McDonalds and I passed KFC and there was a really nice muffin place in town too but I was proud of myself I got sushi and a V and I went and ate it at the lake. I didn't sit where all the other food places were so that I could eat. I really could smell the big mac's while I was driving and yet I avoided it.

At the start of the year if I had an arguement with hubby I would have gone and got food and ate till my hearts content.

I felt so lonely today. I miss my friend Aroha today... because I know that if she was here in town that I could have gone over to her place and talked or we would have gone out for a while. I don't have that here... all my friends have moved out of town and I sat at a Lake instead of going out with a friend. I didn't realise how lonely I was until today. I have people I do things with but I miss the friendship I have with Aroha... I mean she listens... she doesn't just pretend to listen she listens and talks and we have fun and I know I can count on her. Why did she have to leave and go and live in Wellington?? Why is it so hard to make friends at 35... it is so hard! Anyway I am going to stop now before I can't stop crying.

My sad day today sorry guys but I needed to get this out in my diary. My life isn't always smooth and wonderful.

Chubbymum